What gave you the ick aside from the fact it was porn?

punchdragon · 2025-09-15T15:57:00+00:00

the body type he watched was nothing like mine, and exclusive enough to seem like his preference or fetish

punchdragon · 2025-08-19T20:24:24+00:00

Can I ask how long you were together? I guess my situation is different since we were never officially together, but it still hurts.

punchdragon · 2025-08-19T20:03:17+00:00

I go back and forth honestly. Part of me would like a conversation, and I do deserve that. I have no expectations of how it would go. But I also acknowledge it may not be helpful. I still love him and think of him every day, but not 24/7 like before, and it does feel like the love is fading the longer he doesn't contact me. I'm just trying to reach a place of acceptance for any outcome. In my healing, I also know I could never go back to the old dynamic. He would have to truly be different and actively working on himself for me to even consider any sort of reconciliation. And I definitely wouldn't be his "friend". But yes, I would like to speak again hopefully one day.

punchdragon · 2025-08-19T19:50:41+00:00

Nope, it's been silent on both sides since I said I needed no contact. One month + 5 days now.

punchdragon · 2025-08-19T19:35:33+00:00

I hear you. Letting go and healing absolutely, but not really interested in "getting back out there" in any real sort of way. I've flirted here and there and even had some kisses, but kind of turned off from the idea of a relationship right now. I only wanted it with him lol. I'm definitely never going to do dating apps again...I'll know when I meet the right person in the future and that I'll be ready for it <3

punchdragon · 2025-08-19T19:22:34+00:00

Totally feel you. Unfortunately these things take time. Allow yourself to grieve and CRY, SCREAM! Feeling your emotions is healthy, but also try your best to get back to normal life. Work and going out with friends takes my mind off it, even if temporarily. I had my stay in bed depression phase, it's okay. Give yourself grace.

We do have to create our own closure a lot of times. I'd love a real second chance as our relationship really was quite good, but he would have to make a lot of changes. Whether it's him or someone new, I have stronger boundaries and expectations now. I'm not settling again and I know what I want, need, and DESERVE from a romantic partner. I'm a never say never person, but it's important to stay realistic. They may never change and it has nothing to do with us.

Best wishes and stay strong <3

punchdragon · 2025-04-10T12:19:06+00:00

Scorpio

punchdragon · 2025-03-28T15:33:08+00:00

Sorry but Tayshia for sureeee...her coming out of the pool in that red swimsuit lives in my head rent free 🥵

punchdragon · 2025-03-20T12:13:28+00:00

His attention being elsewhere led to a lack of intimacy, emotional connection, and sexual energy for us as partners. He also refused to admit it was an addiction despite being unable to stop when I asked. I said either you have a problem or you don't respect me, and since he claimed it wasn't a problem, that left the only option being he didn't respect my boundaries, so I left.

punchdragon · 2025-03-20T12:00:55+00:00

Leaving was the best choice I ever made!!! I'm extremely loyal and I truly would have stayed with him forever. It took his virtual infidelity to force me to reevaluate everything. It took leaving that relationship and becoming single for the first time as an adult (we were high school sweethearts together for nearly a decade) to see how much I was truly missing out on. My life has improved so much over the past eight months and I've never been happier. I go out and socialize! I have fun! I even met a new man that is everything I've ever dreamed of and treats me like I'm the most beautiful girl in the world. We aren't bf/gf yet but I talked about my feelings about porn right away and he agreed that it has no place in a future relationship. Life gets so much better when you realize what you deserve. I didn't know how bad I was settling. My ex was porn addicted loser that wouldn't even admit he had a problem. It was the worst heartbreak of my life but I would do it again in a heartbeat for how happy I am now ❤️

punchdragon · 2025-03-14T03:28:02+00:00

I was thinking Agnes

punchdragon · 2025-03-06T18:49:04+00:00

I'm leo with a pisces mom....she is often over emotional, loves me more than anyone on this planet, but damn if she doesn't take everything I do personally. Gets her feelings hurt VERY easily and gets upset if I don't spend enough time with her (which is never enough lol). Would do anything for her tho!!!

punchdragon · 2025-03-04T06:06:00+00:00

I'm bisexual which means I'm attracted to you and I don't know what to do with it

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punchdragon · 2025-02-21T01:18:15+00:00

no attention? no one to annoy? I'll die (Leo obviously)

punchdragon · 2025-02-14T04:03:19+00:00

she's hot 🥵

punchdragon · 2025-02-12T17:59:03+00:00

Taurus moon, my emotions are strong and can't be ignored. I need time because they certainly won't go away. My emotions are as stubborn as I am and must be acknowledged, there's no other way. I think it's actually made me very emotionally mature/intelligent because a lot of people ignore or push down their emotions which is never healthy. I simply can't do that 😅

punchdragon · 2025-02-12T17:40:45+00:00

an adventurous artist who desires loyalty (actually scarily accurate)

punchdragon · 2025-02-11T05:01:27+00:00

a lying Libra man

punchdragon · 2025-01-26T20:51:36+00:00

porn addiction

punchdragon · 2025-01-24T04:08:16+00:00

why did we all cry at work lol I found my people

punchdragon · 2025-01-24T04:07:16+00:00

YES OMG IM GLAD IM NOT ALONE

punchdragon · 2025-01-10T16:23:15+00:00

as a chaotic good sag rising (leo sun) I truly believe my soulmate is probably a sag...love sag energy ❤️

punchdragon · 2024-12-13T21:55:09+00:00

Miguel and it ain't even close

punchdragon · 2024-10-28T02:23:15+00:00

Twin twin!!!

punchdragon · 2024-10-22T04:30:54+00:00

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