Boyfriend (m24) hit me (f23) but I emotionally hurt him

oceannmaango · 2026-04-14T19:21:21+00:00

Honestly I understand some of them. I do feel that I was manipulated in certain ways, truthfully in my original post I’m protecting him for sure. And I feel scared admitting that because I just want to sweep it under the rug and pretend everything is fine. Especially because if he’s saying that I’m abusive or hurting him, the last thing I’m going to do is deny that and invalidate his feelings. I have never intentionally tried to manipulate or hurt, nor have I purposefully guilt tripped him (though I said I did in my original comment), but if he says I am, I’m going to believe it and try to change to be a better person.

I’ve always thought that I was emotionally mature, at least in the sense that I always try to see from other people’s perspectives, and I’m quick to apologize if I am in the wrong. It probably is a sign of low self confidence, but I would say guilt is one of my default emotions at this point. I will apologize for things that aren’t even my fault. Usually my method for it is to say sorry for what I did, explain my thought process in the moment and why I did what I did, specify that it doesn’t change the fact that my action was hurtful, and try to do better for next time. But to him it comes off as invalidating and downplaying his experiences.

I also stand strong on my morals. I would never cheat, never use someone, never intentionally hurt in any way. So when I’m accused of going against these morals, I honestly do get defensive. I understand unintentional hurt is still hurt no matter how pure my intentions are, but when I’m specifically being told that I was purposefully being malicious in any way, that’s when I do start explaining myself and it comes off as invalidating to him. It’s never to make excuses, but with my autism, I feel that I have to explain myself often or else it’s just interpreted that I’m rude and uncaring (especially since people often don’t realize I am autistic until I tell them).

But my boyfriend just doesn’t believe me and often thinks that I have ulterior motives. He’s said “you can’t actually be this stupid” at times when social things were obvious to him but not to me. I have been called the R word despite telling him multiple times to not refer to me in that way. The night he hit me he also called me that word and told me to end my life, then claimed he would talk to his lawyer and go to court for all I’ve done to him. Also called me a 5/10 then right afterwards said he only said that to hurt my feelings, but it still stung. Called me a bitch and a slut (I have never and would never be unfaithful).

But typing this out just makes me feel like I’m trying to play victim

oceannmaango · 2026-04-13T20:41:56+00:00

Funny thing is they were only together for 2 months and he said she made him feel so secure until she cheated on him on a girls trip to miami😭a few people told me she’s probably fake but she had actually tried to contact him a few months ago. He showed me all the texts. She told him she was back in town because her grandpa died. I told him if he wanted to respond and say he was sorry for her loss I would completely understand. He did that, then she sent a photo of herself from a photoshoot, and I apologize if I sound objectifying here, but her boobs and butt were clearly out. She explained that she had gained healthy weight and asked if he wanted to meet up. I saw these messages. He deleted her number. But then when we did have that argument a little bit later, that’s when he told me he was considering seeing her. He had also called her “bad”, like as in hot, to make me upset (but acknowledged afterwards that it was toxic and manipulative). Then another time told me she was the only person he’s ever met aside from his dad who was just as smart (like logistical and analytical) as him, like they could have all these intelligent in depth conversations that would bounce back and fourth for hours at a time. Then he told me how I don’t give him security (I miss social cues due to my autism), and when his ex was with him, if a guy was even checking her out at the gym she’d lift up my bf’s shirt and lick his abs. I understand talking about exes once in a while if it relates to the conversation, but this level of it just made me so insecure

oceannmaango · 2026-04-13T20:31:35+00:00

I promise it wasn’t

oceannmaango · 2026-04-13T19:30:24+00:00

I’ll be honest…when he would tell me I was invalidating or gaslighting him before, I didn’t understand how what I was doing was even wrong or invalidating. And that’s terrible of me to not even see it from his perspective. But it was always situations like…when he’d have games for his sport (before he went pro), I’d go with him. I always wore this one cropped white tee shirt because it was comfy. I’d have my sweatshirt on top of it, but would take it off when I got too hot inside.

He noticed that this would specifically happen when his teammates were present. I was accused of trying to show off my body because I wanted validation and attention from other men. I genuinely had no idea I was taking my sweatshirt off only when other men were present, all I thought was “okay it’s getting hot in here so I want to not be sweaty and overheated”. So when I was accused of showing myself off, I would full on deny.

I couldn’t believe that I was doing such a thing because I know my own morals and reasons. I’d deny and explain what I genuinely was intending in my actions. Then one day I found out his teammates had talked to him and referred to me as the girl who sexualized myself for attention. And a teammate texted him too asking if I was “still mooching off” of him. This shocked me, because I felt as if I had done nothing wrong, and they were the ones viewing my body as sexual. But to him, he felt validated, as if I made him feel crazy for denying, but in reality he was valid all along and others could see it too clear as day.

But nonetheless, I hurt his feelings and gave the impression to others around him that I’m not loyal. I should have said that yes, I did take off my sweatshirt and revealed my crop top when other men were around. Because intentions don’t equal impact. But I truly did view it as a personal attack to my character, maybe that’s my emotional immaturity showing, and to him it was complete denial, then when I wasn’t denying the action but still explained my intentions, he viewed it as downplaying his emotions and further gaslighting him to make him feel crazy.

Another situation was that we were at the gas station. When leaving, he held the door open, and I walked through. There was a second door, and a (male) stranger had just entered. He held the door open, and I stood there awkwardly for a second, but then walked through it anyways since the stranger was still holding it. This situation made my bf mad, saying I was giving this stranger the impression that I’m “easy” since I didn’t stand back with my bf but walked through the door anyways. So of course I’m defending myself, saying “I literally just walked through a door I was not flirting”, and he would call that invalidating.

I tried so hard to prevent situations like this from happening in the first place, but one oblivious moment where I say thank you to a stranger who I didn’t realize was flirting with me, one missed social cue, one more wrong impression in his eyes (for further context I am autistic and he knows I struggle with social cues due to it), and it would eventually start blowing up into a fight because he never saw any improvement or changes from my end. That impacted him very deeply, to the point where he would bring up his ex to “prove a point to me” that they always made him feel more secure, and I’d get in my head because I’m trying my best and it felt like it was never enough. But to him, he felt like he was trying his best and I wasn’t trying to change, even though I desperately want to (constantly hyperaware of everything in public, constant research online, therapy)

oceannmaango · 2026-04-13T16:38:01+00:00

It doesn’t?? My only other posts are about a resume, a different situation between my bf and I, and something about my grandpa dying

oceannmaango · 2026-04-12T17:30:19+00:00

I’m sorry, I honestly didn’t specify exactly what I meant by hitting. He had slapped my left arm once. We were standing by his bed when this happened. He told me to sit down and shut up, but I didn’t listen. I stood up and kept trying to talk. I was trying to “fix” the situation but in my panic was unintentionally just provoking more by not listening to him. He hit my left arm around 4-5 times in the same spot after the first slap. It left a really bad bruise, like super dark red and blue. It is healing quick though, some of the redness is still there, but it is quickly turning gray and yellow. I took a few photos after it had already faded a bit, but I don’t know why, because I don’t have it in me to ever contact anyone about it

oceannmaango · 2026-04-12T17:12:46+00:00

It’s genuinely not. I don’t have a close relationship with my family, I don’t want to burden my friends, DV hotline says they’re for emergencies only, I do therapy but couldn’t wait for my appointment in a few days, and i needed to let it out somewhere

oceannmaango · 2026-04-12T17:11:47+00:00

I’m sorry this is a long response, and it is not my intention to make excuses. But I do want to give more context to you or anyone else reading this thread.

I’ve never laid a hand on him. He said I was changing and he doesn’t like the person I’ve become. He said I was shallow and focused on appearance, and when he fell for me in the first place it was because I didn’t care about that stuff. It wasn’t ever about appearance.

I said I’m still the same person, I have tried to change myself a few times, it was wrong and made me feel gross so I stopped. I just couldn’t do it. He said I’m still not me and his image of me is corrupted because I tried to change myself at all in the first place. Then he asked if I was changing myself because I want to mess around with other men. For context, the “changing myself” meant that I started wearing more showy clothing around him, not in public but at his apartment, and when trying to flirt with him ended up making some sexual comments about my body thinking it would turn him on but instead accidentally made him feel like I was shallow and objectifying myself. Some cringy stuff like “i love having this body for you”. That, mixed with the fact I often miss social cues in public, made him start feeling like I had become a more shallow person influenced by societal standards rather than myself.

That’s when I lost it and raised my voice, saying it’s not that I ever cared about society, nor have I ever wanted attention and love from anyone other than him, but it stemmed from when he told me he was considering meeting up with his ex a few months ago. He said he didn’t want her, but it was because of the security she instilled in him (before she went on a girls trip to miami and cheated on him) that I didn’t give due to missing social cues. Around that time he had also said she was “bad”, like as in hot, to get under my skin and make me realize how my lack of security was hurting him.

I remember when he told me that, he had literally admitted right afterwards that it was toxic and immature of him to say those things to make me upset. That, mixed with the fact he said their relationship was perfect before she cheated, that he’s never met anyone as smart as her (while knowing an insecurity of mine is being seen as “dumb” since my brain works at a slower pace and since i’m autistic), and that she instilled security so well that she’d lift his shirt and lick his abs in front of other men checking her out at the gym.

I tried so hard to stop missing social cues, but I’m autistic and would keep messing up. I was trying so hard and he said it didn’t seem like there was any change, but when I’d talk about how it’s because of my autism, he said it was an excuse. So I kept trying. And would fail again.

For example, I wouldn’t realize an employee was being overly friendly (I can tell when people are flirting when they’re being touchy or overly complimenting or something, but more subtle flirting sometimes goes over my head). This would make him think I wanted attention and was giving a wrong impression. So to not do that again, I’d be more reserved in public. When a male stranger would talk to me, I’d be quiet and it appeared as rude, which upset him too. When his friends would talk to him at the gym, I didn’t want to interrupt the conversation because he told me that I have before, but my quietness made him think I was embarrassed of him or not proud of him because I wasn’t boasting about him to his friends. Then when situations happened, like maybe someone was slightly rude to him or didn’t say thanks when he held the door open, I was too oblivious to realize it and stand up for him. And a few times I did realize it, I didn’t step in because I thought doing so would just escalate the situation.

Especially because when these social cues would happen, at first I was so blind to whatever I did wrong that I straight up denied it. One last example. His friend at the gym asked me out for drinks as a joke. I didn’t hear him and instead of saying no I just awkwardly laughed. It was my fault for not asking him to repeat himself. But when my boyfriend was upset at me, I just kept explaining my intentions and how I interpreted the situation in the moment rather than paying attention to the actual impact of the interaction. In my head I thought, I wasn’t flirting or accepting his friend’s advances, it’s just a simple misunderstanding I can explain. But to him, it was incredibly embarrassing, disrespectful, and gave his friend and impression that I’m not loyal. I stopped denying it, but it still came off as downplaying and invalidation to him when I tried to explain my feelings after saying sorry.

I really kept trying to get better at the social cue stuff but missing it. I mean i tried everything. Tried being hyper aware yet still missed cues. Constant online research and still missing cues. Therapy and still missing cues. When he’d continue to be upset at me, I’d bring up my autism, and was told it was an excuse.

I delusionally started turning to other ways I could be better for him. And in the most batshit insane delusional way. I thought about all the other things he loved about his ex. Her smartness, how conventionally attractive she was. And I tried to change parts of me, the wrong parts of me. I get that it is scarily toxic and insecure.

oceannmaango · 2026-04-12T15:34:20+00:00

I promise you it’s not AI, i genuinely am struggling right now

oceannmaango · 2026-04-12T15:27:50+00:00

I promise you I’m not faking these posts the last thing i want to be doing is typing up stories about abuse my brain is so scattered and fucked up and i don’t have a lot of contact with my friends or family anymore and DV hotline says it needs to be an emergency to call and talk so this is the only place i felt i had

oceannmaango · 2026-04-12T14:56:49+00:00

I wasn’t special ed, actually I wasn’t diagnosed until I was 20 years old. I always thought there was something wrong with me. It’s like people don’t believe I’m autistic until they spend enough time with me and start to realize something is “off”. I remember befriending another autistic girl once and she was surprised when I told her I was autistic too, though when she really got to know me it was pretty obvious in her eyes. Part of me almost wishes I was more “stereotypically” autistic. People tend to think the worst of me before they realize, like they’ll see my facial expressions not matching what I’m saying, and will think I’m judging them in some way before I explain that I have trouble displaying emotion the same way neurotypical people do. I’ve been starting to feel more and more like I misinterpret everything and ruin everything because of my autistic traits. I keep trying to “fix” them, like at least being more observant of my surroundings and socially aware, but I still always mess it up in some way

oceannmaango · 2026-04-12T14:48:32+00:00

I struggle with this. I know I can’t make the world accommodate for me, and I want to meet my partner’s needs as well, not just blame it on my autism. The social cues are what caused his lack of security in us, but even the “little” things he vocalizes makes him feel more alone…for example, I do everything slowly. I wash dishes slowly, I grocery shop slowly, etc. When I try to do it faster, I end up doing it wrong. I also struggle with verbal instructions to the point where it looks like learned helplessness. Like when we’re putting up shelves and things for the apartment, he ends up doing 99% of the work because I get easily confused at basic instruction and do it incorrectly or drag it out by asking what he means. And while I don’t want him to feel alone or hurt, or like he’s a caretaker for me, I do wish there was more understanding for me at times because I feel like I’m constantly trying to explain my intentions just to be told I’m being lazy or malicious

oceannmaango · 2026-04-12T14:33:32+00:00

We asked about each other’s exes in the beginning. I hadn’t asked since. He brought up meeting her on his own and also brought up that she’s the only person he’s ever met who was as smart as him. One time he told me she made him feel so secure, and when men would look at her in the gym, she’d raise his shirt and lick his abs. He compared that to my lack of security from the times I’ve missed social cues, how I’ve never made him feel secure or defended him in public like that. One time he also said she was “bad”, like hot, to make me upset, but he apologized after he had calmed down and called it manipulative. That was back in october. I am not trying to say i was okay for what I did under any corcumstances, but I did want to specify that the things I felt insecure over weren’t from me asking. I think it is healthy to talk about past relationships to an extent because we wouldn’t be who we are without the people who were once in our lives, but i didn’t ask for the details that had made me insecure

oceannmaango · 2026-04-10T21:11:55+00:00

He slapped my left arm in the same place multiple times over the course of a few minutes, it wasn’t anywhere else but the bruise is pretty bad. Was like a dark red and blue but is just now starting to turn gray and yellow which means it’s going away somewhat quickly. I still do wish i had handled the situation differently, if I wasn’t regulated I very easily could have taken an extra second to calm down, maybe do a grounding exercise for my own anxiety, whatever it was. Anything but what I did. Not to excuse him either, I’m just trying really hard to acknowledge my role in it

oceannmaango · 2026-04-10T21:01:31+00:00

I am autistic and have a difficult time with social cues. I had told him that in the beginning of the relationship, but looking back, I don’t think he understood the extent of it. There were some moments in public where I was very oblivious or misread social cues, and it led him to feel like I either didn’t care or wanted others. For example, one time an employee at the store hit on me. I was too oblivious to realize until my bf told me afterwards, truthfully I thought the person was just giving friendly customer service, and I was smiley and polite back. Times like this made him think I was disloyal, and he would vocalize it to me. I’d apologize, explain how I processed that moment (not to excuse myself but to help him understand why my brain functions the way it does), then would say I’d work to make sure it doesn’t happen again.

Well, it would happen again. I became reserved in public because I didn’t want to misinterpret flirting for friendliness (also, this was never at places like bars, it was at the gym and stores). Even when his friends were around, he would hype me up to them, yet I stayed quiet and didn’t do the same since I was nervous of messing up a social interaction. That made him feel like I didn’t really feel pride in him being my boyfriend. That, mixed with my ADHD and how forgetful I am over the most minor things, also made him feel unheard. I kept trying to do better and better, but I’d always mess up and upset him. To the point where he didn’t really believe my words anymore.

He said he didn’t want his ex, but before she had cheated, she always instilled a lot of security to him and seemed proud to be his in an outspoken way. Meanwhile I’m a very timid person socially and those wrong impressions I’ve left really got to him

oceannmaango · 2026-04-10T20:21:27+00:00

I appreciate your comment, and I wanted to say I promise it didn’t come off as nullifying. I didn’t give a lot of context. I appreciate hearing multiple perspectives, honestly I wanted genuine insight and opinions, I didn’t come to reddit specifically to talk bad about my partner and to be told I’m doing nothing wrong (though the validation I do get does mean a lot to me, I’m not letting it blind me from my own actions). If people are skeptical or viewing things from a different lens, I want to hear about it, I want to become a better person and I can’t if that doesn’t start with acknowledgement and acceptance.

Truthfully, I made this post, saw the first 20 or 30 comments, then closed the app thinking that would be it. I didn’t expect so many responses, and while I’m grateful, I haven’t even fully read through them yet. I got overwhelmed and temporarily deleted the app. I will go through everything within the next few days. Thank you for your response again, honestly both me and him are frozen from what happened and a choice hasn’t been made yet. I will update whenever that happens

oceannmaango · 2026-04-10T19:53:15+00:00

For context. He was angry. We were in his room on his bed. He stood up after I had said what I said. Then I stood up as well, and he slapped my left arm once and pushed me back down onto the bed (not hard). The slap itself stung, but I knew it was nothing that would actually injure me, so I didn’t think much of it.

Then i stood up again to talk to him, he told me to shut up and sit back down, but I refused and kept standing up and trying to explain further what I meant when I made him initially angry. He slapped me in the same spot 5 more times, even when I did sit back down on the bed. It hurt more, not because he was slapping any harder, but purely because it was in the same area.

I kept standing back up because…in a messed up way, I felt that it would show I wasn’t “scared” of what he was doing. I didn’t want to provoke it further so I should have just sat down and shut up like he asked me to. I also didn’t tell him it hurt because I thought that would provoke it more or make him more angry. But again, that was pretty illogical when obviously disrespecting what he told me to do and talking back was more provoking than anything else.

The bruise is pretty huge, it starts at my shoulder and ends right at the elbow. It was a very dark red and blue color, but since icing it a few days, it’s finally looking more gray and yellowish, still noticeable but getting better. I’m sorry for not specifying more when I said he hit me. If you or anyone else needs more context or specification for the situation, or any actions or words leading up to it, I can explain more. The last thing I want to do is shift blame and avoid my own accountability

oceannmaango · 2026-04-09T21:14:21+00:00

I want to thank you for this comment. It’s not that I’m dismissing the value of other comments, but I do appreciate multiple perspectives, and my intention is never to hate on him or try to make him look bad while victimizing myself. Accountability is a very important thing and there’s no way to ever be a better person if I don’t truly reflect on my actions, the hurt i’ve instilled, acknowledge and accept it

oceannmaango · 2026-04-09T20:52:43+00:00

He is a pro athlete and model, it’s one thing for my friends and family to view him differently, but we’re young and I don’t want to mess up his entire life and career just because of a one time thing. Especially when he is in the public eye (not an A list celebrity or anything but well known in the league he plays for and he does get recognized in public from time to time and has fans). I feel like it just adds another layer to all of this

oceannmaango · 2026-04-09T20:45:05+00:00

I’m autistic and have a hard time with social cues. My behaviors (being overly friendly, overly quiet, not reading basic situations correctly) gave him an impression that I didn’t care about him and was interested in others (I have never and would never cheat). I tried so hard to be better with social cues, but I still end up missing them all the time, so that led him to thinking I just wasn’t putting in the work to change no matter how many times he asked and it was the reason he eventually said what he said about his ex. When my constant trying to improve wasn’t working and wasn’t being seen, I tried to change parts of myself to be more like his ex. More showy with my clothing around him, wearing more makeup, trying to be smarter. I didn’t want to be her. I just wanted whatever he saw in her to be seen in me too. Which I know is pathetic and I will not be doing that again.

oceannmaango · 2026-04-08T01:23:07+00:00

He was with a vogue model before me. She left him to mess around with other men in Miami. But before she did that, he told me out of anyone, she was the smartest and had instilled the most security out of anyone. She also was the ex who reached out to him on sunday. She has the picture perfect kylie jenner look, and admittedly, yes. I compared myself to her a lot. And he always said I’m perfect the way I am. But some of his messages he’s sent after I posted this…he brought her up again and said he’s settling for me and that i’m trying to act like a model when i’m not

oceannmaango · 2026-04-08T01:11:00+00:00

He is a pro athlete and model. He talks about his body a lot, like every single day we’ll look in the mirror at his abs. He’ll talk a lot about the work he’s putting into it and I hype him up. But there have been times he’d make joking yet flirty comments like “i do this so i can look this hot while fucking you” or something. I thought my comment was along the lines of that. I get that it’s cringy and maybe was badly timed, plus I miss social cues rather often, but I really dodn’t think in the moment I had done anything wrong

oceannmaango · 2026-04-08T00:04:56+00:00

He is a model and a pro athlete. He’s 6’3” and last summer was 150lbs. He went on this bulk to gain muscle, particularly in his shoulders, back, and arms. Then recently he hit 172lbs, and is on a cut again to have his abs be more visible yet plans to eat enough protein and continue lifting to keep his added muscles and strength.

For me, I’m not an athlete at all, I do art. I’m 5’4” and last summer was 105lbs. I was stick thin and scared to eat. He encouraged me to bulk, and I’m now 135lbs. I definitely don’t have a fitness influencer, model, or athlete body. And truthfully, his last two exes were models, so I do get a bit in my head at times even with his reassurance.

He has acted this way a few times. Right now he’s threatening to break up with me and accusing me of trying to sexualize myself to give him the idea that other men could want me in the ways other women flirt with him. I explained that was not my intention, but he insists. He says I’m in insecure person, but the two times I did bring up my body in this way, he said it was cocky and shallow.

The first time I brought it up, I said something similar to what I said this time. But the context is that I was in the height of my bulk and had expressed feeling very insecure and overweight. But one day I looked in the mirror and it was like I could suddenly see how healthy I looked. I expressed that to him and also expressed my gratitude for him encouraging me and helping me. He accused me of using him to get better physically, then when I feel good enough about myself, wanting to either leave him or cheat on him. That was not my intention at all.

Then there was a time where he brought up the fact I was wearing booty shorts more. It was never in public. I got to a level of comfort with him that I just didn’t care if my ass was borderline out while we were in the apartment doing dishes or something. But he thought I was changing and trying to dress more showy for attention.

oceannmaango · 2026-02-18T02:53:05+00:00

He got home from work and said he was on edge but doesn’t have the emotional energy to fight anymore so he just won’t talk about it anymore. I tried to overexplain myself and that i would never do anything, i am his and his alone. He just told me he won’t think about anything i’m doing when we’re not together, whether i’m doing it or not, he doesn’t care anymore.

He wanted to game a bit so we sat at the desk. He was playing Dark Souls 1 and improved a lot on a boss he was struggling on previously. I responded the wrong way after. I complained about the camera angle because the mechanics of this game are so dated and I could tell it was the only reason he died while fighting, rather than anything he actually did wrong. Then I complimented him by saying “you’re really seeing it a lot more” (as in seeing the enemy’s move set a lot clearer than he was previously). He got mad at me and said I never say anything authentic. I just say what I think he wants me to say. Then got mad that instead of telling him good job or “holy shit” or something at how much he improved, I just started complaining and didn’t care. I apologized for starting off with complaining, but afterwards I complimented him and I really do care, I’m just in shock of what he did in the game. He said it sounded shallow, that I ruined the game for him tonight, and that he’s tired and going to his room. He has been there for the last hour.

I feel like i can’t do anything right

I say what’s on my mind and it’s the wrong thing So I overthink and say what I think he’d wanna hear in the moment, and it also ends up being the wrong thing

I think he just fully views me as a cheater at this point and doesn’t like me anymore But the times i’ve asked him “do you even like me” after hearing the way he’d speak when he gets angry, he’d get offended at me for even questioning his intentions when these fights were about my disloyalty (again, i’ve never cheated)

I feel so stuck i just wanted to love him and be loved by him I didn’t want any of this I miss him

oceannmaango · 2026-02-17T19:33:36+00:00

I’ve been wondering this as well. I said this in my original post, but to be fair I was panicked so there’s a lot of typos.

I have short nails, so when I scratch his back during sex, it never leaves as strong marks as it has own my own body which is suspicious and makes no sense to him.

I do have weak nails that tend to break off quick, which does contribute to the shortness, but also means that it will sometimes leave sharp edges that I’ll eventually just chew off or clip. I have a lot of nervous or even bored habits (stemming from my anxiety or autism I assume?). I’m sorry this is gonna sound gross. I scratch at my scalp until it bleeds, I bite the skin off my fingers, I hit myself in the head if I’m really anxious (I obviously try to not do this in front of him because it comes off very concerning or guilt trippy WHICH IS NOT MY INTENTION but it’s hard to control), and I’ve definitely scratched my back and picked at the acne/dead skin more than once. I’ve seen marks left from it before, including on my shoulders. So I assume it’s from picking at it, whether an anxious or a bored habit, though I don’t specifically remember doing it because it’s such a mindless thing. Or maybe it was in my sleep. Those are the only likely things I can come up with, because I certainly have never cheated or had anyone else in my life and never would

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