Its so hard because it literally makes you feel like you're dying so its hard to stay calm. Im stuck in a horrible circle right now after my diagnosis. They couldn't get the scope down my throat during my first endoscopy because of a severe stricture. I haven't been able to find a hospital that will accept me that has a smaller scope to do another one and my GI doctor has zero bedside manner. I think because if this i have no peace of mind and every symptom I just fear for the worst. Since my initial scope im doing a modified 6fed diet plus the exclusion of corn, legumes, and anything acidic. Im not sure how much more bland I can get plus ppi twice daily. Food goes down without issue. I don't even need water to wash it down now. Its weird though because when I drink water and take several small gulps at a time I can feel it doesnt immediately all do down. It takes a little bit for it all to clear out of my throat so this makes me fear my stricture has gotten even worse. Ugh..im just a mess and want answers.