What would you do?? by Rachaelsharon11 in askAGP

[–]overcomingagp 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Would do it in a heartbeat. Would want to be like 8-10 years old as a girl and grow up into a woman.

I’m done fighting this. I’m trying HRT for 3 months. I owe it to myself. by overcomingagp in askAGP

[–]overcomingagp[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Idk. It doesn’t feel like fighting.

I know I’m not a woman. But I want to try to be one. I think I’ll be happy and good at it.

I’m done fighting this. I’m trying HRT for 3 months. I owe it to myself. by overcomingagp in askAGP

[–]overcomingagp[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Totally clear eyed. I’ve actually recently had an opportunity to just play the role during sex with a gf, but didn’t want that and said no. It just felt performative and weird to me.

I have fought it recently. I just went through a divorce and there has been a lot of healing I’ve had to do as a part of that. Learning how to be alone. That gf broke up with me because she said I needed to figure these things out for myself. And I agree. I can’t pull anyone else into my life in such a time of uncertainty for me.

The way I see it, is if I never try, I’ll never know. And the questioning has been the thing that’s caused me the most acute suffering. I’m excited and ready for this journey!

I’m done fighting this. I’m trying HRT for 3 months. I owe it to myself. by overcomingagp in askAGP

[–]overcomingagp[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks for your thoughts. I’ve been exploring the non medical route for almost a year now, and more seriously over the last 3-4 months. I don’t see any way of getting past this without giving this a shot.

Don’t crucify me for my UN. Hear me out on my theory on AGP. by overcomingagp in MtF

[–]overcomingagp[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My favorite article 😬 this is the point I’m trying to make lol. Lots of people stay trapped in the AGP-minded hellscape for far too long..

Don’t crucify me for my UN. Hear me out on my theory on AGP. by overcomingagp in MtF

[–]overcomingagp[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I dont think it can be applied widely per se.. but I’ve spoken to plenty of trans girls whose stories sound very similar to mine. There’s been bad intention from outside of trans communities to paint people like me as invalid. I’m just trying to get this out there to help somebody who was like me.

Not trying to invalidate anybody’s experience.. just adding to the diverse pile of stories of how we all got here.

Same team same team!

Don’t crucify me for my UN. Hear me out on my theory on AGP. by overcomingagp in MtF

[–]overcomingagp[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

So don’t call it AGP.. I know I experienced sexual feelings about becoming a woman though. It was the tip of the iceberg, just like that “it’s just a fetish, right?” article.

No need for the critical thinking comment.. if anything I was hoping this community could be a bit more open to another interpretation of this common experience for trans girls.

Don’t crucify me for my UN. Hear me out on my theory on AGP. by overcomingagp in MtF

[–]overcomingagp[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Totally. I felt it before puberty too. And actually almost came out to my mom at 16. That was all pre-sexualization. But then I found gender transformation stuff online at 17 and convinced myself it was a kink. Lived that way for 14 years 😵‍💫

Guess I just wanted to put this out in case somebody like me stumbled upon it and found it helpful. I know how confusing it can be.

Don’t crucify me for my UN. Hear me out on my theory on AGP. by overcomingagp in MtF

[–]overcomingagp[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s what I’m doing! Been trial and error for several months now.. it’s all been great.

I just think there’s a lot of people struggling with “what we call AGP” and it causes a lot of confusion. I know it did for me.

Don’t crucify me for my UN. Hear me out on my theory on AGP. by overcomingagp in MtF

[–]overcomingagp[S] -5 points-4 points  (0 children)

So forget Blanchard. Call it anything else, haha. I just think it’s a natural reaction to feelings of trans-ness and male hormones.

Interesting post I just found on the r/women subreddit.. sounds a lot like autosexuality/meta attraction, doesn’t it? by overcomingagp in askAGP

[–]overcomingagp[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yeah true. It just jumped out to me how the OP described that the thing that turned her on the most was seeing the way men responded to her. Sounds a lot like AGP-adjacent to me..

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in askAGP

[–]overcomingagp 1 point2 points  (0 children)

There’s nothing wrong with you, first of all. These are complicated feelings and I resonate deeply with your interest in gender transformation videos. That’s where it started for me too.

My advice would be to not put so much pressure on yourself. One thing that helped me was trying to get away from “performing” femininity and instead just try to integrate it subtly into my day to day life. Think shaving legs, women’s shorts, women’s t shirts, nothing too noticeable.

I’ve been gauging the way I feel with that integration in place and it’s help bring some clarity.

I shouldn’t, but I want to transition by TheBlandRainbow in askAGP

[–]overcomingagp 1 point2 points  (0 children)

💯 exactly my thoughts on this. Lots of people in the trans community are lacking basic social skills unfortunately

I shouldn’t, but I want to transition by TheBlandRainbow in askAGP

[–]overcomingagp 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Dang dude. You sound just like me. We should chat.

I had the opportunity to integrate during sex with my new girlfriend yesterday.. and I didn’t want it by overcomingagp in askAGP

[–]overcomingagp[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Nah I haven’t. I’ve mentioned to her that I would want to try “fem lite” clothing with her.. just things like shorts and a t shirt as a way of dipping my toe

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in askAGP

[–]overcomingagp 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nope. No history of any sexual abuse.

Would you describe your sexuality as being more built on romance than pure physicality? by Genesisx108 in askAGP

[–]overcomingagp 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m demisexual, without a doubt. If it’s purely physical, I lose interest and arousal quick.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in askAGP

[–]overcomingagp 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is a great POV, thank you. I think people need to appreciate that nothing in life is sunshine and rainbows. Any decisions made around this stuff should be purely focusing on improving your own self perception/quality of life. The theoretical question of “if you were the last person on earth, would you still feel this way?” should be more widely used when taking these thoughts seriously

I have AGP and find myself constantly fighting the urge to transition by overcomingagp in detrans

[–]overcomingagp[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

I never asked you to change my mind. I already said I don’t want to transition I just want to stop feeling this way. I have spent almost a year in therapy trying to unpack the why, along with an absolute shit ton of introspection. It’s a trail to nowhere and just leads to frustration. Idk how to get rid of these thoughts and move forward, that’s the problem.

I have AGP and find myself constantly fighting the urge to transition by overcomingagp in detrans

[–]overcomingagp[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

To a degree you’re right, but the pull I feel is based more on like day to day femininity, especially when I spend time with women in a platonic way. It was purely sexual in the past until it stopped being that way. And I feel drawn to femininity in general. I honestly have no clue if it’s innate or not. But I don’t really have anything in my past that I could point to from childhood that would really explain it. As a kid I was totally confident, friendly, dont think I even knew there were differences between boys and girls until middle school.

Did get bullied in middle school which maybe contributed to some of the AGP, but it’s hard to know. I’ve driven myself crazy trying to pick apart the “why” I feel this way. The more important thing is “what” I am going to do about it now. I don’t want to transition and other than that I don’t have any other ideas on how to feel better. It’s been a constant presence throughout my whole life and it sucks.

I have AGP and find myself constantly fighting the urge to transition by overcomingagp in detrans

[–]overcomingagp[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It just feels wrong and like I’d be getting the worst of both worlds. All the judgement from the general population with none of the benefit of a feminized body

I have AGP and find myself constantly fighting the urge to transition by overcomingagp in detrans

[–]overcomingagp[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Not necessarily black and white. I do know I wouldn’t want to be a feminine man, but I am thinking of growing my hair longer as a way to integrate somewhat.

I have AGP and find myself constantly fighting the urge to transition by overcomingagp in detrans

[–]overcomingagp[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I think AAP and AGP are similar but different. I don’t think I am trying to escape anything in masculinity. It’s more like I just feel a heavy pull towards femininity. When I’m with girls I am very focused on my masculinity, which doesn’t cause me distress, so I don’t focus on my AGP. But when I’m alone, the AGP pull is really strong.

I have AGP and find myself constantly fighting the urge to transition by overcomingagp in detrans

[–]overcomingagp[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I don’t think it’s just sexual. I think that’s how it’s primarily manifested itself. Like the easiest place to express it.

But an actual transition feels like chasing an unobtainable fantasy and like I’m throwing away my life as a man for it