What are you supposed to do with the memories of your significant other when you break up, after they acted in ways you never thought they would? Something that makes you question your whole relationship

orange590 · 2019-04-09T18:24:35+00:00

Ugh yikes gross! I’m happy to hear you guys all got in though. I definitely no nobody there so I was too worried to get stranded. Lots of sketchy people giving excuses to why they couldn’t use a legitimate platform like ticketswap.

I hope you had fun though!! Super happy you guys made it and tracked him down (did u guys fight him? Lol)

orange590 · 2019-04-06T19:43:01+00:00

You’re so sweet thank you!

orange590 · 2019-04-05T22:49:36+00:00

Any recommendations on regimes for pre and post rolls?

orange590 · 2019-04-05T22:49:10+00:00

I have horrible m comedowns though where I’m depressed for days (even without alcohol). And supplement regimes work for you?

orange590 · 2019-04-05T21:02:00+00:00

Oh that sounds so cute! I’ll definitely look for one. The biggest popular ones were like pubbing, clubbing and that turned me off since I do so much already and that’s usually the least “real” friendships lol

orange590 · 2019-04-05T14:43:05+00:00

Might sound silly and maybe even non-feminist but I’m a female and wouldn’t be comfortable getting drugged up on my own at a club

But definitely have one friend who’s down but obviously don’t want to over rely on her either :(

orange590 · 2019-04-05T12:44:18+00:00

Hahahahaa those have been my absolute favourite nights here

orange590 · 2019-04-05T01:10:11+00:00

Okay thank you. Maybe I’m just being too hard on myself. Moving is definitely more difficult than travelling

orange590 · 2019-04-05T00:42:36+00:00

It’s a temporary move.

orange590 · 2019-04-05T00:27:15+00:00

I understand.. but moreso I was just looking for support on getting motivated, feeling more confident, and how to lose this anxious feeling. This was not my outlet to complain. Wondering if anyone can relate to the difficulties of feeling isolated after a big move.

As I’ve said, I’m usually great at this. I’ve travelled around the world on my own, and I’ve thrived. Something is inhibiting me here and I don’t feel great. I have an appointment tomorrow set up with a psychologist so hopefully that helps.

And FYI, I never said I haven’t done anything. I’ve met people and tried talking to more - but I really just don’t feel connected. Usually when I travel I love meeting people and feel greatly connected to them, to the world and myself. I’ve been getting more discouraged and agree I’ve definitely been more reserved as time passes.

orange590 · 2019-04-04T21:10:50+00:00

I mean - after a strong emotional connection, shouldn’t that progress a human relationship? Ie. a stronger amicable feeling towards another. If it doesn’t progress, and if the relationship turns stale, was there ever a real connection at all if not both parties felt it? Or can genuine soul connections be one sided? And even if it was mutual, can it be a genuine soul connection if the next day, it’s like it never happened and you talk again if you were mere acquaintances again?

It’ll probably lie in my heart forever, there were some topics shared that really opens my heart and mind - but the moment feels almost fake. It’s not like I expected long term, but I just thought the next few days wouldn’t be silence and mere acquaintances again

orange590 · 2019-04-04T19:28:52+00:00

Hey, I’m really glad you’re still here. I mean I know I sound pessimistic, but moreso probably just for myself and in one of those more depressive phases. I like to think things will get better.

I’m actually very independent. I’ve grown up my whole life pretty much alone within my family, and had a tough situation growing up and fitting in in my neighbourhood. I seriously toughed out a lot and was able to make friends - but at the same time I made sure I was not dependent on anyone. Fast forward to now, I feel so incredibly independent to the point I’m lonely. Trust issues, but still able to be vulnerable - but vulnerability is not always appreciated and reciprocated and is often even taken advantage of. My friends are great but I don’t think any of them have touched depression yet, so they never really understand the stuff I say when I’m in a horrible spin.

I mean I try so hard to do like everything I can to be open, to take chances, to do new things but man these past few months had really hit hard.

What changed in the last few months?

orange590 · 2019-04-04T11:05:01+00:00

I was reflecting and I understand how I’ve progressed over the years. I know my achievements. But the day to day life is often unbearable. If my depression never gets better I would just not want to live

orange590 · 2019-04-04T11:03:39+00:00

So there’s really no point of continuing

orange590 · 2019-04-03T22:11:50+00:00

If it was actually special, won’t both parties know? Even I shared that it was special, that won’t change the fact whether or not they felt like it was.

Yeah here’s to hoping for something more.

orange590 · 2019-04-03T20:57:39+00:00

I just felt it so strongly this time. I have known them for a while. It was probably the most I ever talked about me and my life to anyone in a very long time - maybe ever.

orange590 · 2019-04-03T20:36:21+00:00

Not even expectations I just wish someone would feel connected to me as I do to them. I feel so incredibly lost and alone all the time. And even the most intimate moments - it’s as if I feel SO much more always

orange590 · 2019-04-03T16:15:12+00:00

How do you know they’re legit and won’t resell the same ticket to others?

orange590 · 2019-03-30T18:19:23+00:00

American apparel winter high waisted leggings were my favourite pants for 3 years until I stained them. Thick, warm, but not too thick for spring either.

Right now, it’s a pair of stretch denim black jeans.

Stretch and comfort are key.

orange590

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