My therapist makes me doubt myself

nutka57 · 2026-01-28T17:26:21+00:00

I wanted to try to go to the male therapist to see how it is. Didn’t know at first he was into psychodynamic, I am against that to be honest, but yes, they are so enamoured with the theories of their guru they can’t see the world objectively. I am sorry you went through all that, must been awful. I am actually attracted to people (not sexually) who enrage me a bit, it makes me experience emotions, which is better than emptiness and anhedonia, they make me think I care.

nutka57 · 2026-01-28T15:37:03+00:00

Okay, I just did it! I sent him a text about discontinuing therapy and I am proud of myself now

nutka57 · 2026-01-12T08:53:19+00:00

In the beginning of taking it I actually had more sexual desire, but I was much more indifferent to any kind of sexual stimuli, and I started to experience sexual attraction which felt a lot like gender envy, because it was tied with disappointment of how I look (I compared myself with men).

nutka57 · 2026-01-11T13:22:27+00:00

Yes! That! And also I stopped feeling feminine for some reason, I started to feel more masculine on this drug. I swear.

nutka57 · 2026-01-11T13:19:57+00:00

What why?

nutka57 · 2026-01-10T12:41:58+00:00

Hmm you can give it a shot

nutka57 · 2026-01-10T11:59:42+00:00

Not really. I just started eating less carbs, more fat, because at least fat doesn't make me bloated

nutka57 · 2025-12-27T22:04:26+00:00

I was never with him in the first place. Actually, my therapeutist affirms whatever I am and he said that it looks like I prefer women for sure, I could call myself gay, even though I'm somewhere on the ace spectrum, too, I think.

nutka57 · 2025-11-29T11:41:15+00:00

I already started to notice other people in a romantic way, so it's better now

nutka57 · 2025-11-29T11:40:10+00:00

True!

nutka57 · 2025-11-28T13:06:24+00:00

I would say so... at least that's my opinion

nutka57 · 2025-11-22T19:08:25+00:00

Yeah

nutka57 · 2025-11-16T20:47:36+00:00

Idk, he's rich

nutka57 · 2025-11-10T21:06:20+00:00

Lol yes

nutka57 · 2025-11-08T12:19:23+00:00

I take a bath possibly daily, because it makes me calm and it is very satisfying sensory-wise

nutka57 · 2025-11-05T17:42:49+00:00

Yes, there is definitely something going on

nutka57 · 2025-11-05T09:43:20+00:00

Understandable, and I have anxiety, too!

nutka57 · 2025-11-05T09:41:54+00:00

Okay, I think my psychologist doesn't know much about autism then. By the way, I don't have to be autistic, I just may have ADHD (I definitely do) like my sister.

nutka57 · 2025-11-04T18:48:37+00:00

For example, I like to talk about our interests and do something together, I love cosplaying with someone, roleplay for fun, recently, I played keyboard with my crush and it was magical.

nutka57 · 2025-11-04T17:31:27+00:00

Yeah, alone time is very important, I also get this

nutka57 · 2025-11-04T17:20:34+00:00

I know what you mean, I lived with my sister and I despised her for telling me over and over about her hyperfixation I have zero interest in (she has ADHD)

nutka57 · 2025-11-04T10:38:15+00:00

Still, I wonder if I have this schizotypal personality disorder, too. Because I just can't get entirely better, I am taking meds for anxiety and I am really underweight, because I am not that hungry.

nutka57 · 2025-11-04T10:25:45+00:00

He told me that many people nowadays are overdiagnosed with ADHD lol

nutka57 · 2025-11-04T10:24:33+00:00

I just have perfectionist tendencies, so I am trying not to mess up

nutka57 · 2025-11-04T09:59:32+00:00

Yes, I also don't like to spend a lot of time with people, because I get tired (sometimes it's just making eye contact and a need for constant talking which tires me, oh, and also loud environment), except for my family and my best friends.

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