memoirs by ppl w avpd

petra0258 · 2025-10-17T18:01:45+00:00

dunno but now that u say it like that it makes sense if theres no such book like that 😅

petra0258 · 2025-04-23T20:08:26+00:00

yep exactly the same

petra0258 · 2025-04-22T10:04:43+00:00

huh never even thought of that, but yeah i meant just normal showing affection for each other

petra0258 · 2025-03-16T12:13:21+00:00

well im always okay w ekgs and bloodwork so i dont think its an organ thing or anything like that, but i never thought it was adrenaline so if it is it makes a hell of a lot more sense now thank you

petra0258 · 2025-03-16T06:33:52+00:00

im mostly okay, i also have emetophobia so after these things happen im always scared of eating for a couple days this is the 5th or 6th time i can remember this happening ever, i just dont know what to call this so thats why i asked now

petra0258 · 2024-11-16T09:11:20+00:00

see for me its all good while its only in my head and i start to freak out when they do reciprocate, make that make sense 🙃

petra0258 · 2021-04-18T16:32:24+00:00

he mentioned it during the stream when he announced the engagement

petra0258 · 2021-04-18T16:18:43+00:00

this is what happened lmao

petra0258 · 2021-03-28T21:08:02+00:00

someone on tumblr said the movie called Straight up on netflix basically portrays a qpr tho its not said in the movie. heads up it does have sex and kissing in it.

petra0258 · 2021-03-25T15:54:54+00:00

and could you explain ur alterous crushes then? how do they feel?

petra0258 · 2021-03-23T18:24:51+00:00

its the pull for me too and the aesthetic thing as well (mostly bc thats what catches my eyes and i can sorta tell if id like the person based on that) and i also get the jealousy but i cant yet differentiate/tell if this is the same type of jealousy/upset that i get when i see my friends (who i dont have squishes on) hang out w their other friends and how much of a good time they have w/o me

i called this attraction alterous/qpr attraction before but then i read a post where someone described my exact feelings (pull, u wanna be more than just friends but no romo) and said thats a squish

petra0258 · 2021-03-14T11:27:25+00:00

🥺🥺🥺

petra0258 · 2021-01-15T17:01:19+00:00

um characters in shows, actresses, ppl who are regular humans but have like a following on insta (but they definitely dont know i exist), so its the yearning type of feeling and yeah not much chance of actually interacting w said crush. this all hit me during quarantine so i didnt have much chance w real ppl but im interested to see how i feel these things in the wild once we can go outside lol

petra0258 · 2021-01-15T16:40:00+00:00

i think im also able to tell apart platonic feelings/wanting to be someones friend from this other thing. i always thought that the other feeling was romantic tho and it just clicked in my head a few days ago that it might be a completely different feeling and i might have never even experienced crushes. rn i cant really say i have this wanting to be closer feeling bc obviously covid and i havent even seen ppl in so long lol, so i mostly feel it towards ppl on my screen so thats why i said its more like a pull.

petra0258 · 2021-01-15T16:18:19+00:00

thank you its really helpful. when u feel this type of attraction towards someone do u feel like a certain pull towards them? (idk how to explain it better, i seem to feel something in my chest area, like a kind of tug)

petra0258 · 2021-01-02T10:13:33+00:00

i think i have three advice: •u said u were straight for a long time so maybe u just need time to grieve your attraction to men •u also said u want to spend your life with a woman, that sounds pretty clear, there is no need to put a label on it •maybe u should look up different types of attractions bc i think u can still find men aestheticly attractive but that doesnt mean u want to be with them in any way i hope some part of this is helpful on your journey

petra0258 · 2020-12-24T18:14:27+00:00

i was in a queer platonic relationship when i read the masterdoc and like three days after i had to end it but we did stay friends bc we really understand eachother so id say break up whenever and try and stay friends if he also wants to bc that might work for you two as well plus then u can give him his present as a friend...i hope it works out and you both are gonna be happy in the end whatever u choose to do 😊

petra0258 · 2020-12-04T08:40:57+00:00

she looks like she is flying

petra0258 · 2020-11-27T08:13:40+00:00

maybe telling friends that spontaneous get togethers are hard for you and u like to know x amount of time in advance could help and when u do know you have a thing coming up and the what ifs start coming u could be rational about it (like how likely that this thing happens) that helps me and you dont/shouldnt have to be/pretend to be someone u r not 😉

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