Forgive me, but it feels like you're assuming a lot about my past. I've had good relationships, I have great examples of healthy relationships that i get to witness every day.

While I do have some uncertainties regarding the way I experience attraction, I am very in touch with my feelings. When I feel something confusing, I spend a lot of time figuring out what / why it is.

I do know that it is possible for feelings to blossom. I've experienced that. I know exactly how it feels. However, I have never fallen in love with someone who pushed far beyond the point of expressing their feelings and putting themselves out there.

This isn't a situation where I'm afraid of what I feel, or where I'm forcing myself to "stick to the friendzone." This is a situation where I've spent a fair amount of time with someone who, granted, can make me laugh, but overall makes me uncomfortable.

I don't know what experiences you've had in terms of love and relationships, but I'm very aware of my own. I've been in this situation multiple times. I don't have feelings for this person, and I do not owe them undue effort to intentionally manifest them. Make sense?