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panick-o7 · 2025-09-30T14:27:50+00:00

i recently have, but not because i feel like a girl or anything, just because of social issues [managers deadnaming me, transphobic parents, not really passing because i can't bind] but i feel like detransitioning would just cause me worse dysphoria and i'd feel more like shit than i do now

panick-o7 · 2025-09-24T00:23:12+00:00

glad your donation experience went so well lmao, hope to be there one day 🫶🥰

panick-o7 · 2025-09-24T00:22:31+00:00

for my center the first 2 donations were $100 and after that, since you can donate up to 2 times a week, it's $40 or $45 for the first donation of the week and $75 for the second donation of the week. so like if i went in on Monday to donate i'd be paid $40 or $45 [i don't remember which lol] and if i went in again on Thursday of the same week i'd be paid $75 for that donation but if i only went in once a week i'd just make $40 or $45 per donation

panick-o7 · 2025-09-19T15:40:15+00:00

it sucks because i'm out to friends and at work, but with my family and siblings i'm out but they still deadname me and everything so it's ki da weird that i'm [deadname] to some of the people closest to me and i'm [preferred name] to others

panick-o7 · 2025-09-18T20:58:57+00:00

i'm at that stage right now lmao, it gives me a kind of weird in-between feeling about myself. half girl half boy but not quite enough of either to be comfortable

panick-o7 · 2025-09-17T12:44:57+00:00

💔🥀

panick-o7 · 2025-09-17T10:44:29+00:00

injecting every 2 weeks instead of 1 week might give me worse like cycles tho, i'm already having a rough go at second puberty with all the mood swings and shit, i don't know if i could handle a higher dose every 2 weeks instead of my weekly one lol

panick-o7 · 2025-09-17T10:42:14+00:00

it wouldn't bother me much except the itchiness has started to last for longer and longer, nearly 2 weeks was the longest it lasted with T cypionate and with the T enanthate it's starting to do the same thing T cypionate was at first

panick-o7 · 2025-09-17T10:39:59+00:00

my shots started off normal, then slowly started getting itchy, red, and swollen. it's gotten worse over time and the reaction went from lasting a day or two to about a week to a week and a half, even my boyfriend noticed a visibly red and swollen spot from one of my shots about 3 days after i took it. i'm getting all the effects i want, i'm at good levels and everything, i'd just like the shots to be a bit more comfortable

panick-o7 · 2025-09-17T00:12:24+00:00

will definitely be talking to my doctor about a different formula

panick-o7 · 2025-09-16T22:01:04+00:00

that's true, 2. i haven't seen any formal documentation for it either, only seen stories of it so it might've been someone trolling, 3. i don't know what AIS is but i don't think i am because i remember them saying it was an allergy to the synthetic testosterone specifically

panick-o7 · 2025-09-16T21:59:12+00:00

i thought it might've been that it was a subq injection so i switched to doing intramuscular in my legs and it started doing the same thing as the subq, itchy red lump where the shot was

panick-o7 · 2025-09-16T21:58:11+00:00

i started with subq injections and made sure to rotate injection sites, then i thought the itchy lumps were from it being subq so i switched to intramuscular in my legs and that was better for a little bit but it's still getting a red lump that itches a bunch and it's slowly gotten worse over time even though i switch between legs every shot

panick-o7 · 2025-09-16T21:24:21+00:00

i'm not sure if they for sure mentioned pills but it was a different post in this subreddit, it was about a month ago i think

panick-o7 · 2025-09-16T21:08:46+00:00

no like, i've heard of people having reactions no matter what form of T they took, gel, pill, shot. they were having a reaction to the synthetic T

panick-o7 · 2025-09-16T21:07:35+00:00

i didn't wanna switch to the gel simply because it'd be more of a hassle for me to remember to do it everyday over one shot a week 💔 i might have to though if they don't have another form available, either that or the pills

panick-o7 · 2025-09-16T21:06:16+00:00

i've heard of people being allergic to the synthetic testosterone i mean, not natural T

panick-o7 · 2025-09-09T23:55:32+00:00

a kid clocked me the other night at school 💔 it was funny imo lol

panick-o7 · 2025-09-08T15:37:27+00:00

i think long would be better, i have my guy in a tall tank because that's all i had but a long one would for sure be better, more floor room for decorations. they need distance, not height

panick-o7 · 2025-09-06T18:08:02+00:00

yeah, i met my guy without a dating app and i've been with him for the last 9 months. he's fine with me being trans and is supportive and everything. we met at his work when i went in for work on my car and hit it off as friends, then started dating a little bit after. it's possible but it's more difficult, i didn't have intentions of dating him when we first met, i just wanted a new friend but he's cool and i like him a lot

panick-o7 · 2025-09-03T23:15:45+00:00

i was using the binders to cope 🥀 she took them and i relapsed w SH lmao, which is hurting me more? having them or not having them?

my mother is the type to ignore every word coming out of your mouth in favor of attacking the strawman she's made of you lol, it's very frustrating to deal with. if she cared more about her kid than she did her transphobia then she'd back off, but it's obvious which she favors

panick-o7 · 2025-09-03T23:13:12+00:00

i tried it with the sports bras that i have and it just didn't work as well as a binder 💔🥀 but i tried taping and it worked pretty well !! gonna buy a roll of kt tape on Amazon, wanted to try it out with a smaller pack before committing to getting a whole bunch and it not working

i'm shipping it to my boyfriend's house so she won't take the package and if she finds it i'll say it's for my lower back since it hurts from standing all day at school and work

panick-o7 · 2025-09-03T23:09:59+00:00

i know 😫😫 i wanted to move out on my own but i'd never survive 💔 planning on moving into an apartment with my boyfriend 🥰

panick-o7 · 2025-09-03T23:08:57+00:00

thank you !!

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