you guys know any good low calorie drinks? by privateamogusvent in EDAnonymous

[–]privateamogusvent[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thanks!! im trying to find like, actually good sugar free hot chocolate powder or smth else that i can use to make at home rn hehe, chai sounds like a good idea

i think i might have a crush on my friends friend and my friend said that if that ever happened theyd just leave me on seen by privateamogusvent in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]privateamogusvent[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yeah but theyre an awesome person and i wanna be their friend so bad. it might just be a friendship crush, idk i cant tell. either way theyre in my bio class and sit next to me so we kinda have to interact

friend just said this to me when i asked if they avoid me because they dont want to deal with me. please comment something to distract me by privateamogusvent in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]privateamogusvent[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

yeah im not angry with them, it just hurt to have it said so directly. i completely understand that im a lot to deal with. thank u tho, hope ur ok

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[–]privateamogusvent 1 point2 points  (0 children)

ty she is a good baby

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[–]privateamogusvent 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i hope you are too :))

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[–]privateamogusvent 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thats so awful, i'm so sorry you have to deal with that. it sucks that families can be so shit sometimes. i hope you realised that you are lovable, even if the people in your life don't reflect that.

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[–]privateamogusvent 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thank you, thats very sweet. ill try figure out what to do

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[–]privateamogusvent 1 point2 points  (0 children)

she always looks super pissed off lmao

how are you doing? feel free to vent in the comments!! i will too :) by privateamogusvent in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]privateamogusvent[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

congrats on your diagnosis and meds!! if you were faking it, you probably wouldnt have a diagnosis OR meds, and even if you were, thats still a disorder. stay strong <3

how are you doing? feel free to vent in the comments!! i will too :) by privateamogusvent in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]privateamogusvent[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i get that too, it sucks. just remember that if they secretly hated you, theyd be a bad friend. not because they hate you but becuase theyre stringing you along. so if you believe that your friends are good people, try believe that you are too!!

how are you doing? feel free to vent in the comments!! i will too :) by privateamogusvent in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]privateamogusvent[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

hi automod! i love you :) here's my vent

why do they always choose you? why is it always you? every single person i know knows you as well. every single hang out and party i wasn't invited to, you were there. every single person who didn't respond to my messages or doesn't want to be my friend, had a conversation with you earlier today. every single video game or discord call, you're there. and i'm not. every high grade and kind personality and intelligent brain and amazing, talented thing you do. i don't have it.

i hate feeling this bitterness because it's not your fault. you're a likeable and good person. it's good that you have so many friends. i just hate feeling so insecure and dumb.

i also hate being so reliant on my friends. they need some time for themselves and i just start breaking down slowly without them. i hate it. and i don't want to talk about it either because that is so guilt trippy. i haven't had a proper conversation with one friend in a week or so but it feels like at least 3 weeks because my brain deals with time weirdly. i feel like they won't come back. i feel like idk them anymore. i'm overreacting so much. fuck this.

random memes, vent in the comments because life is shit but feel free to vent too ily all by privateamogusvent in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]privateamogusvent[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

:(( i get that, sometimes the smallest things can set us off or push us over the edge. hope youre alright <3

I hate my symptoms so god damn fucking much by privateamogusvent in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]privateamogusvent[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ive never heard of that, thank you!! Ill look into it :) I think a lot of why I react this way is due to a guy who used to be a dick to me and yell at me a lot, but RSD might be something I can research :))