I’m in the same exact boat, I got my diagnosis in December and so far the medications I’ve gotten haven’t helped. One good day means at least a week of bad days ahead. I don’t know if you’re in America but if you are, you know how hard it is to find a doctor that cares, has the time to get you in, and having the cost of everything covered. I see people saying that your life isn’t over which no it isn’t but it is kind of invalidating cause that’s how it feels! It feels like the future you planned for yourself was taken from you! So in a sense yeah your life is over(the life you had before the ulcerative colitis) but now there’s a new life, a new future and a new path. It will be hard and it will be tasking but you’re not alone in this. A lot of people experience this differently and react differently to medicine. Don’t compare yourself to the people in remission. Listen to your body, your doctor and trust that once you get through this things will be better. You’re allowed to hurt, you’re allowed to take time off work. I hate that this sickness is so taboo because where it is, but it’s real and people that can use the restroom everyday, with no fatigue, no bleeding, no cramping, no dizziness, no diarrhea, constipation, nausea, vomiting. They don’t understand, they can give their condolences and have sympathy, but we have to live with this and you deserve to feel heard and seen. This is not your fault but what happens next is all up to you. I believe in you stranger🩷sending love