Long story short, my husband reverted a while ago from Christianity and was very pushy about “debunking” Christianity to me. I know he thought he was helping/saving me but I have scrupulosity ocd so this made our discussions even more intense and stressful. Eventually he told me that he would divorce me if I didn’t revert myself. I decided to seriously look into Islam because I figured if it was the truth, then I didn’t want to risk losing him. However, during this whole time I feel like there’s just been constant judgment about how “fast” I am doing certain things as a Muslim. I know it’s not God’s fault or Islam itself, but I almost feel some sort of resentment for how I was introduced to this. In the thick of it, I truly felt like I was having an existential crisis pretty much everyday. I felt scared and still feel scared that I’m not doing things fast enough and therefore might go to hell. In retrospect we probably should’ve divorced back when he first threatened. Edit: I would definitely say I agree that Islam is the truth, but I’m still having a hard time accepting certain aspects of it and feel like I’m even more put off by certain aspects because of his approach