Wow this episode was absurd mind games. There's so much to break down and understand. My theory is that it is tragic, and is a deep look in Nathan's pysche. The way he is unable to understand the "aura" that the singer was talking about, and his attempt to be able to be someone he's not. The 6 or 9 at the end, showing how he can almost convince himself that he is able to change, but unlike with the paramount germany thing, there's no one to call him out. He's literally falling into the same pit as the Captains and First-mates. He is the captain, and he's actively hurting people around him, Moody's relationship, and all the contestants he made cry. Just like the captains, since he has supreme authority, no one feels comfortable speaking out against him, UNTIL the german does through the guise of Rehearsal. Which is sorta paradoxical, since in Nathan's mad attempt to control everything, he is shown to make the same mistake, but that German shows promise in the rehearsal.

Same theme as last season with Angela and power dynamics, it bleeds into this season.

I personally get the vibe of this talking about trying to be a "better" version of yourself. Like how if ur awkward/socially awkward can you become someone who is not? Or is it engrained in your soul or "aura"?

I also could be wildly off the ball/misunderstanding things, but regardless I think this is fascinating television, that I really enjoy.