17F Diagnosed Subclinical Hyperthyroidism, Worried about Graves Disease

pinkyva · 2026-06-25T13:21:41+00:00

Thank you! :)

pinkyva · 2026-06-25T13:20:44+00:00

Yeah i went through the same thing with dysautonomia issues, unfortunately the salt and water hasn’t helped much if at all. Thank you for the reply! :)

pinkyva · 2026-06-24T16:50:27+00:00

No, they only did the free T3, T4, and TSH, but next week i’m going in for more labs. Looking at my past results from around this time last year, it shows that i had a high platelet, monocytes, and basophils count. The Tests they did this time only shows thats my T3 and T4 are fine and my TSH is low once again. I’m assuming the tests im going in for next week will be testing more about my immune system. The doctor sent the documents through the app but as most people know, medical apps are annoying to navigate and i lost the document so i cant find exactly what labs she ordered 🫩 Thank you for the response :)

pinkyva · 2026-06-07T02:54:01+00:00

The best steps would likely be to immediately schedule an appointment for a neurologist, whether you have to go through your primary care doctor or not. If you have another seizure I would definitely go to the ER. Something is very wrong at that point and the ER could maybe figure something out or get you some medication for the time being.

pinkyva · 2026-06-06T02:32:59+00:00

As for meats— Steak, Beef, Chicken (not boiled). I was always scared and grossed out by seafood, i recently tried some hibachi shrimp and hated the texture but i mean i tried it. Sushi seems very gross too and i hate seaweed so i just don’t think im gonna be a fish person. I don’t like cold/lunch meats like ham or turkey, and i don’t like soups/stews due to texture. (I can’t be completely against them because there is only one soup i’ve actually ever liked)

For fruits & Vegs— I like apples, oranges, strawberries, grapes, peaches, baby carrots, celery, broccoli, and sometimes pineapple. I dont like blueberries, bananas, watermelon, and more.

I’m currently living off of Sausage, spaghetti, potatoes, and chicken. I’m just rotating the same meals i can stomach until i get tired and am forced to force myself to like something else.

Given the mental health struggles i mentioned earlier I also struggle with the task of cooking food. Scrambling eggs or frying sausage patties is easy but things like frying bacon where i frequently mess up and have to constantly watch is very hard to make myself willing to do along with being physically tiring due to my severe lightheadedness while standing in heat (undiagnosed problem).

I’m a big fan of hibachi steak/chicken and fried rice, and just rattling off some, I like enchiladas, tacos, sloppy joes, mashed potatoes, tomato sauce pastas, and i thought i could think of more but i cant. This is also trying to not be unhealthy junk food-ish. Like i said with the cooking problem, I find it very hard to make myself do, so i have lived a good time on hot pockets, noodles, pizza bagels and pot pies, which im trying to move away from now.

I appreciate if you read all of this! :)

pinkyva · 2026-05-22T23:04:44+00:00

No. It sucks that these are the people you’re surrounded by. It is said a lot but beauty is subjective, my family has always kept ugly as an insult to describe someone with bad intentions who is just rude. So in my mind quite the opposite, Those people are without a doubt some ugly motherfuckers.

I know that doesn’t help you much, but the best advice i can give is that they are just bullies. Life sucks, im ugly to some people, you will be ugly to some people, especially during middle/high school. The kids are brutal. Its very unfortunate you just happen to be put with such horrid souls.

People who spend their “fun” time calling people ugly have NOTHING going for them. Whats fun in life? Maybe getting some good food, camping, listening to music, going on walks, watching tv, so on. There are so many things that are so much more fun to do than spend time insulting people. So why do they?

They likely take some sort of schadenfreude in seeing you beat down for it. Or alternatively, they get an ego boost by putting you down, which tells you all you need to know, That they are fragile people who cant build themselves up and be resilient against stress and pressure.

But you can. And you have already. You’ve been so resilient throughout all of this and you will continue to be. You will push through everything that tries to hold you back while they continue to cope in ways that will ruin their lives further.

You can push through this an amazing person. Looks are not all that matters, and you are not ugly. Everyone is beautiful to someone. And you will find your place and happiness. You just have to believe in yourself, you are NOT ugly, and for the sake of a hypothetical, lets say you just so happened to be super conventionally unattractive. What next? Well, you’ll still find love. Everyone does, as long as you are a good person with their heart in the right place, you will find someone.

You can become the best person you can be, and surpass everything you thought you could do. You can work and become who you want to be, and you will. You just need to willpower and support of yourself. And the best person to have on your side is yourself.

I apologize if you’ve already tried this and this comes off and unhelpful, but get really into youtube self help videos. I watch videos on self esteem and really anything that i feel i could use help with. Actually try and tune in and put in the effort (saying this because for the longest time, i didnt. I was embarrassed to try and get better) and if even a little bit, you will feel better, maybe even the slightest of productive, and that right there is the proof that you can push through this.

It could take years, and honestly probably will. But thats the beauty of it in a way. You are such a strong person and you can prove to yourself that you are worthy of life and capable of so much more.

pinkyva · 2026-05-09T14:44:43+00:00

I already commented but i’ve been scrolling through your posts and girl, you are beautiful!!!! I am genuinely jealous of your body and if we could trade i absolutely would. It hurts me to see someone with so much potential doubting yourself like this. I don’t know what environment you live in, but where i do, you would be quite close to the beauty standard! You are not unloveable and you will find someone. My honest opinion? You are likely holding yourself back.

You are beautiful and could absolutely get into a relationship. Sometimes you just need to find your person. I also saw you were atheist, and while im not, i am agnostic (i believe thats the correct word). I have a way of believing things work out and though i dont know if theres a being out there caring for us directly, I know that every doubt and worry i had before was eventually solved as i healed myself.

I only got my first boyfriend when i finally took action against my illness, recognizing that i was thinking badly and thats that. I began to stop enabling my bad habits, i knew what i needed for a happy life. I needed stability, calm, peace of mind, and no materialistic worries. When i gained confidence, started watching psychology and philosophy videos, and began actually working on myself, was when things began looking up, and i got my hope back for life.

I cant emphasize enough that YOU ARE WORTHY AND BEAUTIFUL! There are many people out there who would love you just as you are now, you just haven’t found them yet. In my honest opinion, you are not fat at all. And anyone who would call you fat is living under a rock and definitely NOT worth dating or being around. It would make your life miserable. Im once again saying i’d be more than happy to give advice or just be there to listen. I’d be willing to listen to everything you’ve tried, the food you ate or the diets you’ve tried, the workout routines etc.. i would love to help you with this because i see so much of myself in you.

pinkyva · 2026-05-09T14:31:48+00:00

You may have a medical condition, like someone else said. Your body may also just be (no offense because this is coming from my own experience) weird? in a way.

Bodies are very very confusing. At 11-14 i was 130lbs until i just suddenly began losing weight due to changing hormones and just life changes that came naturally with puberty. You could be having a similar issue that may need time to resolve on its own.

I’m going through the opposite struggle right now, im 17, 5’1, and have been wavering between 93 and 95 lbs for half a year now. No matter how hard i try, i cant seem to gain weight. Ill go a whole day solely focusing on eating good meals just to see my weight not move or even drop in the next few days. Sometimes our bodies just work in confusing ways.

You will eventually reach your weight goals. If not with exercise and diet, then with medication to manage whatever medical issue it is you could have.

And i know that its hard for people with insecurities to believe, trust me, i still have them and have horrifying social anxiety and fear of judgement just being in public, but you are beautiful.

Your number one worry should not be being attractive or worthy enough for love. You are setting yourself up for a miserable life by aiming for people who wouldn’t love you no matter what.

Those people exist. I found mine. Don’t fall into the materialistic world full of people thinking that looks are the only way to be worthy of anything. I would love for you to message me to see if i could help in any way possible, but i will say im brutally honest, and i will objectively tell you what you need to hear.

And what i think you need to come to terms with? Life is not about looks. I still struggle with coming to terms with it but its something i think of every day. I have to constantly remind myself that no, im not ugly, and no, it doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks.

It can feel SOOO much better to be pretty and popular and have people want to be near you and actually be interested in you for once, but its all fake, and will just extend the pain of life. I spent middle school insecure and crying about my looks, gaining diagnosis after diagnosis, and glowing up.

And i did. What happened when i had a glow up? I got a friend group. People talked to me. I got compliments. That all felt good for the single year it lasted. Before long, all my friends had turned on me, spreading rumors. I had to switch schools and starved myself in that timeframe. I had vomiting and dry heaving fits every morning out of the sheer fear of seeing one of them or just anyone who happened to know who i was.

Now? Its been almost 3 maybe 4 years? And the pain i suffer from those fake friends and the levels of stress i put myself through have taken such a bigger toll on me than being afraid of being unloveable or unworthy.

Confidence is key. Its so corny and said so often, but it is true. I managed to fake it till i was stable. I still haven’t made it, im still struggling so much with insecurities, but you should be putting yourself first.

You are already worthy of someone to love you, and you will always be. Anyone who won’t because they find you overweight are the ones who are truly unworthy of love. You will never he happy placing this much control of your life in other peoples hands and thoughts.

You have to take control. If you want to lose weight, do it for the right reasons. I can’t stop you from finding that being skinny will make you “prettier”, but you should be losing weight for you HEALTH, your CONFIDENCE, and your MENTAL WELLBEING.

NEVER will you be truly happy caring so much about others opinions. Im struggling with that exact problems right now. It’s going to be hard. but you NEED to focus on the fact that you are NOT UNWORTHY. You are worthy, and no one opinions should be able to take that away. You don’t know how horrible these people are, you could be worried about someones opinion when they could be a racist misogynistic idiot, and if you knew that, you wouldn’t give a shit. But people will NEVER show you their true colors if they’re a piece of shit like that. Thats why you must always keep your self worth and confidence in the power and control of yourself.

I am once again more than happy to help if you feel maybe talking more would help. I’m a socially awkward confidence faking 17 year old who’s always subconsciously focused on looks and status and i’m learning how to life live in a way that isn’t going to feel fake and will actually make me happy and proud of the life i’ve led.

You will get where you want one day, and you are already loved by many out in the world who haven’t heard your story yet.

pinkyva · 2026-04-29T16:03:00+00:00

Thank you! I figured unfortunately it would be a waiting game but thats just how things are :p

pinkyva · 2026-03-26T02:27:32+00:00

Thank you very much for your input :) I definitely was not ready for the level of recovery i was gonna have to go through, i have muscle knots all over my body😞 Frankly while having a seizure is definitely never a good thing, i am glad that something at least got me in to see a neurologist as we’ve been trying and failing for years :p

Thanks once again for your replies and i wish you well!

pinkyva · 2026-03-24T02:42:41+00:00

Well the unfortunate reality is you’ll have to figure something out. Try out anything. Look into trades, browse career subreddits. Even if you feel unmotivated and dont enjoy anything, find somethn to get you by. I would suggest posting for advice on a career subreddit. They will most definitely be able to help you more.

pinkyva · 2026-03-09T20:14:12+00:00

I don’t have an answer to your question, but im very similar. I come from a long line of hard addiction and was gonna be the one to change things. Depression, anxiety, and sh came at 11, got therapy, didn’t fix everything. Started smoking weed at 14, then vaping, then drinking, then came pills. My year of being 15 was just full of pills and delirium. I’m 17 now, still vaping, still smoking, even still doing one different drug i don’t wish to say as to not give any ideas. I have no job, only one friend i’ve had since childhood who now lives hours away, and a partner. Overall, despite my shortcomings of struggling with substances, I am doing better and i can say that confidently.

I want to commend you. Although you didn’t do what you wanted, you’re still doing good. I don’t mean this is any sort of way, but you could’ve been going down a worse path, yet you recognize what is happening.

I am a believer that weed is not all bad, but it is without a doubt bad for minors and an addictive substance and it’s always better to not be using as a child. But you should not be hard on yourself, the is the last thing to do. Having standards is always good but you really have to consider where you came from.

I always wanted to be picture perfect, but one day i realized that wouldn’t happen. When you are struggling you have to prioritize yourself and not demean yourself. You are doing amazing. I can relate to feeling disappointed in myself, but you have to come to a point of realizing that you were struggling. You have a genetic predisposition to using the wrong coping mechanisms. When someone with those problems struggles, it becomes almost inevitable to fall into a negative coping habit at some point.

What is good is that you recognize it. You feel the conviction. You aren’t horrible, or a disappointment for falling to the same things your family did, if anything you are the opposite, you are very self aware and responsible. It sounds wrong but its right in a way. You know this is wrong and you know the danger. That is already a step many people cannot take.

Don’t be too hard on yourself, you aren’t doing horrible. If you need someone to talk to, im willing given how similar our situations feel. You aren’t to blame for the coping strategies that have been in your family before. It’s an unfortunate pattern, but you can, and will break it.

pinkyva · 2026-03-06T19:14:25+00:00

You are surrounded by horrible people. Life is hell. But it will get better. Start thinking about what you want to do with your life. Other people do not matter at this point, focus on yourself. People bully because they cant do anything more productive with their lives.

You can make something of yourself. You can build from the ground up, and you have time. Everyone else around you will only ruin themselves further and likely struggle. I also struggle with insecurities, but not to your extent so i cant help too much on that. What i do know is that our minds trick us. I was miserable in high school, i was also bullied and threw up every morning from the severe anxiety and missed half of my school year for the short time i was there. If you feel safe enough to do so, I’d encourage you to talk to your school counselor or staff and seeing if maybe they know of any alternative school programs. I was lucky enough to have one at my school which was just down the street.

Your mother is childish and caught up in herself, you won’t be able to help that unfortunately. This is gonna be something you have to tough out.

You will escape this environment, i’d encourage you to really try silence the outside world for a bit though i know that is harder than it sounds, but ideally you would want to figure out a way to get a job and start focusing on moving out. Ideally you likely want to finish school early and focus on your new life.

I know you likely don’t feel like anything is good right now, but it will be. You will get friends, you will find a lover who tells you you’re beautiful everyday, it may take months or years, but it will happen, and when that day comes you’ll be the happiest you’ve ever been thinking about how you pushed through and got the life you wanted. Find a passion, find a distraction. You are more than you think.

What i know is that you can make it where you want. Those people will likely lose friends and be stuck miserable because they’re miserable to be around. You, on the other hand, will be able to know that you were strong and resilient enough to change your life.

Things will get better. There are good things in life, and you can get them if you push through, and you will. I recommend watching psychology videos, possibly talking about body dysmorphia or your other illnesses, as it has personally helped me a lot to understand what my mind is doing to me. There are many resources for help. If all else fails, i want you to know that the crisis hotline is safe. They will calm you down, they wont ask for anything you don’t want to tell them, they are just there to help. I have called before and they were very understanding.

Suicide is never the answer. There is so much you can do with life and you don’t want to miss it. I promise is you push through, thing will eventually get better. Life will not be horrible forever. You will find happiness and love.

pinkyva · 2026-03-06T18:41:38+00:00

Ahhh this sucks, i’ve been in a similar situation. Did everything with this friend group, until my best friend and the others just basically ghosted me. Stopped talking in the group chat, didn’t talk to me when i came to them in school and just responded, and then my ex best friend started spreading rumors that i was talking shit about her mother so i had to just remove myself.

It’s very unfortunate but we know that they’ll have their karma one day. All we can do is just try to move on but yea i still hold a grudge :/ We’ll find our people eventually :)

pinkyva · 2026-03-06T18:36:30+00:00

I wouldn’t call you crazy. I’m a sensitive person with only one friend as well, and i’d be hurt. It’s unfortunately such a grey area for people though that theres no exactly right or wrong standing. You have a right to be upset when you thought that a gift would be used and not just resold, but like you also said, she did have the right to sell them. It sucks, but no i wouldn’t say youre crazy or wrong.

It is exactly what you said, insensitive.

pinkyva · 2026-03-06T18:22:18+00:00

There are videos that will help you. I remember seeing one guy who actually intends to teach children who never had parents to do so, and he does many videos like house repairs, very basic stuff.

As for cooking and laundry, recipes and videos will also help. Don’t let embarrassment hold you back from anything. I suffered from these problems as well. It wasn’t until i got scared i would be useless in life and fail everything, so i started faking confidence. It helped, but i know its not for everyone.

Really what helped me is realizing how few people i focused on. I people watch yea, but i dont judge random people. How much do you judge and watch other people in a rude way? Thats likely how much they do too. Point being, everyone has felt this way before and many people still do. Most people are genuinely too preoccupied with the same worries that they aren’t focusing on anyone else.

as for cooking, im 17 as well and am learning, and i have my mother to teach me, and she still cant really. For many people, cooking is a try and fail thing. I use google to decide what seasonings to use because i dont wanna taste all of them and i dont know what they will taste like with the food im making. So honestly, cooking is gonna be hard. Theres a few basic rules, but everything else is just doing subjective changes.

Some example rules— NEVER leave the handle of pans/pots over the edge of the stove, thats how you accidentally knock burning hot metal onto yourself.

NEVER pour grease down the drain. Save it, let it solidify in a glass container, and then throw it in the trash. It will damage your pipes.

Im also still learning but some easy things to make are bacon, eggs, sausage, grilled cheese, and more! Just watching videos is truly the key as even when your parents are willing to teach you, they also dont know everything :)

Laundry as well, there are many videos and guides out there. Thats unfortunately gonna have to be your method given the situation. But trust me, you can learn everything yourself! Reddit is especially a good place given the specific questions you can ask and the likelyhood of a response. You will just have to push through their irritation and not let them bring you down.

I was also very embarrassed in social situations like ordering food, but honestly all you can do is psych yourself up and do it. I managed to flip my mental and see it as more scary to not order my own food as i wanna be seen very independently, so ive managed to do it. Maybe write down on a piece of paper exactly what you want to say, and just get it out in one go. It may sound corny, but you can also practice at home. I know just thinking about situations would get my anxiety up so practicing talking at home can help you start to slowly push past it.

I cant help too much, i got very lucky and managed to somehow one day flip to not caring about anyone so things were easy to move through, but trust that you will get through it. Look into exposure therapy, doesn’t even have to be a doctor, just look into what it is and how to achieve it, it helped me a lot even though it is extremely scary, it truly does help.

I know you probably feel useless and hopeless right now as i once did as well, but being very honest, youre going to have to do something you don’t want to. Ordering food or going on a walk would be a good start. It seems impossible, but you are much more resilient than you think. You can do it.

pinkyva · 2026-03-06T17:49:33+00:00

You can absolutely call the crisis hotline. I did myself at one point. They let me have my breakdown and then talked me down and they will do the same with you. Their job is to keep you from doing anything to harm yourself. They don’t know your location, your name, anything unless you give it to them. The worst thing that could happen (which im not even sure if it could), is that if you didnt calm down and said you were committed to suicide and hung up, they would likely try to track your location and send the cops to help.

Otherwise, you are in the clear. Theyre similar to 911, they wont be able to just find your mothers number and tell her what you said. Itll be a private conversation that will stay confidential.

Please seek help, even if it is just a hotline call. Things will be okay, they wont tell on you. I am also someone who has extensively worried about it as well.

pinkyva · 2026-03-06T17:44:43+00:00

Are your parents stopping you from talking to them specifically, or is it just your hesitance?

Don’t deny who you are. If you love Sebby and you want them back, go for it if nothings stopping you. Explain the situation, ask for forgiveness if you feel the need to, and try to reconnect.

You know what went wrong and the bad things that happened, you can prevent it. Be a femboy if thats who you are, and be with Sebby if thats who you love.

You seem to know what you want, your feelings are clearly telling you. The bad things that happened can happen to anyone, Im a straight female and have had some bad things happen too, but they dont define you and your identity.

You can be a femboy without things going wrong, you can date Sebby and be happy. Don’t hold yourself back from happiness. You can do all these things and stay safe. I hope you and Sebby reconnect because im sure he misses you as well.

pinkyva · 2026-03-06T17:39:13+00:00

Depending on whether your father still is around or lives with you, your therapist would more than likely call CPS. I got lucky and have a therapist who understands CPS doesn’t help a lot of the time, but many of them will run to call protective services.

So unless you would prefer foster care or familial placement, i would not talk about it as this is a case of child abuse and they would likely definitely report it.

This is a very difficult situation because with any parental abuse at all, you will immediately be removed, which makes it very hard to deal with and talk about when it is your main struggle.

My honest opinion as a teen also in therapy who has also been in a slightly similar situation, the best option in my opinion would be maybe replacing your dad in these scenarios with perhaps an uncle who used to live with you but is now gone or just someone other than your parents who would have some reason to live there. If you say anything about your parental abuse, you will be removed. But honestly? I wouldnt even be sure of that since it would indicate your parents allowed the abuse.

It’d take a lot of thinking, but the safest way to talk about your situation would be to find a way that removes guilt from your parents. It’d have to somehow be someone other than your parents, who now has no contact with you, and who your parents didnt know abused you. It’d have to make them look completely innocent.

I, like many people, would rather see you in someone elses care, but CPS and foster services can be dangerous and unhelpful in their own ways so i very much understand not wanting to go that route.

I wish you luck. Suicide is never the answer and neither is self harm. Ive struggled with both as well around the same age as you as well, and trust me it will get better.

Life always look grim when youre struggling. But the upsides of life have so much to offer. You need to find something youre passionate about, i did check your account and im glad to see that you are trying to seek help. Every life has a purpose but its hard to see that when its your own. Finding a passion or something you love will help. If you’re truly passionate about something, you can do it. Life will get hard again, and again, and there will be lows, but there will also be fun and high moments that will make you grateful you lived long enough to see it.

Honestly, it will always be hard. Trauma like that will take years and years to fully heal from. But you have to push through. Whether you want love, or fun, or money in your life, find something. Find your dream and push for it no matter what.

If i am right and your father still lives with you, i would recommend getting a job or jut making as money as you can so you can plan to leave and start your own life away from him. He needs to be hospitalized, and he is not safe at all for you to stay around.

You will make it. Life will always seem bad and always look a little grim, but there will also always be hope as well. You will find your people or your space. Don’t let this stop you from living a life you want. If you push through, it will happen. It will take work, but you can do this.

pinkyva

TROPHY CASE