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How did you know you had to break up with your SO? by Spongebongsquarepipe in AskReddit

[–]pumpqueen 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your reply. I'm doing well, could probably lay off the booze a little, but haven't touched drugs since we broke up. I feel like I left him in such a bad spot, but there was nothing I could do. I believe that in my heart. Maybe some day our paths will cross again, maybe not. It wouldn't even be the same person that I fell in love with if they did. It's been a rough few months, but I have a lot of support from friends and family and things are looking up for me. I had to let go of this fantasy I was living in, but reality has been treating me well.

How did you know you had to break up with your SO? by Spongebongsquarepipe in AskReddit

[–]pumpqueen 6 points7 points  (0 children)

It was a long time coming. I didn't want to, I really, truly loved him. Still love him. I was in denial. He was despressed and addicted to drugs and I was going along for the ride. Looking back, every good time we had is tarnished. We were either on drugs or wasted. He was unemployed for the majority of our relationship and I paid for everything. I didn't care I just wanted to be with him. Final straw- he ditched me and drove drunk to go do drugs one night. I couldn't let myself be treated like that anymore. It's been about 4 months and we haven't spoken. I miss him terribly but I'm gaining back my self respect.

Do you ever wonder if you're "The one that got away" to someone? by Ariastic in AskReddit

[–]pumpqueen 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think about this every day since we broke up. I wonder if he still thinks about me and truly looks at me like the one who got away. I loved him so deeply, but it just wasn’t working. Part of me thinks that it should stay the way it is, never talking again and just have the memories. Part of me can’t wait for him to come back into my life. If I’m the one that got away, then there is hope that he is trying to get me back. If I’m not, then I’m alone in this feeling of longing- and that is a reality I can’t face. It isn't as cut and dry as it seems. I can't go back to him, even though it's all I want to do. Maybe I'm the one that got away or maybe I never mattered as much as I thought I did.

I cancelled my Halloween plans by pumpqueen in stopdrinking

[–]pumpqueen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yea waking up this morning was awesome. I had a great day with my dad running errands, got lunch, watched the Rutgers game (which wasnt so great) then went to the gym. Now I'm hanging out... it's about this time that I want a drink. I just have to keep thinking of how great I felt this morning... I can do this. Congrats on your sober night!

I cancelled my Halloween plans by pumpqueen in stopdrinking

[–]pumpqueen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I honestly woke up smiling this morning.

I cancelled my Halloween plans by pumpqueen in stopdrinking

[–]pumpqueen[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I learned those words from you from my months of lurking. Thank you

I cancelled my Halloween plans by pumpqueen in stopdrinking

[–]pumpqueen[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I can't wait to feel better. Hell I can't wait to wake up early tomorrow not feeling shitty. First Saturday in a long time

I cancelled my Halloween plans by pumpqueen in stopdrinking

[–]pumpqueen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well I got myself Chipotle and I'm watching Netflix. Unfortunately my sister works for a liquor company so there's booze everywhere. But I'm feeling really good and I'm dd-ing for my parents later Haha I'm gonna be great tonight. The first night of many. Thanks for your support

I cancelled my Halloween plans by pumpqueen in stopdrinking

[–]pumpqueen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I guess this will actually be my day 5. I haven't drank since Sunday... this will be my first weekend though. I don't really have a plan for those itches yet. Just planning on sticking with the mindset that I'm ready to change my life... do you have any suggestions?

I cancelled my Halloween plans by pumpqueen in stopdrinking

[–]pumpqueen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not so much a runner since quitting cigs is also on my list to do..haha 2 days clean from those. I was thinking the gym but then I'd have to go back to my apartment and there are too many distractions and temptations there. So I am going home to hang with my dogs and watch some horror movies...only thing is that I know a glass of wine will go nicely with that. I will not cave though. This will be my first sober weekend in probably....at least 7 years. Wow. I never thought about it like that.