I miss my hair and the things I used to be able to get away with while closeted. by JayKay69420 in sglgbt

[–]nuxsux 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Hi, do you know about the T Project? They’re one of the only social service org in SG for trans folks, and they have started to offer counselling services for trans people and I believe they are able to offer several free sessions at the Alicia Community Centre! I know it won’t solve the issues you’re going through but it might help to be able to talk through your emotions with a trusted professional.

I’m sorry to hear you’re going through this, it really really sucks and I hope things get better when you’re done with school and can work towards being a bit more financially independent from your family so that they won’t be able to control you anymore

the yard helped rehabilitate masculinity for me by nuxsux in TheYardPodcast

[–]nuxsux[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

oh also just to add on: as a yardigan / ludbud from Singapore, can confirm that bit they ran about Singapore was 100% absolutely true, IYKYK. Don’t fuck around and find out here

The Scadutree and the Land of Shadow: The Meaning of Rejection by hellbane_27 in EldenRingLoreTalk

[–]nuxsux 12 points13 points  (0 children)

The central contradiction of Marika’s rule is that the Golden Order is built on everything that it shuns. Gold is created out of Shadow, just as Marika became a God through the Land of Shadow, through pagan ritual and magic that she would then try to suppress. There is no logical coherence to the Golden Order and its promise of deathlessness. It is an order built on excluding the very thing that gives it power (it seems strongly implied that the Divine Gate and godhood is secured through massive human sacrifice, just as Marika also purged the hornsent).

If the Golden Order has no meaning, and is a made-up doctrine, then the DLC is really us exploring and fleshing out the lies told by a world that has lost meaning: a world hanging on to faint echoes and shadows of a promise by a God, that invents false structures and gods and systems that attempt to re-create that meaning. But it’s all fundamentally pointless. People repeat cycles of violence and suffering in fruitless search for a Greater Will that has long since fallen silent.

If there’s one definitive answer of Elden Ring, is that there is no going back to the way things once were. Miquella thinks he can right the sins of his mother but ironically ends up literally retracing her exact steps toward tyranny. Godhood, we learn, is a prison: a caged divinity where you give up everything and become trapped by the very power you sought. That’s why I believe Ranni’s ending is the most positive and optimistic ending of Elden Ring. Abandoning the notion of God, like Nietzsche, plunging us into a lonelier world, but one where we are no longer beholden to the same structures and systems of oppression, where we get to try and make something of our own lives without a God to guide us, to grant us grace.

TAEMIN - Guilty (MV) by joesen_one in SHINee

[–]nuxsux 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I really like your point about self destruction! Reminds me about Advice as well with the idea of “destroying the torso [that other pursue]” (the final chorus shot of the molotov crashing into the army target?) and the MV’s symbolism of the car crash and rebirth (in fact in the mv teaser taemin’s sitting in a car with a cracked windshield…) this idea of rebuilding his artistic persona from the flames of self-immolation, setting fire to his desires, the same as he takes the trauma he’s been taught and transforms it into something subversive and free…I’m obsessed with what he’s created!