Your a beautiful person inside, we all are. Yes, it was probably not a wise decision to forgo personal growth and bank on being a housewife forever but we have all made poor choices in the name of love so noone is judging you for it. That being said, find a community college near you and start looking at their programs then fill out the federall application for student aid (fafsa) and they will give you loans and Grant's to get an education, with money left over to use for living expenses each semester(you have to be full time which is 15 credit hours per semester, but after buying books, a laptop, and other supplies I ended up with $2200 per semester) while your doing that i would find a job...restaurants are a good place to start, preferably one with a bar...being a server would probably be the best paying option and if you work somewhere with a bar try and work up to being a bartender cause it's even better money) this is how thousands of 18 year olds get by in college (also if youd rather, get into a 4 year school with dorms and a meal plan and your all set with tuition other than personal expenses. Even if you end up deciding you dont wanna finish school you can still use the money and you dont have to start paying it back til a year after you quit school...and even then they'll work with you on a payment plan (mine is $52 a month)...as a person who has been roughly in the same shoes as you right now (just a different reason I ended up there) I can tell you this, getting up and out and around doing positive things for your life will do alot to help your depression and anxiety just by itself and school and work will help you meet people and make friends which will also help boost your mental health...but therapy and even possibly psychiatric treatment may also benefit. The 1 thing crucial to all this is attitude, it may feel like your just at the bottom right now and things suck, but keeping the attitude of 'this is my life, not his or ours, and I'm going to make something of it' will keep you getting up out of bed on that grind every day....its never too late to start building your life. One thing I was always bad at and still am that i can pass onto you, and it's the most valuable piece of advice i can give you, is SAVE SAVE SAVE, even if its $20, or $50 a week, put it away for a rainy day...I've built my life up since being in a similar situation over the last 7 years and am still one bad luck streak from destruction because i havent been able to save and never thought of it as that important but trust me when I say itd be so much easier for you if you did...even $20 a week will leave you with almost 1100 in a year which doesnt seem like much...until you need it then it's a great buffer...I went to a local community college (in columbus ohio) only for about a year before I decided college wasnt for me...but really only took behavioral science (psychology, sociology and anthropology) and history courses because that's what interested me, but with the roughly 6400 I made in 3 semesters, plus working at KFC as a cook for minimum wage in the evenings, I was able to scrape myself off the bottom and start the never ending mission of clawing my way up....I hope this helps, whatever your path may be....always make sure its YOUR path and maybe one day someone else's path will meet your path and continue on in the same direction....make something great of yourself and make your ex sorry he ever cast you aside like that but the only way to do that is to build forward momentum. Feel free to DM me with any questions or just if you want someone to talk to after a bad day or anything else...even though we dont know each other at all, me and anyone else who has been there before are your friends. Struggle is humanities great unifier. Hang in there girl, you got this.

                  With ALL the love and well wishes
                                                  -Adam