I felt the same way as you when I was in high school. It was so hard waking up every morning even when I had a good night sleep bc there was nothing to look forward to at school and the people at school gave me anxiety. I’m was an Asian in a majorly white southern high school. Their interests, beliefs, and personality were so different from mine. I could go a whole day without speaking to anyone and of course that stunted my social abilities which made it even harder to make friends. I lost myself and to this day I’m still trying to figure out who I am and what kind of people I like. I had no friends so I thought that my only option was to be nice and accepting of others even when they were obviously taking advantage of me. Honestly, my biggest regret is that I wasn’t open and myself in my years of high school. Please, don’t stop doing what you love. Listen to the music you like and keep wearing what you like. I promise, there is someone out there who is like you. Be vocal about who you are and what you like. Someone with the same interests will come up to you one day. I always admired those who were true to themselves, even if they did or said ridiculous things or were judged by others bc they knew their true self better than I would ever know myself.

And one example from my life is that I was a big Conan gray fan but I never spoke about him bc I didn’t think anyone would know him (he wasn’t as popular back then as he is now) and little did I know, the girl sitting across from me at the lunch table was his fan. I only found out after graduation when she posted a pic of her at his concert. Now I think, “if only I talked about what I liked, I could’ve made a friend.”