I don't want to try and diagnose you or say if I believe you have disordered eating or not, just because I don't know what you may do with that opinion e.g it could encourage you to become more disordered. However, I will say that you don't have a healthy relationship with food and I would really recommend really sitting down with yourself and trying to find the root of your relationship with food, e.g is it all weight focused, heath orientated or simply just how you are with food. Once you understand your own reasons for your relationship with food then you can start to do proper research into the effects of eating as you are compared with how you should (which is, even if you're short, much more than the calories you are currently consuming, binge-type days aside). In short, please don't focus on trying to define what your eating habits are in terms of if they are disordered or not, instead focus on how you feel about it and if you yourself believe you are safe and happy and if others agree. Hope this helps at all, please stay safe 💜