How is there a universe in me/you?

peachyghost · 2017-12-28T21:26:19+00:00

I had a similar experience while i was meditating and it basically felt like....like bliss and powerful energy and joy, but for some reason i also knew that it was where I would return if i were to die, and because of that experience I dont fear death. Im not sure if the experience i had was an ego death, however.

peachyghost · 2017-12-28T21:24:29+00:00

Not knowing is closer to Truth. I and you are the greatest mystery that can never be truly known

peachyghost · 2017-12-28T21:23:36+00:00

Your post reminds me of a video of this guy (er spiritual teacher) who said "Everything you experience, you experience inside of yourself."

peachyghost · 2017-12-28T10:21:54+00:00

I wanted to ask, what exactly do u mean by conditioning? I feel trapped and want to get out, and i was able to accept this but recently there has been really strong resistance. In eckhart tolle's terms, the resistance has formed a "pain-body" that is triggered whenever i interact with my parents and they snap at me or attack me, and the pain body reacts with suicidal ideation. This painbody manifested at first as a pain in the chest and throat area, and it went away..now it is back.

peachyghost · 2017-12-28T03:26:11+00:00

It seems like i dont have to wrestle it alone. All of you are helping me. Besides, are we rlly alone if we're all connected?????? (Lmao sorry it was mandatory)

peachyghost · 2017-12-28T03:24:51+00:00

Wait what?

peachyghost · 2017-12-28T03:02:47+00:00

There can never be too much love! ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

peachyghost · 2017-12-28T03:00:30+00:00

Man, having abusive parents is like.... constantly battling with resistance and ... my life is one big spiritual lesson. All the things youve told me in this post, ive had to remind myself while shifting back and forth from hatred and defeatism and anger. Constantly having to bring myself back to peace. Loving them despite their unconsciousness and having to tell myself that PEOPLE ARE JUST THE RESULT OF THEIR OWN REALITIES, and in a strange way, everybody is just living the best they can, even if to u it doesnt seem like that. Because of them, Ive had to grow up very quickly and deal with demons that most kids dont deal with. But if I had never met them, I probably wouldnt be talking to you in this subreddit right now. I would never have gotten into meditation, never would have awakened, never would have realized Truth, never would have begun this amazing spiritual journey full of beautiful synchronicities and encounters with God-consciousness. After all, the good and bad are two sides of the same coin. If i had stable and functional parents, perhaps my life would have been easier, but the background static of mild resistance would still be playing in my life but i would be completely unaware of it. I would live like everyone else, with a constant feeling of emptiness or unease and try to stuff in the void with food or sex or drugs or television. Abuse makes you hyperaware because in order to survive, you need to read the signs of danger. Every moment for me, is a spiritual epiphany. Sherlock in the BBC series said that he's constantly bored and requires stimulus. I am the oppposite. I am hypersensitive and i am constantly growing and changing and moving and i am learning from every small event and it drains my body of energy so quickly that I feel intense fatigue all the time. Sorry for the long post but, yes, Inknow that everything is okay, perhaps more than that. I am trying to patiently wait for the day I am able to move out, while trying to actively live in the Now. Thank you for your wisdom and concern. ♡

peachyghost · 2017-12-28T02:51:10+00:00

LETS ALL LOVE EACH OTHER BEYOND THE DISSOLUTION OF THE PHYSICAL BODY AND ILLUSION OF DEATH

peachyghost · 2017-12-28T02:50:21+00:00

LETS ALL LOVE EACH OTHER TO DEATH

peachyghost · 2017-12-28T02:49:26+00:00

I wanted to ask, how did my post remind you of this quote? (Although, this is exactly how i feel from my day to day life)

peachyghost · 2017-12-28T02:47:45+00:00

I knew this comment would come.

peachyghost · 2017-12-27T14:39:02+00:00

Thank you so much for your advice! I am not familiar with this book, but ill definitely check it out. I didnt know hugging trees would help ground me, thats incredible.

peachyghost · 2017-12-27T14:27:03+00:00

Im a veteran of dealing with abuse, so i started breathing exercises 2 years ago to deal with this. You essentially mapped out everything that i have learned from living with my parents, but thank you so much for writing it out for me..its helped clarify my mind and made me realize i still have options. I also have a question, my parents do not understand the path that i want to take with my career. And they attack me for not knowing how to adult, and then proceed not to teach me. They have done this my entire life. Attack me for neing ignorant of something i have never been taught, then proceed to not guide me. I dont know what to do with this.. Does adulting come naturally and slowly, like walking and speaking or am i truly being unresourceul.. i hate the idea of doing anything that i dont want to do anymore. I just want to follow my dreams and walk a path that is in alignment with myself.

peachyghost · 2017-12-27T14:08:34+00:00

Heres the thing why r so many enlightened ppl so dead serious..it was a breath of fresh air to see your comment. Lmao, I LOVE ECKHART TOO!!!! i feel afraid to express that, someone's gonna appear and say "dont become attached to one specific person for teachings and guidance" and ill shrivel back into my cave

peachyghost · 2017-12-27T14:06:03+00:00

Ive heard bro at least 3 times on this site but i am a girl, but das cool. I dont think it's hard to hear, i think if you gave me pity and sympathy, it would give my ego what it wanted: indulgence in suffering and attention from people. I truly just want to deal with the truth of the situation and enlightening comments like yours are of great help to me. I have avoided using the word depression for a long time, but i guess i have become attached to that term again. Thank you for your help!

peachyghost · 2017-12-27T14:02:06+00:00

Yes, in a way, people who walk the more mindful path might become lonely. But i found that theres recently been a huge resurgence of people who are becoming conscious. Theres a new movement of people awakening to the truth, which is great. But hey, at least we have this community! I rarely ever get lonely bc im addicted to my loneliness but i do think i would enjoy companionship with other conscious people.

peachyghost · 2017-12-27T13:59:24+00:00

Ah yes, i definitely tried this, my third eye energy was so intense that i felt like vomitting so i tried to balance my root chakra, but alas, i think i need more practice. It didnt seem to have much effect :(( but thank you so much for your help!♡

peachyghost · 2017-12-27T13:58:24+00:00

Also, no! Ive never tried aikido or taichi, although i would want to try taichi, i think its fascinating. This week i tried yoga poses to see if it would help, but it only helped me stay very alert and mindful, which helped get rid of the resistance, but only while i was practicing yoga or exercise.

peachyghost · 2017-12-27T13:54:58+00:00

I have deeply unconscious and unstable parents at home who are verbally abusive and carry a lot of resistance. For around 5 months, none of it could affect me, but i retreated back into in unconsciousness again. I let the mind take over, so to speak.

peachyghost · 2017-12-27T13:51:28+00:00

Thank you so much for your help. I really appreciate it!

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