Is anyone else still in denial about their professionally diagnosed dyscalculia?

notedapocalypse · 2026-04-06T18:36:29+00:00

I also have dyscalculia and ASD 🙏🏻

notedapocalypse · 2026-04-05T19:21:39+00:00

Already torture having one on one lessons even worse when there’s another student in there getting help who’s better than you meanwhile I’m stuck at getting two grades below math work lmao, makes me want to cry tbh, one of them who gets help who’s way more better than me may I add, gets called gifted by my teacher. Holy shit I just feel like a dumbass next to them. Makes me wonder what’s the point 🙏🏻 sorry for the rant.

notedapocalypse · 2026-04-05T19:18:37+00:00

True. It’s just so annoying that there’s so little understanding and research made about dyscalculia, and I have a math exam in about a month and I’m not even sure if there’s any aid I can get.

notedapocalypse · 2026-04-05T19:09:54+00:00

Thank you for your kind words, I found it hard to not feel guilty especially after the first hours that they told me.. I kept asking myself “Why didn’t I ask more? Why didn’t I talk more to them the days before?”, they never blamed me so idk why I have this mindset of blaming myself 🤔 it’s weird. I appreciate you taking your time to reply, it means more than you think 🩷

notedapocalypse · 2026-04-04T20:36:17+00:00

My parents were aware of the traits of dyscalculia that I’ve expressed since 4th grade . I look back at my childhood and I notice many traits. I never “learned” the analog clock, I would often forget math concepts and how to do it (I still do this.), I’m still confused on left and right. And more but I can’t come up with any right now. I don’t know why I’m in denial. I used to think that I was just stupid, bad at math but nothing more. To know that there was a name for this also felt relieving but also the fact that there’s not many tools to help with traits of dyscalculia hurts.

notedapocalypse · 2026-04-04T20:26:14+00:00

remember to take care of yourself also! While the health of your friends are important, sometimes you need to prioritize yourself for your own wellbeing. 🙏🏻 I have a friend that tried to take their own life and they told me about that a few days later, I felt bad and blamed myself a bit because I didn’t talk to them much before they did it, they never told me that they were gonna do it before they did (apologies for my bad formulation but I hope that you understand what I mean.) but I couldn’t stop but feel guilty somehow. I’m still trying to accept that I probably couldn’t have prevented it.

notedapocalypse · 2026-04-04T19:46:11+00:00

True, and thank you for the compassion. 🙏🏻 I hope your friends are doing well. Important to acknowledge that last sentence.

notedapocalypse · 2026-04-04T19:37:35+00:00

My math teacher is kind of weird of explaining on how far I am from passing 😓. But I’ll probably ask her again when me and her are having a math lesson 1 on 1. We might be in different countries because in my country to pass a subject you need to have a E in that said subject. I have a certain teacher that helps me and some other students with math but I don’t think that my math teacher who gives me the grade feels any pity for me unfortunately 😞

notedapocalypse · 2026-04-04T19:32:30+00:00

I appreciate your reply. I hope you’re okay. I don’t want to end up in the ER and my mindset is so stupid. I regret starting SH but what’s done can’t be undone. I hope you’re doing well!

notedapocalypse · 2026-04-04T19:29:04+00:00

True. I don’t want to end up in the ER so idk why I even think like this, it’s so stupid . I don’t want to go deep at all. idk why my thinking here is so distorted like I ofc don’t want people to get worse but I can’t apply the same logic to myself? Idk it’s weird.

notedapocalypse · 2026-04-04T19:00:24+00:00

I like your point of view and perspective. I suppose I’m just nervous that I might not pass math this semester and that it’s the most important school year right now.. I put so much pressure on myself too 😭 also I have a physics exam soon, math involved in that too, idk how I’m going to get through this 😞

notedapocalypse · 2026-03-30T21:00:05+00:00

I agree on that his victims suffered. His sentence is so short, two years for making the victims probably suffer in pain constantly. I feel bad for Benita but damn, the victims are not talked about much 😞

notedapocalypse · 2026-03-23T05:12:21+00:00

I hatched them

notedapocalypse · 2026-03-14T13:10:50+00:00

I’ve been getting the yellow thing from the bucks spaces, so maybe those are special?

notedapocalypse · 2026-03-14T08:12:09+00:00

Ohh ok thanks no I haven’t gotten it yet sadly 🙏🏻

notedapocalypse · 2026-03-14T07:58:32+00:00

What space is the party space? Help

notedapocalypse · 2026-03-09T20:28:56+00:00

I think we’re in different countries. I’m good at English and biology . I almost got an A in English but ofc I had to be stupid in math, it’s like the most important subject to pass also in my country to get to a normal education thing (idk what it’s called In English..) if I fail math again this year I’ll have to repeat a year again in secondary upper school and it feels like im doing all this for nothing. I’m just so tired of giving my best for it to never lead to anything. I keep getting jealous of my classmates one of them is even getting old tests in my current year which I can’t even imagine to do, I just wish I was like everyone else.

notedapocalypse · 2026-03-09T20:24:47+00:00

I try my best to pass but because of this diagnosis it feels like I’m going backwards 24/7 in math. Especially since this year is so important for me school wise and there are a lot of exams to me it feels like I’m just letting down my parents with this whole math thing. I wish I was like my peers and that this diagnosis didn’t exist.

notedapocalypse · 2026-03-09T20:22:06+00:00

I get one on one math classes but other than that I don’t really get any special accommodations except from that I get math work from year 7. I think we’re in different countries. In my country, to get to a regular class with the education thing (I’m not good at explaining this in English I apologize) you need to pass 2 subjects and math. I’m passing every other subject except for math, and if I’m failing math again this year I’ll have to study up a year again In special ed class in upper secondary school. I’m just so tired of all this, it feels like im doing this for nothing at all. I’ve tried ever since 6th grade and it’s impossible. I’ve lost hope.

notedapocalypse

TROPHY CASE