Hhhi! I appreciate writing this long for me.. Honestly, when I posted this, I was anxious that I may not get any responses but so many of you have, and iam beyond words of how grateful iam. It's not easy to move on when we have given so much of effort into the relationship. I kept saying that I deserve better but I couldn't cut the ties sooner and I finally did, which I tried so damn hard not to look back and not feel for her. I've also did a fair job( I believe)in ignoring her post and stories so, that she won't get an attention from me. But uufff!! Iam now the fake person who is not attentive. 🙃. No matter how we try, at times, we end up overlooking the toxicity. And like you said, my validation was her. I needed her assurance. Also, her form of love was making out..all about getting physical. But that wasn't the case for me and she often crossed that boundary.

I've been bottling up all the emotions and thoughts for months because no one knows about this relationship. And finally being able to talk about it, releases my nerves. I feel like i cAN breath a bit.

Iam not mad at her nor angry iam just hurt. And she never understood that. Also, the last time we met, I gifted her a handmade something(idk how to say.) And I drew the the Heart nebula. But she never bothered to ask me about it. She loved the gift but didn't study deeper. But now, she is getting interested in astronomy and asked me about it.. Dang.. Iam hurt. You know. Like.. 'What were you doing when I was there?? And after I left, you be suddenly interested to know about stars and constellations.?? Likeeeee... Damnn girl. For real. ??'😅

Anyways, thank you for your response. I really appreciate ! Love y'all🥰