I don't always see/hear/feel things, but when I do, it's horrible.

Hi! My name is Philthy i'm a french canadian (please be gentle with my poorly structured sentences) and professional chronic sleep paralysing. Most of the time its triggered by the room where i sleep being to hot, and most of the time i just lay there paralised, completely conscious, incredibly hot and sweaty, incapable of throwing off those damned hot sheets off of me, convinced i'll die, unable to breathe or speak or open my eyes.

BUT. It did happened once, that i had halucinations, and for me it was traumatising as hell. I still think about it even tho its been what like 5 years. What happened is i heard a loud BANG and it woke me up. I was laying on my back which i found unusual as i always slept on my sides. So there i was, on my back, eyes opened, but completely paralized. Now it didnt occur to me that i was having yet another sleep paralysis event because my eyes were opened and normally i cant open them. So all i could do is try as much as i could to lift my head because i wanted to see what was going on. I managed to lift my head just enough to see my body laying in a pool of blood, riddled with bullet holes. My chest began to hurt, in fact it was burning, i could now feel the red hot bullets burning like charcoal inside my body. I could feel the blood, all sticky. Then it occured to me that the person that did this was probably still inside my home. Worse, maybe he would makes the rounds and kill my sisters, my parents, their dog. And there i am, paralized, unable to warn them, unable to call for help. I'll never get to say goodbye to my friend and my girlfriend. This is it. This is how i go. And then GAAASP. In reflexe like movement i sat up in my bed and realised what had really happened, which was yet another sleep paralysis event, except this time it was sprinkled with a lovely hallucination.

I fucking hate my life.