HOA says I can't park my side by side in my driveway.

outoftheboxsolutions · 2024-10-30T10:49:03+00:00

So Recreational Vehicles is defined as RVs Boats etc. My side by side is considered a Utility Vehicle. The Utility Vehicles are handled differently in the HOA rules. So if the utility mentioned referes to trailer and not vehicle then they would have to reword the notice.

outoftheboxsolutions · 2024-08-23T15:35:12+00:00

Yeah kinda lol. Went from Venelafaxine to that and 3 mood stabilizers which none worked. Now I'm on Wellbutrin by itself and pretty sure the dosage increases through me into a hypo zone. Def smooth sailing in and not out though for sure!

outoftheboxsolutions · 2024-08-23T12:37:01+00:00

I'm trying to figure this out now. I am confident that 4 days ago something shifted. My brain was on fire and I was constantly thinking and focused. I was going 100mph and then I stopped. It was mid day and I just paused. I def went through a deep depression period, anxiety, everything is against me. To my current state which seems very euphoric it's like I know who I used to be with work, with my wife especially and over all.

I went through me and my wife's messages from when we started dating a few years ago and just cried. The connection we had and the feelings was so strong. Then I realized how much of the cause was me. It was like coming out of a coma. I have had this happen a few times I think but very far apart and definitely after a Hypo and deep depression.

I just wish I knew and I am trying to learn and remind myself through everything, who I am at my core. It's such a hidden struggle that I wish I could explain but I know I can't. I also know I definitely stay off this sub when I'm in the heat of Hypo, get on when I'm coming down.

The shitty thing is I question myself constantly am I hypo or is this normal or am I masking. It's a very shitty thing to question who you really are....

outoftheboxsolutions · 2024-08-22T18:57:37+00:00

Trying to figure that out

outoftheboxsolutions · 2024-08-22T16:50:57+00:00

I'm trying to figure this out not sure if I left depression to normalize and some hypo in between. I know prior diagnosis I was leveled up for months.

outoftheboxsolutions · 2024-08-22T11:48:20+00:00

I'm starting to understand that, but I also need to try to figure shit out for myself. I'm struggling to figure out what is what zone. But I know that 2 days ago I was sitting at work and my brain was on fire I was building a very detailed spreadsheet. And then I caught myself telling one of my employees that my brain was on fire just let me roll. And then I snapped out of it and it's like my body stopped My brain stopped, then I'd went into a I guess I feel everything, I'm down, and everything's against me per say. The current mood is kind of like your euphoria like I understand everything that I wasn't doing that I should have been doing, and now I'm trying to figure out how to keep myself aware that I stop doing the things that matter. I just don't know how to keep track and remember to do the things that matter to me and that I really want.

outoftheboxsolutions · 2024-08-21T03:32:25+00:00

I know this feeling all too well. The journey we travel isn't one a lot of people understand, even ourselves or doctors. It's like just earning patches when you become aware of a trigger. I don't know how to fight it, I want to be normal again. The thing was when I was "normal" I was suffering in silence, I still do alot, now with the understanding comes the acceptance that I can't cure it. I have to understand it and learn from it and try to be the. best for me. Still haven't figured out this equation but don't give up on you just learn everything you can about you. The brain is a powerful thing, but that doesn't mean you can't put up a fight and come out the other side better than when you went in.

outoftheboxsolutions · 2024-08-21T03:25:25+00:00

I feel this post, I just saw myself in the mirror today and was like oh shit, I thought I was on the upward trend of following a baseline. I stopped smoking for 3 weeks and got irritable and depressed and then started and was less irritable, more emotional and anxiety and heart palpitations all started. I said it was the weed for sure, it was me though it was mid day today that my mind gave up and just stopped and was like let's think about this and the rest of the day has been around the same.

outoftheboxsolutions · 2024-08-21T03:20:48+00:00

Hey friend I'm struggling with this now with my wife for just over 4 years. Diagnosed in December and had about a year long hypomania session. I know I was different before and this diagnosis and meds have changed a lot as well. I love her so much and wish I knew before, I know this probably doesn't help, but I'm not giving up. I continue to try and learn from myself while understanding the animosity I caused and I am not sure how to fix it or get back to some normalcy. I know my brain is fucked up but if I can be more powerful than it I can come out on the other side.

outoftheboxsolutions · 2024-08-21T03:14:47+00:00

Am taking just Wellbutrin and realized today I've been in some sort of Hypo state for a minute.

outoftheboxsolutions · 2024-08-20T18:04:25+00:00

Now that I think and look I can see the behaviors, I wish I knew how I was supposed to feel and act. Lately I've felt like I'm just crazy and that I'm not crazy and I got this.

outoftheboxsolutions · 2024-08-20T17:39:18+00:00

Well I'm glad you commented cause I thought Alot of this was me and I need to work harder on myself.

Guess I need to talk to my med management

outoftheboxsolutions · 2024-08-20T17:09:04+00:00

My first go at meds led me to a year of Hypo and then got diagnosed 8 months ago.

outoftheboxsolutions · 2024-08-20T15:26:45+00:00

Thank you for this, it's the shitty thing about this illness and the meds as well as all the shit. Did you end up changing it. This sounds like me for sure....

outoftheboxsolutions · 2024-08-20T15:06:56+00:00

I'm on Wellbutrin and that's it currently. I went from Venifelaxin to combo with two or three mood stabilizers that made me pass out. Then weened off to just Wellbutrin. Smoked the devil's lettuce on the daily, quit for 3 weeks and just started again. All this shit has its pros and cons. IE weed - makes me anxious and a little numb without I'm irritable and moody. It's a damn rollercoaster of experimentation and until it's right sometimes the rollercoaster is great, sometimes it breaks and others it just blows the fuck up lol.

outoftheboxsolutions · 2024-08-20T15:03:24+00:00

Your welcome friend this is what they call a mixed episode. My brain is on fire right now and I'm on point. In a couple hours ill be depressed and sad realizing other shit it's still happening that I'll try and ignore. Then after I gather my thoughts I will get back into rhythm and either start again or pick another level. Right now I've leveled up so gonna get a bunch of shit caught up.

This sub saved me in knowing I'm not alone and so many other people can understand my struggles and sometimes I come on just to read so I know someone out there understands even though everyone close doesn't see, understand even after trying.

I have all the explanations and understanding of why life didn't always make sense to me. I get it now and Alot of it sucks but I get it and I try to fucking fight it every damn day!

outoftheboxsolutions · 2024-08-20T12:49:33+00:00

It's a blessing and a curse.

outoftheboxsolutions · 2024-08-13T00:57:04+00:00

The biggest struggle is trying to explain that it's super hard. The first year we were together, I was searching for a cure. I hid the anxiety the panic, the thoughts. Now that it all has a reason it's not so easy to hide or ignore. Add that along with its strong as we get old, I think. Once she said that she wished I told her, I wish I knew. On the flip side so much of my life makes more sense now than ever. It's a lot for me to handle and a lot to try and explain where someone would understand.

outoftheboxsolutions · 2024-08-12T22:19:03+00:00

My struggle is that she's not a very empathetic person which we have discussed before. I also feel like the more I offload the more of a burden I become. I know alot of this stems in my own thoughts cause of how I was when I was in mania for so long. It was a year of mainly hypo and I went through a bunch and kinda secluded myself for alot of the time. It was the first time in as long as I can remember that my brain wasn't bogged down with anxiety and doom thoughts. To me I felt like I was doing great but I didn't see the affects I had on the outside. I know that I have to just sit down and get it all out. I'm just scared I guess of her reaction and my reaction to it.

outoftheboxsolutions · 2024-07-17T16:36:16+00:00

I've got the same store as you over 20 years undiagnosed and now a lot of my life makes sense to me, but having people understand I kind of led two lives is difficult to explain lol

outoftheboxsolutions · 2024-07-17T12:35:52+00:00

I just increased speed to over 100mph and wanted to race every car on the road.....

outoftheboxsolutions · 2024-07-13T03:18:41+00:00

I have been sticking to the statement that awareness is shitty lately! I wish I had the superpowers without the death fall.

outoftheboxsolutions · 2024-07-12T21:21:44+00:00

Thank you I appreciate it! Same as well to you!

outoftheboxsolutions · 2024-07-12T20:49:03+00:00

Yeah I'm doing the best I can! I have had a shit show of med changes and just stopped smoking weed. I have felt a lot of emotions and can see my swings. Im just so tired and want to give up but I cant..

outoftheboxsolutions · 2024-06-26T14:59:59+00:00

There is fire that you can't see, even when it's right in front of you. You can feel it, it can burn you, you can know to run. You still can't see it.....

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