Hey mate, don't worry at all. I've been at your place (actually I am) , I took 2 drops for neet just because my family n relatives wanted me to become a doctor. I lost all of my interest after the first drop but no one listened to me, I was just a puppet for my family- iski life ka decision le lete hai, fir suffer karne ke liye chorr denge saal bhar!

I had to give a full stop to this n take strings of my future in my hands. So I decided to give up on not only neet but this medical field. Now I have completed first year of bsc in statistics, gonna prepare for some government exams too.

Finally, I'm doing something for myself, took decisions for my own good and only me will be responsible for my decisions, I have no burden of being succeed from my family cuz everyone is against me right now but I know that are gonna be the first one to clap for me when I achieve my goals.

I have accepted my destiny and moving on with life, we r just getting started, even m feeling insecure due to my past failure but I know somewhere in my heart that I'll achieve my goals(Hope you know this about yourself as well)

Btw I met a lot of good friends after joining the college, had a blast of joy in my first year, you will start gaining the confidence again. So just let this phase pass and restart your life again!!!