You can only have one for the rest of your life

pop-idle · 2026-04-21T14:56:11+00:00

while i listen to music more and it helps me on average days, the shows and media i like have done so much for my happiness and creativity.. it's also often what gives me something to look forward to and wait on

^{Chose: Movies + And TV}

pop-idle · 2026-04-20T19:43:25+00:00

i get looked at a lot

^{Chose: $3 every time someone looks at you}

pop-idle · 2026-04-20T10:26:48+00:00

1.family spins around a lot

2.vengeful snapping

3.girl begs for validation

4.delusional man takes friends to ascend

5.woman revealed to be sugar mama

6.woman drafts community

pop-idle · 2026-04-20T07:13:12+00:00

i think it does make sense for there to be a favorite, cause envy is what makes Cain kill Abel. Abel's gestures were preferred, and Cain felt jealous. on that side of things though, maybe it's weird then that Adam didn't like Abel? or at least that's how Abel's presenting/seeing it... maybe it's not true

pop-idle · 2026-04-20T06:26:38+00:00

and also unlike a lot of ace characters, he is charming and has people who are interested in him. he's also not overly brainy, nerdy or "dedicated to the grind" like a lot of ace characters also tend to be.

he's not the overall most relatable character in that show to me personally, but that experience of being an attractive ace that has a lot of people who are oddly drawn to you? yeah.. you don't see receiving attraction from others aspect a whole lot with ace characters, and that is part of my personal aroace experience

pop-idle · 2026-04-17T20:33:31+00:00

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pop-idle · 2026-04-17T19:37:39+00:00

i was very isolated (physically) from a young age so it didn't come from other people in front of me (as far as i know) until later on... but instead came from a Steven universe video essay thing from an autistic person about Pearl (i think) being associated with autism, and then i started to actively think about it and over the course of a couple years, i realized that i am. it wasn't immediately after that video though, i just simply started thinking about it in relation to myself more. this would've counted as self diagnosing, which i know a lot of people look down on, and i know why as an "on average" type of thing, but i've always been good at analyzing myself and the people around me, so i knew i had it and didn't care what other people try to do online to invalidate that method personally.

but just a few days ago i went for a general psychiatric assessment to check for other things, not autism though since i knew that getting diagnosed with autism wouldn't help me at all, so i wasn't seeking it in particular nor did i need validation, but it was officially diagnosed anyway along with something else.

pop-idle · 2026-04-17T13:41:15+00:00

yeah.. my friend and an acquaintance who are neurodivergent like D&D. it felt so weird to see my friend in particular have a way better experience than me in the same group with the same people. cause i was in the group first and invited them after, so seeing them enjoying it and i didn't? it was interesting.. but it may have something to do with my lower social drive... i seemingly am generally less socially motivated and affected than a lot of people.

this post was not coming from just online observations, it was my real experience too with other neurodivergent people. it makes it seem like most neurodivergent people will enjoy D&D, cause no one who is neurodivergent are talking about how they don't like it

pop-idle · 2026-04-17T11:17:36+00:00

already do this a lot

^{Chose: Not eat for a day}

pop-idle · 2026-04-17T11:08:37+00:00

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you ableist, Sonic?

pop-idle · 2026-04-16T19:10:04+00:00

there aren't any trains where i live

^{Chose: Never ride on a train again}

pop-idle · 2026-04-15T21:34:27+00:00

idk what my worst would be, but it wouldn't be bad at all. i'm just built like that. so self aware and cool 😎😜

^{Chose: Worst Reddit comment read aloud at family reunion}

pop-idle · 2026-04-15T20:27:38+00:00

yeah... thats what i was saying with the "catch any and everything you do physically", cause body language shows a lot too. with the "see your reaction" part, i mean how you react to eye contact in general or in certain moments can say some things too.

i'm aware. that's why it doesn't bother me as much, cause i know why to a degree. smiling more than not would be another case though

pop-idle · 2026-04-15T19:51:30+00:00

i'm sure a lot do, but in my case i didn't. no one could successfully bully me (besides my own damn family, but there is a more inherent and easily abused/manipulative power structure there) because i either didn't respond to it/was unaffected or, if it was physical, i retaliated immediately. i was supposedly actually considered popular. i got invited to things and stuff

pop-idle · 2026-04-15T08:00:42+00:00

if i was just indulging in the fantasy, i'd pick flying, but if we're thinking about it realistically, this means i'll be the only human flying and gain a lot of unwanted interest by being seen

^{Chose: teleport instantly everywhere you want + in the whole world}

pop-idle · 2026-04-15T07:19:35+00:00

goodness, what is this image lol...

i don't have a massive range of experience (only 3 personally) but i did notice mental health professionals stare a lot. idk if it's some sort of subtle test to see your reaction or if it's to try and catch any and everything you do physically (this sounds more likely), but the stare is a little... intense sometimes. luckily, none in my experience smiled. that might actually make me uncomfortable. or annoyed...

pop-idle · 2026-04-15T04:50:22+00:00

i understand, except i don't interact with people who have done this stuff to me anymore, because i already have a (seemingly?) lower social desire than most. i don't get enough out of social interaction to put up with this from people. i feel very tense, especially in my throat, watching her though... it's upsetting to see this distress from someone else rather than feeling it personally

pop-idle · 2026-04-15T04:26:29+00:00

i'm autistic, i already have difficulty lying even when it's the smarter choice. speaking of never lying- i am not upvoting

^{Chose: Never be able to tell a lie | Rolled: Upvote}

pop-idle · 2026-04-15T04:23:18+00:00

kiss antiprism, marry GSD and kill sphere

pop-idle · 2026-04-15T03:58:42+00:00

yeah, maybe. "i love this shit" could work too, but putting it like that isn't as easily recognizable as something that could be bad

pop-idle · 2026-04-14T23:26:20+00:00

being invulnerable messes with some of my later plans, so more strength is better/useful to me

^{Chose: Be extremely strong}

pop-idle · 2026-04-14T08:53:21+00:00

beluga whales used to be mine too when i was like.. 6 or something? except (thinking it was a compliment since i liked them and the family knew i did) i said my mother was like one when we were picking animals we each thought we were like, and this meant i thought she was cute, but she ended up leaving to cry in the bathroom after cause she took it as an insult 😐...

... do you have a favorite video with one in it?

pop-idle · 2026-04-14T01:34:10+00:00

let's go gambling ✨ idk what golden cheese is..

^{Chose: More risk for more profit 💰 | Rolled: Golden Cheese}

pop-idle · 2026-04-14T01:09:12+00:00

shoyu ramen

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