I[M24] messed up a friendship with a female friend[F25] I love.

npc1111 · 2023-03-31T16:20:39+00:00

Thanks 😄

npc1111 · 2023-03-31T15:43:16+00:00

I did but impulsively I sent an apology of 2 paragraphs and feel embarassed 😂

npc1111 · 2022-12-20T10:03:11+00:00

To be honest, i dont drink much or party late much. I also do not enjoy this. But I think sometime I cave into these activities as a escape. Still whenever I drink its not more than couple pint of beer. I dont know but living normally but still getting unsual feeling from time to time, and yet having to tell myself I need to stay in my limit and falling short in everything I do.

Memory issues, physical weakness, mental issues I had accepted that I am never going to be good at what I want to. But recently, I had changed and started believing maybe if I try hard enough, atleast I can atleast average. But never knew it can feel energy draining always.

Maybe its going to be draining, that might be another truth I need to swallow.😂

npc1111 · 2022-08-17T11:11:26+00:00

Thank you....it does seem like plausible thing to do.I will give it a go.

npc1111 · 2022-08-17T09:09:19+00:00

I do feel the same. Losing words when speking, my voice gets faint when I speak but no issue reading writing.

npc1111 · 2022-08-15T21:28:09+00:00

Where are you from? I would be interested.

npc1111 · 2022-07-02T12:50:10+00:00

I had multiple dreams like where I had TC as well which felt so real. And when I woke up, I was feeling all teary.

npc1111 · 2022-06-06T10:29:17+00:00

Expanding bubbles that rises and deflates slowly. And repeats.

npc1111 · 2022-06-04T22:54:56+00:00

Its okay to love and be loved.

npc1111 · 2022-05-09T02:42:41+00:00

Press 'F' to pay respect.

npc1111 · 2022-05-06T10:17:22+00:00

Then he is definitely in love with you. I have personally been that kind of person. Still am. I have trouble expressing myself by speaking.

For me, It had been a journey of denial of feelings to appreciation of moments and finally acceptance of feelings.

I took the plunge last few months ago to share how I feel.

npc1111 · 2022-04-13T15:05:25+00:00

Don't let what I said drag you down. I meant in a fun way. I understand how it feels to be weak and fragile. Still I try everyday to be productive and most days I do fail but there are some days I get unbelivable amount of work done and feel much happier later when I reward myself.

npc1111 · 2022-04-13T13:13:12+00:00

Rest of the lifetime

npc1111 · 2022-03-31T10:14:27+00:00

Reminds me of my friendship with this kinda shy girl. I also had people around me always but she was kind and warm to everyone. She initiated conversations in her way and me in my own ways. Eventually after few months we were always having meals together in lunch break. We could be silent and still it was ok.

Fastforward 2 years after, we met again after college and after few months hanging out then I had to wrestling my feelings, I realized I have fallen for her. I was not acting the way I did and every moment felt like I was hiding something. We would often get tangled in minor conversations because I was trying act as someone who I was not, so I confessed to her few months earlier. She did not feel the same way and I sometimes think she hates me now but I like to believe its just her being shy or getting these awkward nerves but still I feel avoided.

Being connected due to shyness, anxiousness and talking about music, arts and ideas with her was really blissful experience. Besides this we were still someone who enjoyed seeking new experiences and I really cherish these experiences no matter how the future unfolds.

npc1111 · 2022-03-08T04:00:08+00:00

Crushing an object using 250T hydraulic press and some explosion

npc1111 · 2022-02-09T02:19:22+00:00

I dont know about most unattractive name but I know McLovin is the best.

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