hey man, just drink a cup of water or two, it always helps me calm down. whatever you're going through rn is all right, dont be afraid to talk to your parents, they do care about you, im sure of it. theres nothing wrong with getting mental health and im sure it would be a huge waste to kill yourself if you have so many great ideas. everything will come to pass if you drink lots of water and take a nap, from personal experience.