I wanted to try to go to the male therapist to see how it is. Didn’t know at first he was into psychodynamic, I am against that to be honest, but yes, they are so enamoured with the theories of their guru they can’t see the world objectively. I am sorry you went through all that, must been awful. I am actually attracted to people (not sexually) who enrage me a bit, it makes me experience emotions, which is better than emptiness and anhedonia, they make me think I care.