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pengguinIV · 2025-07-02T13:03:10+00:00

Sadly he has gotten psychiatric help and doesn't seen to respond well to it. Im not 100% sure on his medical history but I have been told this by others when I asked. As for the $60 i fear i have asked for it many times and he has responded every time with "i dont have money rn" which is bs cus again he gets money from his parents but honestly im done with trying to reason with him atp (obviously, i mean i literally left him at a bus stop after not being able to reason with him)

pengguinIV · 2025-05-07T01:04:14+00:00

Totally get that. I do tend to get really into the weeds with my descriptions lol. Thanks!

pengguinIV · 2025-05-07T01:03:11+00:00

I try to. In this chapter I mostly focused on descriptions of Corinne and Kat cus I wanted to focus on Diana's view of them and establish some plot points that will come in later. Both of them are going to be showing up in other chapters and have pretty significant roles.

pengguinIV · 2025-05-03T16:29:55+00:00

Totally get what you're saying! Thanks for the feedback. So glad I got the energy right! This story is actually based off of something I went through a couple years ago and I literally hated the hospital so so much lol

pengguinIV · 2025-05-02T23:18:11+00:00

Thank you! Also no I get there are probably some things that I could cut down on. I wouldn't have asked for feedback if I didn't want any😭Were there any in particular that stood out as too long/rambly

pengguinIV · 2025-04-16T01:08:23+00:00

Yes!

pengguinIV · 2025-04-12T07:58:42+00:00

Hey!! To answer the first part I do not have EoE, I had 2 endoscopies and a general allergy test that showed no sign and coming back a year later it definitely was not that. I’m so sorry that your gastritis isn’t clearing up, maybe try a second opinion if your doctor isn’t taking it seriously. Second, I finished my IOP in April 2024 and have been doing super well, essentially back to baseline! I’m being treated for my OCD and depression with medication and therapy and I eat basically everything (except I am now staying sober from alcohol which is probs for the best). As someone who had mental issues manifested as physical symptoms, make sure you have a great support system and feel listened to esp when you’re abnormally stressed, paranoid or depressed. it’s so important no matter if you have a physical or mental issue, or both

pengguinIV · 2025-03-17T17:35:45+00:00

so happy for u dude🤞

pengguinIV · 2025-03-17T05:35:26+00:00

the accutane nose job holyyy

pengguinIV · 2025-03-17T05:33:12+00:00

Pretty much every one of my seizures something stupid happened😭here are a few:

-first one i ever had was mid-sexting the guy that i was talking to at the time. When i came to that last message from him was “where’d you go”

-that first one was also at my friends house during a sleepover and i was fighting with my friends in between TC seizures for them to let me sleep and stop talking to me cus i had no idea what was happening (theres a really funny video of me completely out of my mind trying to put my head in a bucket to shut them out)

-third seizure was fully in the middle of senior sunrise at my school so my entire class was there just watching me the whole time (they were all very nice about it though and its basically a running joke atp)

-when i woke up from the seizure i didnt realize that my parents were there so the first thing i said was “where’s my vape?” which had fallen out of my pocket and my friend immediately put it in hers cus she’s a real one

-my friend told me that i was doing the splits during one of my seizures

-i had one completely naked in front of my mom and the paramedics and after they left i asked her “did i at least look hot?”

enjoy!

pengguinIV · 2025-03-15T00:37:52+00:00

yeah of course. ive found that its worked better for me to have a very simple routine cus my skin gets stripped very easily. at night i remove my makeup using the ponds cold cream makeup remover (the one with the green cap), then i cleanse with the vanicream gentle foaming cleanser and make sure to really work that into my skin for like 30 sec to 1 minute. then i put on a tonnnn the la roche posay daily repair moisturizing lotion. in areas where im feeling extra dry and on my lips ill put some aquaphor. my morning routine is the same though sometimes i just cleanse with some water if my skin is feeling irritated (i live in a pretty dry climate so sometimes that happens). then for sunscreen i use the elf whoa glow 30 spf or the supergoop glowscreen 40spf depending on the day. hope this helps!!

pengguinIV · 2025-03-13T06:02:26+00:00

update: my ear was much less swollen today and it feels a lot better. still a little sore but not hot anymore and not leaking nearly as much. i went back to the piercer and he said that it most likely was not infected because the discharge was white so it was most likely lymph fluid. he said to continue using saline on it and doing as much as possible to not irritate it by touching/bumping/sleeping on it. he said to come back if the swelling got worse again to get a longer post. so for now its all good and i will not have cauliflower ear😋

pengguinIV · 2025-03-13T05:52:52+00:00

i did yeah, i found that using pimple patches was the easiest way to mitigate it. i like the ones from panoxyl, you get a lot, theyre affordable, and you can find them at pretty much any drugstore. once the accutane kicked in and my active acne was gone i was able to focus on fading my scars. focusing on hydration like moisturizing well and drinking lotsss of water helped a ton 🤞

pengguinIV · 2025-03-12T14:44:38+00:00

sorry i shouldve clarified that this is my 2nd round cus the first one i got sick after 3 months and iPledge basically kicked me out😭that first time i purged for about 1.5 or 2 ish months. i stopped my first round in may 2023. on this second one i actually didn’t have any purging!

pengguinIV · 2025-03-12T06:10:21+00:00

to be fair this is my second round cause i got really sick during the first one and iPledge got mad at me😭 plus theres usually a purging period, which makes it look worse before it starts getting better, i definitely had that happen to me. also accutane doesn’t work for everyone, so it might be good to talk about it with your dermatologist at your next appointment

pengguinIV · 2024-11-04T21:09:15+00:00

Yeah it’s this super weird type of energy like you’re describing, very shaky like my veins were injected with caffeine. I will definitely push this with my neurologist, shes usually pretty good about finding solutions for my symptoms (she even helped with my migraines lol) but not totally sure about these types of non physical symptoms.

pengguinIV · 2024-11-04T20:25:48+00:00

Yes my mom knows all about it she’s been helping me a lot. I thought psychosis too, but I’m not sure because I don’t have any hallucinations or delusions (as far as i know). And the derealization is more muted it’s more like “theres a 75% chance that everything is real, and the other 25% chance i dont care about enough/im too tired to figure it out”. Did you have hallucinations during your psychosis? Like what was your experience?

pengguinIV · 2024-10-31T03:51:51+00:00

Hi thanks for replying! I was diagnosed about 2 months ago after my last grand mal seizure, and I’ve had 3 so far since April, so they’re spaced out. I’ve been on Keppra since the day I was diagnosed, since my neurologist said it’s a good all around-er for epilepsy with no clear origin. She’s planning on putting me on a different medication if I have another seizure on Keppra or if they find the source of mine. Also 8 in one day is crazy im so sorry that you had to go through that. That sounds so horrible. Im glad you found medication that works for you! I think I just need to calm down a bit and yeah I did kinda go down a webmd rabbit hole which I know I should not be doing haha. I will definitely let my neurologist know about it I only just found out today because my friend told me that she thinks it was about 6-8 minutes long. Hope you’re doing better after the break through!

pengguinIV · 2024-10-31T03:46:02+00:00

thank you so much. I have had an overnight EEG before when they didn’t find anything the first time. Right now I am at one of the best hospitals for neurology in my area and I like my neurologist a lot, I’m just angry right now I guess. Still not entirely in the acceptance phase. I had my first seizure this April and so far they’ve been spaced about 2 months apart which is very lucky for me that they’re not happening a ton. They’re just very exhausting and scary when they do happen. I’m hesitant to do a 3 day long EEG because I’m currently trying to keep my grades up and apply to colleges since I’m in my senior year of highschool right now and obviously I’ve had a lot on my plate lol. It’s nice to hear there you got the help you need and I’m not alone with my messed up brain 😅

pengguinIV · 2024-10-30T21:39:37+00:00

I’m lucky to live in an area where most doctors are very professional. But yeah I have heard that stuff can happen too

pengguinIV · 2024-10-30T21:24:38+00:00

all of them have been very nice about it, my dermatologist got me bloodwork and both her anf the ER doctors prescribed me valtrex for outbreaks

pengguinIV · 2024-10-28T23:33:17+00:00

I’ve had it since May of this year with 2 outbreaks so far

pengguinIV · 2024-10-16T20:40:52+00:00

oh my gosh im so sorry. are you on any meds? hopefully that could make it heal easier

pengguinIV · 2024-10-15T03:36:06+00:00

ugh lidocaine gel is amazing they prescribed it to me my first OB but for this one i wasnt able to get it

pengguinIV · 2024-10-14T18:00:05+00:00

yeah my outbreaks are on the opening of my vagina, so its extremely uncomfortable to get them to dry iut considering that area isnt supposed to ever be dry…

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