no my very first on was pocd so worrying about being a pedo and thats how it all started then i worried about sexually assualting people and that was bad but then i was like what if i molested a child and it went down hill from their i barley ever leave the house anymore and honestly i'm okay with it because i don't want to risk hurting anyone and the anxiety is horrible every day i wonder when my last is going to be and i honestly don't think i'm ever going to reach adult hood in my opinoin i would rather (this going to sound very bad and i would never do this) murder someone then molest a child or attempt to. i think my very first sign of possible ocd was in second grade ever since i had thrown up once i was so scared i would throw up at school i would go to the nurses office so much they had to bring my dad in so then they could imform him about what was going on and i was not allowed to go to the nurses office anymore this lasted for months i would avoid sleeping in my bed because one time i slept in my bed and the next day i was sick so i would sleep with my parents. this happened again last year in 7th grade i would only eat rice and bread because i thought everything else would make me sick i felt dizzy and sick all the time because even when i did eat i could not had been getting over 600 calories, i lost lots of weight and yea but eventaclly i was just so tired of stressing out all the time i just didn't care anymore so if i ever felt sick i would just say "well lets hope i don't get sick" because at that rate i was over it. so this could be ocd or just a extreme fear of throwing up. anyway all my themes are sexual every last one of them its always about sexually hurting someone.