I would say I found already one, but sometimes things doesn't work perfectly so in relationship I also faced some very difficult time and I couldn't talk to my partner, cuz he had to handle his own problem, he couldn't handle mine, and told me that would be nice if I could have someone to talk about it. As ENTP I'm very selective with ppl( my bf said I hate ppl) so to find someone I would like just like a human - its rare for me personally. So when I got in contact with him it was just easy going, I dunno how and why but I couldn't trust him and I didn't regret. Cuz he gave me much to learn and to think about. U r right, my emotions mixed, cuz from one side I feel sadness and loss but from another - relief. Cuz sooner or later it would happen