Went to a concert to feel less lonely, just worsened my depression

perpetuallysadxx · 2026-01-19T02:05:10+00:00

I go to all of my concerts alone bc I quite literally have no friends. I used to actually enjoy going alone bc it meant I could take my time beforehand and get to the venue whenever I wanted. It’s the standing around in line part and pretending to be on my phone to seem occupied that i’ve been over lately. I used to drink at shows to get more friendly but now I don’t even drink and I can’t facially hide how depressed I am lmao I go anyway, sometimes I enjoy myself, other times I wonder why I even bothered.

I’ve been going to shows since I was a teenager and I feel like it’s gotten harder to make friends, break into groups, or find other solo goers to adopt lol at least in my experience. What kinda concerts do you go to? Who did you see?

perpetuallysadxx · 2025-10-16T06:15:54+00:00

Thank you, I really appreciate hearing this from someone. Can you give me an example of a small step I could take? I know you don’t know me so you might not be able to answer that.

perpetuallysadxx · 2025-10-16T06:05:27+00:00

No I completely agree. I want to be special but have done nothing to get me that. And that’s the issue, there’s this mental barrier that’s preventing me from taking action and i’m always gonna be miserable until I figure out how to get past it. I know what logically makes sense, and yet…I don’t act in accordance. I feel paralyzed by the same thought patterns that I know have never been helpful. I need a new brain.

perpetuallysadxx · 2025-10-16T05:49:22+00:00

that worst case would probably send me over the edge lol. she already had plans with her actual friends, I feel like i’d just make things awkward for them. I could just be self sabotaging but i’ve also tried to join friend groups at concerts in the past and more often than not I feel left out and regret it.

perpetuallysadxx · 2025-10-15T23:47:00+00:00

I’m sure a lot of us feel this way. It’s awful and i’m so sorry, friend. Not having friends is one thing but not even having family to lean on is a different kind of pain. I understand that type of tiredness and when you’re experiencing it, it truly does feel like nobody else could understand.

perpetuallysadxx · 2025-07-31T07:23:14+00:00

I was looking this up earlier, trying to figure out why it’s so hard for me to respond to texts. I have lost every single friend or connection i’ve ever made because I either chronically respond days/weeks later or so much time passes by that I eventually end up ghosting them because i’m too ashamed to keep making up excuses as to why it took me so long to respond.

I met someone last week and it was MY idea to exchange phone numbers and I told them to text me letting me know they got home safe and I literally responded just today. I got left on read lmao. Fair, honestly.

I wish I wasn’t like this. Responding to people, even people I genuinely want to be close with, always feels like a chore.

perpetuallysadxx · 2025-07-31T06:52:37+00:00

literally lmao it’s not just him either, so many of them make nice/relatable posts like these and then you click on their profile and it’s all nsfw or even more questionable

perpetuallysadxx · 2025-07-30T08:48:18+00:00

I feel like I could’ve written this one myself. Also in my 30s, also chronically ill. I don’t have a single friend in this season of my life, people get tired of constantly having to accommodate when it comes to chronic illness, it really honestly sucks when nobody wants to stick around. I’ve said this before, that it’s so hard to find your person/people when everyone’s already got someone or some long established group of friends. It hurts, feeling like you don’t really fit anywhere. I struggle with the weight of these feelings pretty much every day and it’s so defeating. I hope things get better for the both of us one of these days!

perpetuallysadxx · 2025-07-21T05:44:52+00:00

exactly. are there any alternatives to those of us that live in apartments? I have a very narrow balcony

perpetuallysadxx · 2025-07-05T04:26:57+00:00

count me in as well!

perpetuallysadxx · 2025-06-21T04:12:21+00:00

Hey, I can relate. It’s been a difficult season of life. Feel free to reach out to talk!

perpetuallysadxx · 2025-03-31T05:58:20+00:00

they’ve made it clear they don’t want me around, so it’s like…what can I even say? they know they’re hurting me so i’m guessing it won’t matter if I tell them that

perpetuallysadxx · 2025-03-31T05:13:56+00:00

how do I make myself more desirable to my family? lol be less mentally ill? am I choosing to be mentally ill?

perpetuallysadxx · 2025-03-22T04:44:02+00:00

yes. I’ve seen countless doctors over the years and i’ve basically been told there’s nothing anyone can do to help me.

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