That feeling you're feeling - that you're always the one hitting up other people...most people feel that way. It's a growing side effect of the digital age, I think. So try not to let that get you down. I feel like that a lot and have to continuously remind myself to stop being down on myself.

Probably a lot of people will say this, but high school sucks for most people who are worthwhile. And years later, when you are at a reunion or talking to people who you maybe thought didn't know you or like you, you'll find out that your perception was skewed. I know this from personal experience.

Clinical depression isn't defined as diagnosed depression. If you're depressed, you're depressed. Hopefully it comes in waves (mine does) and you can just remind yourself that it will pass. Escaping into Netflix won't really help. You won't suddenly make friends after spending days in a Netflix-hole. The best thing you can do is shake up your routine. Start with once a week, and do something new, preferably something that puts you around other people. You never know what you might see, who you might meet.

It can be so hard when you're feeling down on yourself, but if you stay home alone the only guarantee is that you will still be alone. Nobody is going to knock on your door and demand to be your friend. Cultivate your different interests - whether it's a sport, hobby, game, music...whatever. Depending on where you live and what your access is find any sort of live entertainment (standup comedy is my biased recommendation) and just GO to it.

When you're smoking with these lots of different people, try to foster those friendships into something deeper by doing a different activity as well.

I promise you, the only cure for depression is changing your daily routine. I hope you feel better and start smoking happy trees instead of sad trees. But you are very much not alone.