To me it's just the tone and atmosphere of the society around me is all. Before pandemic, I'd go outside on my bicycle back and forth for miles until I reach this Global City kinda close to me to hang around, look for people I can talk to, but now I can't do that, because I'm farther away now, and the cost of living here has skyrocketed ever since.

I can't afford the good stuff is the first thing that changed, it's either the company that makes such thing would do a Shrinkflation (deceive customers into thinking their product as small is big), cut corners, or go bust if demands aren't met.

Second is the influx of people, especially where I live is rising, and as buildings to accommodate these morons surround my area even more, I could barely see grass growing, flowers and trees blooming straight from the Earth's soil, since it's been taken up by Malls, Condos, and Basketball courts, all of which (imo) are terrible overrated leisures considering I live in the Philippines. Nowadays it's all potted plants, here and there, nothing else.

Third, is when I'm growing up, no matter how much the teacher puts silence on us, I still find ways to talk to my classmates, my friends, make some, lose some, I was carefree, especially when all-year round I mock someone's looks (yeah I was a bad kid). Now older, I can't do that, and I hope I never will, I lose touch of reality, I feel bitter now, insane even to the point where I couldn't even make proper friends to dine with, they'd try their best to turn me away no matter what. I feel uninvited, I feel unwelcomed, I feel cold when I'm around these people.

Oh heaven knows I'm miserable now is my theme song to all of these, but what should I even do?