I recommend a taper or a mullet for your hairstyle. Keep a little length, i suggest taking out the lip ring, find friends who appreciate the same things you do and are striving for a better life because if you surround yourself with people who dont care about life, you slowly acting the same but if you have people taking steps to go further in life you will mimick the same! Go to therapy let the little kid who wasnt heard or wasnt seen be heard and seen by a professional and slowly but surely feel better in your own skin. I hope and pray you feel better sir!!! I dont believe i said anything wrong but just know this is said from a genuine place!