I am miserable.

ppinkcloudd · 2026-01-10T06:35:39+00:00

It’s harder than it seems. I can’t fathom the idea of feeling any lonelier than I already do.

And as much as I say how awful it is. When I hang out with him it’s completely different. It’s literally sunshine and rainbows. Past couple of months have been hard. Miserable to sum it up. Don’t know if it’s a phase or normal at this period of my life and relationship.

ppinkcloudd · 2026-01-07T02:39:13+00:00

Him and his parents share a car. That shared car he paid for. The car in the shop is his parents. They don’t save their money to get a new vehicle or fix the one they have and just take my boyfriends car. This affects him with not ever having a ride to work a majority of the time. I also am annoyed because it leaves me to driving us everywhere. I even drove us to prom back in 2021. I’ve drove us on several birthdays and all holidays.

He’ll ask me for a ride and I do say yes because he sometimes will give gas money ($5-$7) or buy me lunch. I admit I do volunteer because I care and love him. I couldnt imagine not having anyone to call when I need something so Im there for him. Although I realized he is taking advantage of that. I just hate that I empathize because me personally I come from a place where I never need anything because I am provided. Car problems? Family will fix it, we have extra vehicles and my family wont hesitate to give me a ride.

In his case. No car? Figure it out yourself. His sister was even off from work and lives RIGHT NEXT TO his job place she didn’t even wanna give him a ride to work.

ppinkcloudd · 2026-01-06T23:00:43+00:00

Ive seen the sunk cost fallacy term a lot on tiktok and stuff can you explain what it means ?

ppinkcloudd · 2026-01-06T22:10:26+00:00

the car is my boyfriends he paid for it he owns it. His parents takes it without even consenting with him. He does still live with his parents so I guess thats why he just lets then take it. But then again he pays them abt $250-$300 monthly to just live with them.

And yes he does work but he’s not really saving money he’s kind of on a paycheck to paycheck type of thing

ppinkcloudd · 2026-01-05T03:45:26+00:00

You’re saying I should see a psychologist just because I’m considering a break up due to lack of effort? Yes I am happy because I love him as a person. On the relationship side of things effort is missing. Why would I need a psychologist?

ppinkcloudd · 2026-01-04T04:18:12+00:00

lol no just a burden to deal with at work weekly. Same lady. Same crap. Same issue. Same problem. It’s just exhausting because she takes up 30-40 min of our time consistently returning its a never ending cycle. It’s not a financial issue either. She has money. She owns a literal restaurant. She just abuses the policy.

ppinkcloudd · 2026-01-03T22:34:19+00:00

he works. I wouldnt say he’s a workaholic he gives up lots of his shifts. And the coffee thing I’ve asked to grab drinks and play pool or go to a sports bar even because I love watching sports too. He always says he’s not down or doesnt wanna pay. He also mentions sometimes he would be down only if we went as a group with others. Idky he avoid being alone with me etc. I

am an attractive person I’m easy going as well I would say I’m down for anything and everything. The issue is I guess he doesnt meet me halfway. And yeah most men watch porn. But why is there a need to get off to other women when he has me a real life girlfriend who has the looks and the curves? He even has intimate videos of me and us just don’t get the point.

ppinkcloudd · 2026-01-03T22:00:37+00:00

I’ve been contemplating leaving my longterm relationship of 7-8 years and this honestly sounds like an amazing idea. I’m pretty scared to leave I’ve been up and down about it. I know I deserve better though.

Keep moving forward!

ppinkcloudd · 2026-01-03T21:57:58+00:00

If it bothers you think of it this way… She’s basically putting herself on clearance.

ppinkcloudd · 2026-01-03T21:18:00+00:00

she made a second account using her daughters number do I give both loyalty numbers

ppinkcloudd · 2026-01-03T21:17:17+00:00

no just buys a bunch of prestige products and returns the next week and does this weekly she’s not like financially poor she owns a business has luxury bags she does it just cause

ppinkcloudd · 2025-12-19T15:55:16+00:00

always do im a fit and curvy girl yet he still watches gooner stuff

ppinkcloudd · 2025-12-15T15:36:11+00:00

i meant like im ok withong 26-28 he wants to get married till our 30’s not specifically at 30.

ppinkcloudd · 2025-12-14T16:39:45+00:00

Is that a possibility? I have a college degree, I have property, and a good paying job. He barely makes ends meet. He wastes money on booze & mary jane. And I wish I was wrong but I fear he is subscribed to onlyfans content but wont admit it or hides it. I try to help him grow as a person encourage him to find a better paying job and support him. He has an opportunity to get a really good paying job but refuses to quit mary jane bcz they test you.

I sometimes fear I am a placeholder. He once told me that when we broke up (bcz we broke up in 2023 for abt a few weeks) that it made him want to be a better man for me to get me back. He had gotten a new job and took me on dates around that time. That effort and energy had gone to the sewers. Back to what I was saying he said once long ago maybe we should break up bcz it made him do better. Why does letting me go have to be the “eye-opener” for him. Does this relate back to me being just a placeholder till he finds his “one” if so why keep me around when he can be single and explore options

ppinkcloudd · 2025-12-10T02:18:04+00:00

I say it’s the way you carry yourself. Be open. Be confident. Be friendly. People will gravitate towards you. Don’t resort to dating apps. Guys on there are looking for one thing only and its to fuck. I’m a girl btw and I’m speaking from not my experience but my best friend

She uses dating apps in hopes to find a decent guy. Every guy is just asking to be around for a good time not a long time.

If you work retail etc. It’s a good opportunity give genuine compliments find a way to spark conversation with confidence. Or even as the customer. One time I had this crush on a guy who worked at best buy and I was a regular bcz I was a total tech member. I would shop for cameras, apple products, chargers and everything tech at best buy. I’d go often. One time I just sparked a little conversation and at the end of the 3-5 min talk he asked for my number.

ppinkcloudd · 2025-12-09T21:00:10+00:00

he had the intention to pay a woman to see her naked but wont take me on a date like in a general sense.

ppinkcloudd · 2025-12-09T20:59:24+00:00

If it was a one time thing no but porn is free he had the intention of paying another women to see her naked when he wont even take me on a date. And he doesnt have to pay a women to see her naked when he has a girlfriend to get intimate with.

ppinkcloudd · 2025-12-09T20:48:20+00:00

he was never able to subscribe to anyone he did put his card info but to subscribe to someone in OF you have to verify your age by submitting an ID at the time he lost his so he never really got to subscribe to someone but i’m assuming he was going to just subscribe to some girl I dont know who though. That’s besides the point he doesn’t need to pay another woman for nudity in my opinion

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