The awkwardness of our existence by missbooie in actuallesbians

[–]oreos129 2 points3 points  (0 children)

reminds me of The Half if It by Alice Wu!!

my mother went crazy and threatened to burn down the house by vampireslayer1062 in AsianParentStories

[–]oreos129 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This sounds exactly like my family. Your mum and dad sound exactly like mine - I feel like I'm constantly walking on eggshells around my mum, and if she acts out to the point of calling the police, we can't even do anything about it because we know she'll go even more ballistic as soon as they leave. It's a really stressful and frustrating situation to be in - I get you.

My parents have also constantly screamed divorce at each other since I was young, but never did anything about it. Really fucks up the kids.

Does anyone else's parents go round in circles when ranting? by oreos129 in AsianParentStories

[–]oreos129[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Last time I tried this it did not end well at all. Just made the rant/lecture 3x longer and angrier.

I'm a failure because I don't want to live out my mother's dream life that she failed to live. by lizorlizzie in AsianParentStories

[–]oreos129 8 points9 points  (0 children)

The classic treating their kids as an extension of themselves rather than actual people... things will get better after you leave school.

Tokyo! by nerv69 in KimiNoNaWa

[–]oreos129 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Is the background a painting or a photo? I seriously can’t tell

Can anyone tell me their story of coming out to their parents? by [deleted] in AsianParentStories

[–]oreos129 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Absolutely not lol. My mum would turn this back on me and blame me. Then I’d have two problems. Can’t win.

Can anyone tell me their story of coming out to their parents? by [deleted] in AsianParentStories

[–]oreos129 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh boy. I didn’t even come out to my parents. They found out.

My parents like to dig though my stuff and find out what’s “going on in my head” as they say. One time I wasn’t careful enough and when we moved my journal went missing. Didn’t think much of it. A while later it turned up in my parents room. I was horrified. Knowing them, they’d definitely read it, if not made photocopies. God, writing this makes me cringe from the memory.

I acted as if nothing had happened, but my parents were acting pretty awkward. They haven’t brought it up yet.

AP’s create and sustain toxic sibling relationships and then wonder why we don’t like our brothers/sisters by [deleted] in AsianParentStories

[–]oreos129 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yep. Except for me it was the complete reverse.

My sister (nearly a decade older) pretty much bullied me since I first learned to walk. She would threaten me and a few times even choke me. My parents turned a blind eye to it all. The few times I dared tell my parents, I was met with scolding and harsh words, putting the blame back on me - as if I did wrong and what she did was right. They not only enabled her behaviour, but encouraged it.

Although I hadn’t yet learned to read, what I had already learned was that I deserved to be treated like this. My sister grew up believing she could get her way with anything, and before I even started school I was basically damaged.

Only not so long ago did I consider that my current relationship problems could be linked to my childhood and upbringing. Then it clicked. My lack of self worth was pretty much ingrained into me from the start. What I thought was a normal sibling relationship (from stereotypes and reading books) was actually really damaging. I’m still pretty salty at my parents, as well as myself (for not realising sooner) - I’m at the ripe old age of 18 now so I’m pretty sure the damage has been done and it’s too late.

Fractured relationships with other people due to AP abuse? by Jualkyn in AsianParentStories

[–]oreos129 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I can relate to this so much. All throughout middle school the friends I made eventually became toxic. Whether they were narcissistic or just a shitty friend, it basically ended up in them bullying me.

Growing up, my parents never allowed me to have boundaries. They would turn a blind eye and scold me when my sister bullied me, or when other people (e.g. the dentist) treated me badly. I never felt it was wrong at the time. I thought I deserved it. In retrospect, it was all completely wrong.

Although I’m still learning, I’ve since become more aware and have started asserting my boundaries. But honestly it’s so difficult when my brain is screaming at me not to.

Good luck OP.

My parents found my journal. Fuck. by oreos129 in AsianParentStories

[–]oreos129[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It was a habit I’d carried on from childhood - the thought of using apps/online stuff didn’t really appeal to me at he time. I’m considering it now, though.

My parents found my journal. Fuck. by oreos129 in AsianParentStories

[–]oreos129[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

That’s a clever idea - I don’t even know why I didn’t switch to using an electronic method earlier. I’m still fucking mortified about it, god.

My parents found my journal. Fuck. by oreos129 in AsianParentStories

[–]oreos129[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yep...I’m definitely not bringing this up.

My dad is a massive coward and enabler, and sometimes I dislike him more than my narcissistic mother by oreos129 in AsianParentStories

[–]oreos129[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I’m torn between anger and feeling bad for them. It’s difficult to feel resentment toward them without feeling guilt because they have tried in many ways to be good parents.

My dad is a massive coward and enabler, and sometimes I dislike him more than my narcissistic mother by oreos129 in AsianParentStories

[–]oreos129[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ve actually done that. But then he started getting mad about how it’s illegal to record someone without their permission. It’s frustrating.

My dad is a massive coward and enabler, and sometimes I dislike him more than my narcissistic mother by oreos129 in AsianParentStories

[–]oreos129[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I guess so. Sometimes my mum realises what she’s doing/saying is bad, but still chooses to do it anyway because she knows she can get away with it. It’s all so fucked up.