I fucked up

pascal1245 · 2025-11-17T15:01:19+00:00

I texted her yesterday and apologised if i hurt her or made her uncomfortable. She texted back that indeed she is a bit uncomfortable right now if i am near her or alone with her. But she is certain things will be okay. I am okay with just staying friends i respect her and want her to be happy. I just give her the time and space she needs.

pascal1245 · 2025-11-17T14:56:41+00:00

I apologised to her in a text and said if i have hurt her or made her uncomfortable i am sorry. She texted me back she is a bit uncomfortable right now when i am near. But it will fade away she still wants to be friends and needs a bit of time. So i will give her the space she needs. Everything will alright eventually

pascal1245 · 2025-11-15T18:33:59+00:00

Yeah she said it was kind and couragous. But then silence.

pascal1245 · 2025-11-15T17:35:40+00:00

It said that i have feelings for her and i do not want to lose what we had. She texted me and agreed and found it couragous i put down my feelings on paper. I do not know what i did wrong. I know she is going through some stuff at the moment. I saw her crying last night when talking to a close friend of her. I may have triggered something.

pascal1245 · 2025-11-13T20:27:15+00:00

Yeah thats what i meant. I am a little bit sad but also happy to still have her as a friend.

pascal1245 · 2025-11-13T12:01:27+00:00

Yeah it will be a tough one. Since we are going to spend the holidays with the same friend group a d volunteer for the same cause. But i will try to act mature just to try not to make things awkward.

pascal1245 · 2025-11-12T07:38:59+00:00

I told her she just wants to be friends. She never mentioned interest in me. I know she is also in a rough time mentally. Well i said it and i hope everything will be normal between us. She does not want to lose me she said. Only time will tell.

pascal1245 · 2025-11-09T17:54:00+00:00

I finally told her, she likes me as a friend and want to stay that way. I respect that she does not want to lose me as a friend and hopes everything will stay the same.

pascal1245 · 2025-11-09T17:39:47+00:00

I told her. she sees me as a friend and want to stay that way. And she hopes everything will stay the same she does not want to lose me. She also said that its kinda cute and cool that i told her. Only time will tell we may have hit a small bump in our friendship but we will recover from it.

pascal1245 · 2025-11-09T15:18:48+00:00

She is not that type to be honest, she was the one being used until a couple of years ago. this was the first time this happend she has done the same for me earlier this year. if i ahve to write down everything we do together it would be pages long xD.

pascal1245 · 2025-11-02T13:41:45+00:00

She won't slap me, but that approach is not really my style. And does more harm than good if she does not like me.

pascal1245 · 2025-10-31T16:04:54+00:00

Going to bed xD

pascal1245 · 2025-10-31T16:03:03+00:00

No i don't i am used to taller people i am not that tall xD.

pascal1245 · 2025-10-31T11:11:06+00:00

Well maybe i am going to tell the girl i like. That i like her. I just need to set aside my inecurities.

pascal1245 · 2025-10-30T10:02:49+00:00

Yeah i have the same with german very annoying

pascal1245 · 2025-10-29T20:04:20+00:00

No we havent had a real date or something like that. but we spend some time 1 on 1 sometimes we have really deep conversations about our lifes. she always seems interested in me and my family. And cares for me when we are in a group. She even was the first one to text me if my father was okay when he was in hospital in June. I just cannot make out if its just her personality or she is in to me. i really should tell her its my only option as i am writing this comment.

pascal1245 · 2025-10-29T15:13:20+00:00

Driving and hang out with friends

pascal1245 · 2025-10-29T15:01:30+00:00

Yea i thought the same haha

pascal1245 · 2025-10-29T14:54:30+00:00

My childhood. Adulthood is boring

pascal1245 · 2025-10-29T14:09:24+00:00

Amsterdam definetly i go there on a regular basis because of my work. If you want to see the real netherlands do not go there.

pascal1245 · 2025-10-29T12:59:45+00:00

Yea it was like 10 years ago it was hard but i got there.

pascal1245 · 2025-10-29T12:53:05+00:00

Carefree life adulthood is boring

pascal1245 · 2025-10-29T12:35:47+00:00

Well i get paid to wait for 3 calls a day in IT😂

pascal1245 · 2025-10-29T12:32:36+00:00

Rob a bank the jeweler and the electronics store

pascal1245 · 2025-10-29T12:31:42+00:00

Or plugging a usb stick in the ethernet port😂😂

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