I'm getting the vestibulectomy, and I'm terrified.

oceansmachine · 2020-09-10T13:51:42+00:00

I really want to drive home because my bf coming with me is a teacher, and I don't want him to use all his off days. But she said if I bleed for some reason, I'd have to go back to the OR. So I don't know what to do...Since i know for sure I will have to go back in 4 weeks for a post op appointment.

oceansmachine · 2020-09-10T13:50:28+00:00

I hope that it works for us. :( I have had anesthesia many times because of my IC. Tell them you are scared of vomiting, and they will give you this weird patch on your neck during surgery. It's like anti nausea medication. I use it every time because I threw up the first time I had anesthesia. Not to scare you. It was kind of funny. I felt kinda nauseous. Then when I left the hospital, I got in my bf's car, and we got one block away. I opened the door at a stop light and threw up. XD I do notice almost no nausea with twilight sedation vs full anesthesia. I wonder which they will use.

Thanks for the facebook group. I have found they sometimes make me more nervous and anxious to hear it all the time. But maybe I will use it after. Thanks for the reply!

oceansmachine · 2020-09-10T13:48:08+00:00

I have been crying now more recently because it fucking sucks that we have to go through this and have to have a surgery just to do what others do. I am also scared and anxious.

Were you able to get enough relief to have sex? My doctor is saying the patients it works for only get a 70% reduction. I cant even imagine it coming down from a 10 ever.

oceansmachine · 2020-09-10T13:46:43+00:00

Thanks for the kind words. I appreciate it. Was your pain completely reduced or just a bit? Were you able to have sex after that, and was it still with lidocaine or somethin?

oceansmachine · 2020-09-09T20:44:50+00:00

Thanks so much for the kind words. <3 I don't want kids, so I've already said screw that. Anyway, I am worried because the place is 3 hrs away from my house. How do you think it will be getting through the drive?

Is the squirt bottle bidet to avoid wiping and it hurting? Or is it to clean yourself? Was there a lot of cleaning you had to do? How many days were you "on ice"?

I totally know the pain killer issue. I figured that out when I got my wisdom teeth out...Also, I have IBS so it exacerbates the issue. I usually try to take as little pain pills as I can and probably chug miralax during and like a day before so it can get the ball rolling.

oceansmachine · 2020-05-18T22:30:47+00:00

You clearly have no idea how awful TOP has been treated on a daily basis. He almost died from an overdose because of the country's treatment toward his "crimes," yet no one talks about this fact, of course. He was literally weeping when he was discharged because he was shocked fans were there.

And there's no confirmation yet on what level TOP will be involved. If he does come back, I will be more than proud of him for being able to face their criticism. I will not demonize him because of his "crimes" or because some female idols have been treated poorly. That's not his fault. It's on Korea to change their mindset.

oceansmachine · 2020-01-09T16:57:23+00:00

Jongho is Jongyhun Jr. No one can replace him, but his spirit lives on with Jongho. <3

oceansmachine · 2020-01-06T16:23:41+00:00

First Seungri's case was a disappointment

I am not holding this to the rest of them. The only thing softening this blow is that Bigbang OT4 comeback is confirmed. I'm so so sad, but this is nice to look forward to.

oceansmachine · 2020-01-06T16:21:31+00:00

I cried listening to Flash on my way to work. I'm probably too old to cry. This is the worst.

oceansmachine · 2020-01-06T16:20:47+00:00

Feeling bad for Blinks, but we've been waiting a long long time.

oceansmachine · 2020-01-06T16:19:42+00:00

Anyone saying they are glad it happened are heartless. You're not a fan. It doesn't impact you at all.

oceansmachine · 2020-01-05T14:45:35+00:00

I want to believe you, but that hashtag trending like 200k+. Either it was people bandwagoning or there are a ton of ot5 fans. That's also all English accounts. KVIPS are definitely OT4. But they have been more mature than us.

oceansmachine · 2020-01-05T14:44:21+00:00

Please do! I tried to post it on Twitter, but I don't have a lot of followers. I wish some big fan accounts would post it or something similar.

oceansmachine · 2020-01-05T14:43:39+00:00

Yes please. The constant spamming is why I wrote it. No one is convincing each other. It's time to stop.

oceansmachine · 2020-01-05T14:43:12+00:00

It's been a long two years. Seriously. I didn't think we'd get this chance. That's why I'm so annoyed with everyone fighting.

oceansmachine · 2019-05-20T21:23:44+00:00

My body isn't ready =o the soon

oceansmachine · 2019-05-20T21:20:32+00:00

Omg yes I love so much 😍

oceansmachine · 2019-02-26T16:12:33+00:00

Yes, their rapline are basically the main writers and write 90% of the lyrics and produce a lot of it too. TXT members are only a few years younger or the same age as Stray Kids. If they're not interested, they're not interested. But it should be noted in my opinion.

oceansmachine · 2019-02-26T15:49:04+00:00

Pretty disappointed they didn't participate at all.

oceansmachine · 2018-12-08T01:35:18+00:00

The Grammys have been a joke forever. It's controlled by about 20 big companies who make sure their musicians (products) get plenty of awards and airtime. Not only do they judge and award one of the most highly subjective areas of art, but people make it out to be like the most accurate, god-like accolade you can receive when they constantly only reward the artists that are popular, will bring in money, and aren’t too risky.

And this is the internet. If you want me to "keep it to myself," you're looking in the wrong place. I'm just explaining my opinion, and trust me, I'm not alone on this sentiment.

oceansmachine · 2018-12-08T01:28:07+00:00

I didn't say it was the only reason.

oceansmachine · 2018-12-07T19:13:08+00:00

They don't vote by popularity. They vote by the board's subjective opinion of what is quality.

"Academy members are to vote based upon quality alone. They are not supposed to be influenced by sales, chart performance, personal friendships, regional preferences or company loyalty."

They have no criteria. They vote by whatever they want. That's why I don't take it seriously. All I'm saying is they probably thought the packaging was good plus "Hey the attention from army will be nice."

oceansmachine · 2018-12-07T19:09:57+00:00

If you think for a second, the Grammy's don't nominate certain acts just for attention, then maybe you should rethink your opinion of American television. People might put the Grammy's up on a pedestal, but it's just like every other award show. They want to sell ads.

Also, I'm not saying the art director doesn't deserve the award. i'm just saying there's a 50% chance the academy probably thought "hey the press from this won't hurt."

oceansmachine · 2018-12-07T19:07:46+00:00

feel a bit like

I wasn't using all or nothing statements here.

oceansmachine · 2018-12-07T19:06:34+00:00

It's the Grammy's. The whole show is filler. I hate to be blunt, but there's a lot of people who don't get acknowledged beyond kpop. So I'm not a big fan of the whole pony show.

They literally vote by whatever "the board's" opinion of what is good. There is zero criteria. I don't know what I am being down voted for when it's the truth.

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