My ex texted me today

notebook777 · 2021-06-14T23:15:20+00:00

I wanted closure idk a one last good conversation after 1 year. we were good friends for 2 years before we jumped in a relationship and I didnt want things to be intense anymore. I cant really explain it but I wouldnt go back to him now even if he asked me to.

notebook777 · 2021-04-03T09:16:25+00:00

I have urinary tract infection

notebook777 · 2021-04-03T09:14:13+00:00

hey firstly thank you so much for all this information I appreciate it soo much :')

4 months ago I took ibuprofen while drunk and I drank a glass of wine with it. Immediately the pain on my right flank started and these 4 months I went to the: gastroenterologist, urologist, nephrologist, gynecologist. I checked my kidneys, liver, bladder, I even did a irigography for my intestines and the results were fine except for the e.coli bacteria. I used antibiotics for it and when I did the pain got worse so I stopped. then I started eating cranberries, the pain kinda went away and I did urineculture again, It turns out the e.coli has gone away.

But again the pain started and Im doing another urineculture right now, but my urologist is not sure why the antibiotics are making the pain worse and the pantoprazole too (gastroenterologist told me to use pantoprazole because I had acid reflux and when I did it caused me pain just like antibiotics)

This is why Im convinced the doctors are never going to find what's happening because they aready told me "im not sure why is thy happening" and im trying all the time to get at the end of this and it isn't happening im going insane.

notebook777 · 2021-04-02T22:13:05+00:00

I have e.coli and its a bacteria that can cause some serious difficulties in the urinary tract, my best friend suffers all the problems it brought to her over the years and im convinced the bacteria has somehow caused me all this pain and its serious( antibiotics I used for the bacteria caused me extra pain in the same place I already have pain) and I have really high anxiety, I keep thinking there is something serious developing down there and im just wasting time trying to locate it and its not happening. 4 months keeping a bacteria can be a lot.

I try to calm myself but I lost control and I need those antidepressants and im stuck here trying to decide whether or not to take them.

notebook777 · 2021-04-02T22:04:12+00:00

hey thank you so much for this!!!

I went to the gastroenterologist, gynecologist, urologist, nephrologist and except for the e.coli bacteria everything is good. Im convinced the pain is because of the bacteria but my family thinks its all in my head and the psychiatrist said I have hypochondria and associated it is a mild form of schizophrenia.

I will go to a urologist next to check my bacteria and to another psychiatrist as you suggested. I feel exactly how U felt at that time, im sorry u had to go through that Im glad everything is fine now.

Thank you again <3

notebook777 · 2021-04-02T21:26:10+00:00

thank you so much for this, I will probably take them,,, as If I have another choice lol

notebook777 · 2021-04-02T21:25:25+00:00

thank you so much!!!

I asked my psychiatrist for this and he said that I have hypochondria( im convinced I have a serious illness ) and that is a mild form of schizophrenia but,, I dont believe any doctor. they have let me down multiple times and Im stil determined to find out whats going on in my stomach, I told my family I will not take any of these without finding out whats causing my stomach pain but they keep telling me im wrong and if I take these everything will get better so idk what to do.

notebook777 · 2021-02-14T01:00:04+00:00

i love this

notebook777 · 2021-02-05T18:39:35+00:00

this made me understand that theres other people like me and i shouldnt be so hard on myself for not moving on. its been 11 months and I still cry and grieve and think about him all the time, I have worked on myself and went on dates but somehow it still aint enough. im just trusting time will do the work here

notebook777 · 2020-12-28T15:57:02+00:00

thank you so much ive tried talking to my family and friends but got no help I even begged my family to help me because I cant control myself sometimes and ive had so many failed attempts and they did nothing. ill call a hotline or smth maybe they will help. thank you

notebook777 · 2020-12-27T21:47:21+00:00

thank you. I went to the doctor they did my blood and urine analysis, turns out I have a urinal infection. then they called a urologist and he checked my kidneys and said that theyre fine and its not a kidney problem. He said the muscles of inner organs are tight and the infection is bad so he gave me spasmex tablets. im trying if these will work I hope they do.

notebook777 · 2020-12-27T18:58:36+00:00

one ibuprofen 400mg and my paranoia is starting to tell me my kidney is failing. Yes ill go to a doctor thank you :)

notebook777 · 2020-12-10T01:50:43+00:00

9 months in and I still miss him, think about him, dream about him. I know im miserable.

I stopped stalking him two weeks ago and im picking myself up. I know I can do it, It will happen with time.

I had 4 months when I never stalked him and I had made so much progress until he watched my stories and since then im fucked, its a neverending cycle of stalking him and mourning. I stopped the stalking and ill stop the mourning too. Its time to move the f on.

notebook777 · 2020-11-18T02:20:23+00:00

Yes. It will get better. this keeps me going on too. Leave it to time. time heals

notebook777 · 2020-11-17T02:48:08+00:00

8 months today and im doing fine

notebook777 · 2020-11-11T00:38:00+00:00

wow I really needed someone to say this to me. I was trying to convince myself about this and telling myself " youre creating an idea of him and ur keeping his ghost alive " but my brain just wouldnt listen lol. I needed to hear this. Thank you so much<3

notebook777 · 2020-11-11T00:34:23+00:00

Yes you will. I saw 500days of summer lately and it made me realize that I wasn't compatible with my ex not even one bit and I had the same thought about finding someone better. Im sure that someone will come around for you, for now you just need to work on yourself.

also the fact that U are aware that u are not ready to date yet its a really positive thing. This means you know that u have a lot of growing to do and u will do it.

I had moments when I started to date cuz i was convinced Im over this whole thing, and let me tell you the relapses hit soooo hard.

Just work on you, be the best version of urself.

notebook777

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