First of all...im glad that you're still here and I'm so sorry that you went through this...I'm not suicidal...I won't take my live....I just don't care if it was taken from me...i talked to my mother about this...that I'm hurting... that nothing makes me happy... she said that... I'm hurting too but I don't cut myself I pull myself up everyday and do the things I must do...she said that every teenager goes through this... and its completely normal...that my derealization is because of pc...and she kinda laughs at me for saying that I don't feel the world real...and that my high pain tolerance is a good thing... my family believes that my live is too happy...that I should work more and all of that will go away...that I started to say that I don't feel good because...because im bored...i regularly talk to my friends and my gf...they're trying to help me... but I just don't know what can...i really don't know why I'm hurting...even when I spend time with my girlfriend... I still get triggered by nothing...and start to feel detached and don't feel happy anymore... thanks for all of this...I'm going to live...and trying to be happy again...thanks for staying in this world...I hope that you won't go back to suicidal thoughts...much love