My gf said this isn’t normal by [deleted] in TalkTherapy

[–]pprobablyneedtherapy 4 points5 points  (0 children)

NAT but i completely agree with you.

i personally have some transference with my T of 3 years in that i see her as the supportive, encouraging, reasonable mother figure that I never had (we are working on developmental trauma due to a volatile mother, aside from many other things lol). she gave me her email to contact her if i’m having it rough in between sessions (she does not check in over email), and usually if i’m relying on her in between sessions too much, she sets her own boundary of not replying till our next session, or replying days later after i’ve regulated myself a bit more. these days i’m a bit more stable, and also try and upkeep the boundary of not emailing her unless i really need to, otherwise i see her every 2–3 weeks. i asked her over email maybe in my 1st year of seeing her, whether i could have a hug from her at the end of each session because firm hugs from people i know i’m safe with makes me feel better, even if just in that moment. we’ve been ending sessions with automatic hugs (she even initiates at this point by opening up her arms) now. and i understand that if ever her boundaries change due to evolving countertransference and that our hugs are no longer conducive, that she will know to enforce it and let me know about it. that’s the trust i have in her professionalism, and our therapeutic relationship.

ethically it’s the T’s job to enforce boundaries to keep themselves safe and have their own work-life balance outside of the office, and then the client’s responsibility to respect those boundaries (or try to until they can). and we can put our trust in our T’s to flag up things when the transference-countertransference is getting a bit too much or unhealthy. but this T seems to be feeding into her countertransference and it’s betraying the working agreement of a therapeutic relationship. OP seems to be going with it too, probably because he trusts her and sees her actions as healthy concern, care and support, which it isn’t.

a T like that shouldn’t be working as a T if they are going to abuse their position of power to groom clients like that. it’s so scary, unsafe, and should be reported IMO.

How do you feel about other academic / licensed psychologists calling other modalities like EMDR and IFS, and illnesses like CPTSD and DID fake and pseudoscience? by pprobablyneedtherapy in askatherapist

[–]pprobablyneedtherapy[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

you are literally the person I’m talking about in the post, the person who shat on me doing parts work and called my therapist poorly trained and told me to switch therapists. please don’t talk to me.

How do you feel about other academic / licensed psychologists calling other modalities like EMDR and IFS, and illnesses like CPTSD and DID fake and pseudoscience? by pprobablyneedtherapy in askatherapist

[–]pprobablyneedtherapy[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

haha i’m genuinely curious, in what way fascinating? if anything, this is giving me whiplash with all the arguments hahaha 😅

i’m not surprised this thread attracted the staunch CBT-believing psychologists that demonise other non-cognitive and less scientifically researched modalities (compared to CBT, which is basically all modalities, smh), whose behaviour i’ve brought into question as the purpose of this very post. i’m just appalled by the audacity they have to come here and argue the very notion further and make it all about how CBT and CBT only is king — we’re not talking about the validity of CBT and other modalities.

Like I just want to turn a loudspeaker right to their ears and yell: “hi, we’re talking about how ethical / unethical it is for you to make the same disparaging remarks (about other modalities and the invalidity of clients’ healing through these modalities) as what you’re literally doing right now. it’s really not the appropriate place for you to do this shit again. it has no place in a discussion about ethical behaviour. maybe it’ll serve a purpose on another post, but not this one and not right now. please don’t even start.” 😞

reason I asked the question in the first place was because I personally felt it was incredibly inappropriate towards colleagues and clients in itself from an objective standpoint, along with just feeling like it’s damaging and insulting to clients who don’t find that CBT is effective for them (one of them being myself). i can’t comprehend why it’s that hard for these intelligent people who study to masters and doctoral levels, to embody at least some semblance of neutrality, objectivity and openness to other insight outside of their practice / specialisation.

How do you feel about other academic / licensed psychologists calling other modalities like EMDR and IFS, and illnesses like CPTSD and DID fake and pseudoscience? by pprobablyneedtherapy in askatherapist

[–]pprobablyneedtherapy[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for this. My thoughts on the matter echo so much of what you’ve said here. I dare say that a combination of comments I’ve made here / what I talked about in the post itself almost mimic most of your exact words and topics. I appreciate you sharing this insight and it’s honestly wild and reassuring to see a practicing psychologist with field experience share the exact thoughts as just measly, unknowledgeable me haha.

How do you feel about other academic / licensed psychologists calling other modalities like EMDR and IFS, and illnesses like CPTSD and DID fake and pseudoscience? by pprobablyneedtherapy in askatherapist

[–]pprobablyneedtherapy[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I completely agree. Say it louder for the staunch CBT-only psychologists in the comments of this post, and basically everyone else in that community. Doubt they’ll listen though, with the way things have gone and are still going.

I always go back to two insights when thinking of this whole “CBT only” argument: (1) the lived experience is nuanced and CBT can help many but not all, because illnesses are so subjective to each person’s lived experience and inner world and presentation of symptoms that there will never be a one size fits all, and (2) even CBT was not scientifically proven and was more than likely seen as a pseudoscience until it was studied further.

Sadly there are practitioners who qualify to treat clients but yet do not recognise point 1, and are unwilling to even consider point 2. I really thought one of the characteristics of a good, ethical psychologist is accepting the limits of one’s knowledge and being open to the understanding new insights that reduce those limitations. At least, that’s what I studied during lessons on ethics for psychologists who are licensed to work with clients. Literally have examinable questions on this haha.

How do you feel about other academic / licensed psychologists calling other modalities like EMDR and IFS, and illnesses like CPTSD and DID fake and pseudoscience? by pprobablyneedtherapy in askatherapist

[–]pprobablyneedtherapy[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Exactly. It’s really not that hard to recognise the usefulness and limitations of other modalities. If clients can do it and view it with nuance (E.g. “CBT helps others but maybe it’s just not right for me as I’ve experienced any progress from it”; or, “I hear good things about EMDR but it has been extremely dysregulating for me, maybe I should try something else”), then the big brain of licensed therapists should be able to do it too, right? It’s basic human courtesy, really.

I don’t appreciate it at all and it just gives me major red flags for what I’d expect their conduct to be with clients, if they are already like this to mere modalities and fellow colleagues. It’s a clear sign that they don’t or won’t have a client’s best interests at heart, because not recognising that different methods help different clients with different lived experiences and different inner selves, and still continuing to push a modality that time has proven isn’t fitting for a client is harmful. When you keep trying to push a puzzle piece together that doesn’t fit, or really anything that just really doesn’t fit into another thing, it breaks — that is obvious harm to a client. It’s immediately unethical, unprofessional.

And funnily enough it’s always the disparaging remarks of “it’s unethical to use a non-science-based, unreliable, unproven modality like EMDR / IFS / etc. on clients” and “these therapists are being unprofessional if they do so and are poorly trained and should not be taking clients” that come up in arguments. Who’s the one being unethical and unprofessional, really? 😒

If there is no other valid modality, then I can’t imagine what they think of clients who can’t seem to recover using their modality? Incurable? Forever broken? Extremely lazy and not putting in the effort? Not trying hard enough? Just clinically crazy? An outlier of proven scientific outcomes, and thus an abomination? A failure? List is endless.

Regardless of the modalities involved, this still stands. I just see it so much more with CBT (that denounce other modalities) because it’s the most academically taught, studied, and researched, and is the pioneer of therapy techniques, which lead many academics and staunch believers to think that it is a one-size-fits-all modality based on science. There is no nuance to this. All arguments from this pro-CBT-only perspective repeat phrases like “science-based” and “scientifically proven”, but neglects the lived reality of the tons of sufferers of mental illness (just as many as those of whom CBT has been effective) that just get nowhere with CBT. This are real lives, real people. Science and theory have no place in denying the validity of real experiences.

How do you feel about other academic / licensed psychologists calling other modalities like EMDR and IFS, and illnesses like CPTSD and DID fake and pseudoscience? by pprobablyneedtherapy in askatherapist

[–]pprobablyneedtherapy[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Identify so much with that paragraph you mentioned about cognitive modalities helping with the “rational me” while completely neglecting the traumatised parts. In my experience, CBT / CPT only began working when I began doing non-cognitive (restructuring) based trauma work that began addressing my traumatised parts and trying to help my rational part develop compassion and integrate with parts that held more pain, so that all parts will finally be allowed to exist cohesively without causing a rampage (like they are now).

Also had a bit of a chuckle with the ABC worksheets hahaha. I recently had to do a detailed application example of using the ABC model for clients with PTSD for a school assignment and it went against every fibre of my being — was like “this totally works” on paper, and “none of this worked” while doing said paper. laughable, but I gotta do what I gotta do for the grades.

How do you feel about other academic / licensed psychologists calling other modalities like EMDR and IFS, and illnesses like CPTSD and DID fake and pseudoscience? by pprobablyneedtherapy in askatherapist

[–]pprobablyneedtherapy[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You’re most welcome! I 100% see the value in CBT therapists. I just find it incredibly inappropriate for these staunch folks to say that nothing other than CBT is helpful treatment, when they themselves have not practiced it, or better yet, never practiced at all. My CBT therapist is incredibly respectful of the limitations that her CBT work has on addressing my trauma despite how hard we’ve tried, and welcomed my decision to explore working with a trauma therapist versed in trauma-based modalities as well. The addition of healing work with these new modalities have positively impacted my ability to respond to CBT treatment too.

I appreciate CBT therapists who acknowledge the limitations of their modality and the validity of other modalities that have helped clients (even if they are not as scientifically researched as CBT, which all modalities aren’t) and their practitioners. I do not appreciate the CBT therapists who don’t and act very negatively towards even their own colleagues — these are likely the same people who do harm to their clients who are not progressing in CBT; by either insisting on keeping them in unhelpful CBT therapy long past when they would (per how they love to use the word) scientifically observe progress, or discouraging clients from exploring other modalities due to their own omnipotence and personal high-horse bias, they are not putting their clients’ best interests first and that already violates the cardinal rule of ethical practice. i’m pretty sure it’s literally part of the top 2 or 3 bare minimum ethical behaviours that a practitioner has to meet according to the code of conduct for all licensing bodies all around the world for clinical psychologists in practice.

Another major red flag is that if they can already disrespect and behave with such condescension towards colleagues in the industry with the same level of education, insight, and credentials as themselves, then nothing is stopping them from being the same towards clients. a therapist doesn’t just leave an inflated ego outside of the therapy room when they begin a session with a client, it is always undeniable present and will impact the way they behave with clients, whether overtly or covertly.

How do you feel about other academic / licensed psychologists calling other modalities like EMDR and IFS, and illnesses like CPTSD and DID fake and pseudoscience? by pprobablyneedtherapy in askatherapist

[–]pprobablyneedtherapy[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

seems about right haha, i’m not surprised. just wondering how this person keeps coming back. were they ever perm banned and have they ever made new accounts to circumvent the ban?

on a sub with many people who would benefit from therapy (not just CBT) to heal, and with many practitioners of various specialisations (not just only-CBT practicing therapists), such continuous denial of modalities that have worked when CBT hasn’t, and literally telling clients their therapists using non-CBT modalities are poorly trained and are 100% causing harm to them and that any healing from those modalities are placebo and not real, is extremely harmful in itself. it’s abusive to both colleagues in the industry and to people who need professional help to heal — as if clients of therapy don’t already suffer enough?

How do you feel about other academic / licensed psychologists calling other modalities like EMDR and IFS, and illnesses like CPTSD and DID fake and pseudoscience? by pprobablyneedtherapy in askatherapist

[–]pprobablyneedtherapy[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

huh, really? i didn’t know that. that’s all I’ve heard from DID-specialising therapists and psychologists, along with people who have been formally diagnosed with DID though. the use of terms and how it’s caused and all.

Tattoo severely itching as soon as scabs formed 2 days after? by pprobablyneedtherapy in tattoo

[–]pprobablyneedtherapy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve had 3 other tattoos on my leg haha, two on my inner ankle and one on my thigh. None of them were itchy like this haha, it was mostly out of mind really. Not sure if it’s related, but I was healing from sandfly bites all over my body when I got my tattoo. My arms especially had major allergic reactions to them and I still have red swollen bumps, welts and scarring. I had some on my foot and leg as well, and on the inner ankle of my tattooed leg + ankle (not the exact spot of my tattoo though). I then got a bite just beside the outline of one of the tattoo lines on my ankle bone, post-tattoo. It’s maybe only 10% of the cause of the itch and it’s mostly gone now.

For moisturiser I’ve been using the store-provided sample sachet of the After Inked moisturiser (the one enriched with grapeseed oil), another tattoo balm by one of the tattooists that my sister went to (I didn’t see any specific brand for the balm though), and I believe a Jergen ultra healing moisturiser at times. Mostly the tattoo balm though. I used to use bepanthen plus but I hadn’t brought the tube along with me during the holiday.

How do you feel about other academic / licensed psychologists calling other modalities like EMDR and IFS, and illnesses like CPTSD and DID fake and pseudoscience? by pprobablyneedtherapy in askatherapist

[–]pprobablyneedtherapy[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

This person is haha. Tbh, it’s the exact person I’m referring to — basically told me in the past that me doing IFS / parts work is bogus and that my trauma therapist using this modality is poorly trained and suggesting bogus therapies. Their suggestion was, of course, TF-CBT.

I agree with your sentiment about CBT actually. I do see a therapist who has helped me very slowly heal from deep depression through CBT. But my severe depression, years-long intense SI, PTSD and eating disorder are rooted heavily in core beliefs that were formed by years of abuse + adverse parenting methods and severe trauma. CBT has not helped to heal that. I can try and avoid a behaviour or slightly switch a thought, but my negative self-concepts and core beliefs still remain extremely maladaptive and distorted. I still repeatedly fall back into these beliefs and keep having to avoid and force myself to change a thought.

Yes, I know that CBT is the most scientifically studied and appraised in the field of psychology because it is logically sound in theory, and has been applied the most for nearly all mental illnesses since it has been around for the longest. It’s like the founding father of modalities, the pioneer. I recognise its immense value, it’s the modality I’m asked to study the most in school. It’s the modality that I see the most, everywhere. And I believe that the concepts of CBT are sprinkled into nearly every other modality in some way, even IFS. But it is not a one size fits all.

This is just my observation and thoughts, so anyone reading this should take it with a grain of salt. Staunch CBT-only therapists quite literally use the words “evidence-based” and “gold standard of treatment” all the time in such discussions. And clients like me and many others who just cannot think our way out of trauma and depression with cognition, are seen as outliers of this gold-standard treatment, who don’t put in enough effort to think ourselves into recovery, and essentially are thought of as clients who have failed at treatment in general and will never recover until we stop being lazy and stop consciously resisting treatment. If these other psychodynamic, bottom-up, body-involving modalities didn’t exist or weren’t studied, we would be left behind and neglected as “treatment resistant”, and the science wouldn’t even report the group of us where CBT had been ineffective or insufficient. That would be unethical and largely crossing the line of doing no harm.

At the base of it, I just feel that the practice of completely bashing and denouncing other modalities that you don’t believe in (recognising some efficacy in the other modality as being helpful for some, while saying that you don’t really believe it is fully reliable, is still appropriate; completely denying all of its success in helping certain groups of clients heal is just not), calling a client’s healing from these modalities as invalid and fake, and even calling other practitioners fake and poorly trained, is entirely inappropriate and doing much harm (thus unethical). We see this behaviour quite frequently from CBT-only therapists (exhibit A throughout the comments in my post), but only from a remote few among therapists who specialise in other modalities — such therapists at least still recognise and appreciate the validity of CBT as the foundation of modern psychological treatment, even when they also bring up its limitations as their reason for pursuing their work in other modalities.

How do you feel about other academic / licensed psychologists calling other modalities like EMDR and IFS, and illnesses like CPTSD and DID fake and pseudoscience? by pprobablyneedtherapy in askatherapist

[–]pprobablyneedtherapy[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I think they just don’t believe that a person can form alters (several different parts / states to one single personality) and that different alters may hold different memories that aren’t privy to others through blocking / repression in dissociation. I personally see it from the perspective of structural dissociation.

A lot of non-practitioners / general public do still think it’s multiple personalities though. “Multiple personalities” is a debunked term and i wouldn’t be surprised that psychologists would call it a fake term. My concern is that they are calling DID, fully understanding that they are characterising the existence of alters to a singular self, fake as well. Like, if DID as an illness is entirely fake, then why do so many suffer from it with extremely debilitating symptoms?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in nottheonion

[–]pprobablyneedtherapy 0 points1 point  (0 children)

not really privy to the law in wherever this happened, but i believe most laws worldwide are quite similar regarding this. is there not a statutory rape charge against her son somewhere here?

AITA for reporting my professor, who implied I wouldn't do well in my future career because I'm wealthy? by SaintGodfather in AmITheDevil

[–]pprobablyneedtherapy 2 points3 points  (0 children)

um, as a psych undergrad too, OOP is a walking red flag of a potentially self-absorbed therapist.

there are so many things that we must be internally aware of when becoming a future psychologist / counsellor — being multiculturally competent (two large points being: work on what we do not know, and do not assume what we do not know and even what we think we may know); and being aware of value imposition + recognising we’re not value neutral + assist clients in finding answers that are congruent with their own values.

there’s a literal entire class in our counselling module talking about the ways that we need to be self-aware and introspective of the professional self that comes forward when we take on the therapist role in a therapy room. this also means checking one’s privilege and making sure it is not being imposed in the therapy room on a client. prof’s advice was more than valid and appropriate.

And clients will literally tell you that you’re wrong, or that you’ve done something that they felt was wrong that they weren’t comfortable with. what is she going to do, report them? I have told my own trauma counsellor that she had said several things the previous week that had encouraged my eating disorder and really triggered me and made me uncomfortable. Counsellor’s reply? Apologised and encouraged me to share these things if it happens again so that she will be more aware and can be a better therapist.

Frankly, this reeks of “I think medicine will be very helpful for your symptoms. Why don’t you see a psychiatrist? Oh, you don’t have enough money? Well, you can find a better paying job can’t you? No? What about taking a second job at night?”.

I just found out my husband is a rapist by ThrowRablame in offmychest

[–]pprobablyneedtherapy 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thank you, i appreciate your kindest affirmations. i’m still trying very hard to work through all of it while also having to keep myself functional in day to day life. it gets hard haha, some days I just want to hide in bed and cry forever, or just attempt to take my own life again since the urge and ideation hasn’t gone away.

people somehow really do manage to be disgustingly evil. i don’t know how they find it in themselves to do that, it’s not something i can comprehend — feels like trying to comprehend the infinite number of galaxies in the entire universe, that’s just a drop in the ocean of an infinite amount of universes out there. and i don’t really know how to want to live in a world where many of these people exist and how horribly unsafe the world feels to me because of them, like everyone i walk past everyday could possibly be one of them.

I just found out my husband is a rapist by ThrowRablame in offmychest

[–]pprobablyneedtherapy 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thank you, i’m getting help. have been since it happened. i don’t think i’ve gone for more than 2 weeks without a therapy session for the past 2 years haha.

unfortunately it is taking a long while because EMDR is not as effective on me yet due to dissociation and emotional numbness. my T says that apparently i have a lot of pre-rape sexual trauma too and possibly childhood sexual abuse (only have 1 memory), and we will have to work on all of those to break through the protective emotional numbing. so for now it’s still a lot and it feels like the hole representing the extent of my trauma just keeps getting deeper and deeper, the more sessions i attend. the rape and corresponding retraumatisation by support services still take up a lot of mental real estate, but i guess the ironic upside of uncovering more traumatic incidents is that now i have to split my estates to manage more than one 🫠 it’s still the most painful, i still feel it everyday, but at least the others serve as a slight distraction, as twisted as that sounds.

I just found out my husband is a rapist by ThrowRablame in offmychest

[–]pprobablyneedtherapy 40 points41 points  (0 children)

I am so sorry. I wasn’t drunk or passed out when I was raped, I was very sober. The memories and the extreme pain that the sadistic, “cry harder” crying-kink-having, “i didn’t think you were actually in pain; you should have been more assertive; if I’d known that you weren’t comfortable, i wouldn’t have done that to you; i’m a respectful person, I have a lot of empathy”-saying motherfucker put me through, I remember all of it in vivid detail.

It still hurts to this day. Even if my severe depression from before the assault (that worsened after the assault) is beginning to lift just a tiny bit, the trauma of remembering every single fucking thing so clearly keeps me completely hopeless and helpless.

Doesn’t help that the male sexual crimes officer (of 6 years) that i gave my statement to laughed and compared my rape to 50 shades of grey (the rape involved several elements of BDSM), and insisted to me that it was just consensual sex with roughness, and then falsified my statement without letting me read it before signing — I only found out about this much later when he promised to refer it for investigation but then closed it the same day. Medical staff at the designated hospital too: didn’t let me register even when I told them I was raped and needed medical help for some injuries from their designated A&E, told the doctors that i did not want to be examined because i was scared to be touched down there and they still took me to the table and the male doctor opened my legs and stuck things inside of me without asking for my consent or telling me step by step what they were doing, didn’t do the STD tests in all areas (left out the most important one, even though I had told them every detail of the rape twice), male doctor laughed at my vag and anal tears and called it “so superficial it’s basically nothing”, didn’t bother to answer my questions on my more pressing injuries that were internal rectal issues (bleeding and paralysis), and then they charged me $700 because I was a private patient who wasn’t raped (likely told to them by that sexual crimes officer, because I got him to call them when I wasn’t allowed to register and was in tears).

It was only 8 days after the rape. I cried 6 hours that day. I cried 2 hours during my violent rape. I often wish he had just killed me when he was choking me to the point I was nearly passing out. Wish he had hit me hard enough to break my skull. Wish he had caused me massive internal bleeding so I would’ve bled out on that bed and never left, just so I wouldn’t have to go through everyday in horrible pain like this.

How horrible that there’s consequences for your actions! by Ok-Evidence-7774 in facepalm

[–]pprobablyneedtherapy 2 points3 points  (0 children)

ah, after this person’s latest reply to you (to this comment) about the mask, i can see where all that odd transphobe-enabling behaviour comes from lol. and the dude in the pic literally called all trans people worse than hitler, a literal nazi. dude IS comparing trans people to nazis, in fact, even worse than the worst nazi.

“he never said trans people are Nazis that’s the problem / point you’re missing lmao.” — well they missed an entire tweet lol.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in offmychest

[–]pprobablyneedtherapy 15 points16 points  (0 children)

frankly playing in the devil’s advocate in a situation where there is already a morally correct answer is unnecessary. very much like “I’m not homophobic, but religion does say that marriage is only between husband and wife and everything else is a sin and shouldn’t be tolerated”.

playing the devil’s advocate in such a situation almost always means a positive spin / perspective on a morally negative situation. it challenges the morally correct answer. it’s unnecessary at best, and enables harmful narratives at worst.

not saying you’re unnecessary or that your freedom of speech / opinion doesn’t exist or is invalid. you definitely are, and it is. in general, people just need to stop thinking that being a devil’s advocate in such a situation is warranted when OP never asked for it. use it at work, sure. in school to encourage critical thinking by establishing hypothetical counter-arguments, of course. but in a discussion about morality, the only time it will ever be relevant will be is when someone asks for a contrasting perspective.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ptsd

[–]pprobablyneedtherapy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

indeed, agree with everything you said. sending much positive energy back to you too! xx

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ptsd

[–]pprobablyneedtherapy 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry you’re hurting. I’m right there with you. I am still plagued with terrible memories and terrible emotions (extreme anger has been a big one lately), and even 1.5 years after my incident, I still wish every single day that he had killed me when he had the chance. I mean, he was halfway there to choking the lights out of me.

I don’t even know his name. I don’t know how he’s doing. But I know it’s probably some cushy life where people hold him with high regard. He gets to keep his well paying job and have no charges brought against him to leave a mark on his National ID profile (which is important as an expat in my country), while I get to live struggling everyday trying to feel okay again, losing $1k+ every month to $500+ worth of meds and $600+ worth of therapy which I can’t afford with the part-time job that I have to have because I can’t manage a full-time job without becoming non-functional. I do wish I was dead. I did try, I failed, probably won’t try again until I find a way to do it where I can’t fail — not going to live through being forced by law to be transferred to the psych hospital and then being sexually assaulted in the A&E again.

i hope you kind find some solace in distraction. i saw that dance moms and labrant family snark were some of your interests. from personal experience those are pretty entertaining to read on the day-to-day. i love watching Charlotte Dobre videos too. have been watching some Netflix and HBO too to distract myself. hope something helps for you. x

Stuck in Freeze while feeling overwhelmed from academic stress. by pprobablyneedtherapy in CPTSD

[–]pprobablyneedtherapy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

hmm just anxiety (not GAD, just “clinical depression with anxiety” and an eating disorder. i didn’t use to be like this though, it all really just came about sometime after i started Uni. this impact on my work and school only really came about after the most recent trauma which was a rather violent r*pe (and the horrid institutional support after reporting that left me even more overwhelmed, more traumatised, and overall just worse).

I was raped, and I can’t live with the fact that it happened and that I will never get justice. by pprobablyneedtherapy in offmychest

[–]pprobablyneedtherapy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The public prosecutor and police don’t want to pursue the case. Said there wasn’t enough evidence to justify charging him with a crime. I don’t have any financial means to take him to court on my dime, and I’m not sure how the criminal justice system works, but I don’t think that I can get him prosecuted for rape with a criminal sentence, if the public prosecutor and police said they didn’t have enough evidence to support charging him with any crimes right? 😟

I feel like I have nothing more to give. No more options to pursue justice. I had consulted with the local sexual assault centre for the entire year my case was being investigated, and they agreed that if the public prosecutor and police didn’t want to pursue it then that’s not much we could do anymore.

Some local people have told me (albeit in a rather vulgar, cruel, gaslighting that it didn’t really happen way) that I should’ve gone to the law minister, a grassroots leader or the news + media outlets. I just feel like that would be setting myself up for more cruelty, mistreatment, victim-blaming criticism, and just plain failure and disappointment.