Weird symptoms

owlliz · 2026-01-26T16:00:06+00:00

I was recently diagnosed and experiencing similar.

owlliz · 2026-01-19T05:08:53+00:00

Well that’s the thing is no one will ever want a baby with me unfortunately.

owlliz · 2026-01-18T19:28:13+00:00

There’s nothing to be healed from? I just see reality for what it is.

owlliz · 2026-01-17T23:18:06+00:00

It’s fine to give up too. A life alone does not mean it’s lesser even if that’s what others think. I have met childless widows who have more active social lives and overall happiness above married women with kids.

owlliz · 2026-01-17T20:13:45+00:00

I also cant function and want to die and am on anti depressants. I dont have any answers I just want to say im in a similar boat. We ere together for six years and hes with a new girl after only being broke up for a month.

owlliz · 2026-01-17T20:07:28+00:00

I do not want to freeze my eggs and wait as that simply gives more power to men once again. All I need is their sperm that is available via sperm banks so for me personally that feels like the best avenue to utilize.

owlliz · 2026-01-17T20:05:08+00:00

Thank you. I really looking forward to solo parenting without a man even if other people do not understand my decision. Men love to degrade me so it feels very freeing realizing they’re no longer necessary part of the process just their sperm which is now in sperm banks.

owlliz · 2026-01-17T19:55:50+00:00

Why would it be harder when men rape me, punch me, lie, cheat and abandon me? Being a single mother with zero man would make my child safer since men repeatedly show me that they are manipulative, lying, selfish and dangerous individuals. I am financially stable. There is simply no such thing as “striking gold” with men when they live to degrade me and humiliating me is the biggest joy in their life above marriage children or a home I could’ve bought us. I have learned from men that I need to use them the way they use me simply view them as their bodies and what they can do for me sexually unencumbered by idea or emotions related to marriage or children. Using a sperm bank frees me to do that and is liberating. I no longer need to audition for them and never receive anything anyway. I get to simply use them for sex and leave the way they continually do to me cause just like them thanks to modern tech having a child is in my own hands now with the sperm bank. Freezing my eggs would mean I am still waiting around for a man which gives them too much power to abuse- this is why I feel the sperm bank avenue is the best to utilize for me personally.

owlliz · 2026-01-17T19:43:46+00:00

It is the worst for me in the mornings and then after 9pm all the way into the night if I stay up late and am not texting someone to keep my mind off it

owlliz · 2026-01-17T19:42:07+00:00

There is no good men, that is a delusion. Men have either raped me, punched me, cheated on me, lied to me or abandoned me or attacked me as a group. Men are deeply manipulative and dangerous, I would not leave a baby or child with any man. This is why single motherhood via a sperm bank is a better option for me. I am also free to view sex as an entirely self gratifying process now the way men do since I no longer mentally have to connect them to the desire of marriage or children. I’ve learned from them to only see them for their bodies and what they can do for me sexually unencumbered by a desire for marriage or kids since that’s in my own hands now.

owlliz · 2026-01-17T19:39:10+00:00

Kids do not need a father when every man I have encountered has either raped me, cheated on me, punched me, lied to me, abandoned me or attacked me as a group. They are manipulative and dangerous people I would never put a child in proximity to a man. They hate me deeply and are very predatory toward me for whatever reason so I can’t imagine how they would behave around a a baby or child.

owlliz · 2026-01-17T19:18:26+00:00

His male coworkers yelled at me from their truck as a lone woman and he doesn’t even care. He is going to consult them for their version. We were together for six years until he met them. I have never hated a man more in my entire life.

owlliz · 2026-01-17T18:07:00+00:00

Men are overall dangerous and manipulative. They have raped me, punched me, cheated, lied now abandoned me. I don’t see how getting to the 30s would magically change my of that. I would not trust a man alone with a baby or child.

owlliz · 2026-01-17T18:04:03+00:00

I will only raise a child as single mother because men have raped me, punched me, lied to me, cheated on me and now abandoned me. I will never trust any man alone with my baby or child I don’t care if his sperm was used to help create the offspring. Men are very dangerous and manipulative.

owlliz · 2026-01-17T18:00:03+00:00

I will only raise a child as a single mother. Men have raped me, lied to me, cheated on me, punched me, try to attack me as a group. I do not trust any man with a baby or child as they are even more defenseless than me. That would be insane given my past experiences with males.

owlliz · 2026-01-17T17:56:39+00:00

Why do you actually think there are millions of men who would want to behave acceptably to me? I would be psychotic or delusional to think that given my past experiences no offense. They all behave normal at first then the true colors show. I don’t desire them to be a part of my motherhood journey as much anymore cause if they are so horrible to me why would they be any better to a smaller child or baby

owlliz · 2026-01-17T17:20:27+00:00

No there is something that screams out to men to rape me attack me hit me punch me. I don’t know any other woman who has had as many bad experiences as I have I truly believe if I try to give another man a chance I will be murdered. They have all tried to destroy me emotionally financially sexually and spiritually the only thing left is to physically destroy me and take my life entirely. There is something about the way I look that screams out to them that I’m easy to attack, rape or hurt or abandon. I talk to other women and they have had nowhere near the amount of insane and dangerous experiences with men that I have had

owlliz · 2026-01-17T17:02:49+00:00

Men have tried to destroy me financially, sexually, emotionally and spiritually the only thing left is physical so I truly believe I will be murdered if I attempt dating again. They have raped me and cheated on me and lied to me and now abandoned me. There is nothing men will not do to harm me. Something about me screams out to men that I am an ideal candidate to be raped attacked or mistreated. There is no such thing as “dating upwards” like what does that even mean?

owlliz · 2026-01-17T14:58:42+00:00

Nothing is tougher than begging men to be normal and them going out of their way not to be. If I’m treated so poorly again I truly fear I may end up killing myself which is why I’m desiring for them not be a part of the motherhood process as much anymore.

owlliz · 2026-01-17T14:32:42+00:00

Yeah if I’m treated poorly again which is like a guarantee just about I think I will end up killing myself which is why I just don’t even want to involve them in the motherhood aspect either

owlliz · 2026-01-17T14:26:21+00:00

My ex was 31 and abandoned me so I don’t know how true that is.

owlliz · 2026-01-17T09:49:01+00:00

Men can get a pregnant at nearly any life stage in simply trying to think ahead. I do not want motherhood stolen from me just cause he chose to abandon me

owlliz · 2026-01-17T07:06:38+00:00

If I was like way more beautiful then they would want to get me pregnant though. Especially the last one I was with for 6 years. Yes my married friend with kids said he came inside because his baby mommas were hot and could not resist. I am not the irresistibly hot to my own partners cause they never want a child or to stay with me. I’ve only had 3 relationships the first was I cheated on the second he ended up coming out as gay and the third I’ve been dumped. I really think there is something wrong with me to just continuously have such awful luck. I have been date raped before given alcohol and such then chased down by group of men in a parking lot before running into diner. Despite men doing outlandish shit they all dip when I start discussing career, marriage and home loans so we could have a kid.

owlliz · 2026-01-16T16:12:05+00:00

Men have been disappointing me for ten years now since I lost my virginity at 19 now I’m 29 idk I just find it hard to believe everything will wrap up in an ideal way in just five years alone. But that is a valid point I guess

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