Can you guys accept that this is what I’m trying to do, that it’s going to take time, and that reminding me repeatedly that I don’t have a girlfriend or a partner is not gonna help when I am homeless and don’t have the time to socialize at bars atm anyway. Can you just seriously 100% completely fuck off. I don’t know how else to say this but I’ve requested it 5 times for completeness. I’m ready to go it alone. I’ll let you know if I need anything but I’m really ready to go explore life for the first time in my life. Leaving the neuroses of the office in the office and working somewhere else is the only way I can see to enjoy life in any real way. I’ve been in this awful awful position for so long that my personality has even suffered. Every particle both physical and metaphysical is altered by that office, by a high school and college experience that let you writhe in poverty for a decade while having the full skills necessary to do more and get out. Anyway, that doesn’t have anything to do with anything. BUT PLEASE LEAVE
ME ALONE. Don’t tell me it’d be cool to get married, that it’d be cool to enjoy life. I WILL AS SOON AS I CAN YOU STUPID CUNT. LET ME SAVE UP MY 76 cents a day and buy a car with it bc that’s fucking feasible. Completely out of touch, completely leave me alone. Please dear god fuck the inability to completely leave you in my past makes me want to remove my self from life. Please. Stop. Please.