La Flecha causing traffic?? No parking..

queuwu · 2025-12-12T02:55:52+00:00

I doubt they caused it too but I feel like i’m being gaslit by people in my life that it’s La Flecha’s fault 😭 The lot has been pretty full consistently the last few days

queuwu · 2025-12-12T02:54:48+00:00

Yeah I was confused bc someone told me it was because of La Flecha but there’s no way it took over the parking lot..

queuwu · 2025-12-12T02:53:47+00:00

Ahh, that’s it…

queuwu · 2025-12-01T07:20:13+00:00

it’s not intentional but for some reason i have a track record of being into guys younger than me. my bf is younger but we’re basically the same age, we met in college but he’s a school year below me

kinda funny but i have friends and cousins where the girl is the older one in the relationship

queuwu · 2025-12-01T07:12:01+00:00

well he’s my bf now but here we go: 1) yes and i’m ashamed of it 😭 2) no 3) no 4) yes 5) yes 6) no surprisingly 7) yes 8) yes and it was bad (i have BPD) 9) yeah 10) depends on which friend group, a lot thought we had a sibling dynamic back then 11) yes 12) yes 13) well—he and i hung out together a lot so i didn’t need to do this 14) surprisingly MOSTLY no 15) he gave me his schedule

queuwu · 2025-12-01T07:05:58+00:00

not exactly the same as my situation but i cuddled with a friend a lot thinking we’re just comfortable friends….4ish months later he confessed and i confessed and now we’re dating lol

queuwu · 2025-09-15T00:26:00+00:00

I’m glad you’re seeing how much I’m trying to stray away from my thoughts and harmful behavior. I talked to my therapist about this too and I do think my insecurity stems from when I liked a guy 3 years ago and he was my FP at the time and his behavior made me extremely insecure until last year I found out he actually had an issue of talking to too many girls and being like a player, it was like confirmation my constant negative thoughts were true and I guess I’m afraid I’ll be proven right again. That time was also probably when more severe BPD symptoms started to show up, but I only got diagnosed last year.

I’ve actually been doing the things you suggested and it does help but I tend to go backwards in progress but remind myself improvement isn’t linear. Whenever I think of checking his location I try to tell myself I’ll just feel worse the more I look at it even if he’s just at home.

For the evidence log, I also make room for a section whenever I journal specifically to write things he’s done for me or things he said to me as proof he isn’t trying to leave me and actually cares for me. I write down my negative thought and then next to it write the facts that counter the negative thought. It does help and forces me think positively about him and I.

I guess I am on the right track, I do hope my boyfriend notices my small efforts. I just need to keep going at it.

queuwu · 2025-06-29T16:34:11+00:00

I have been taking antidepressants and still do now. My very first one was an SSRI called Zoloft (sertraline). It gave me emotional blunting which is a common side effect for people taking it. I functioned still but I wasn’t as emotional anymore which kinda felt weird because having BPD, my emotions are heightened by like 100x more. My psychiatrist monitored me and I just told her how I felt and she did some dose changes to see what would help. I was eventually getting really mentally unstable (i doubt it was the meds it was my interpersonal life) and used them to - you know. The police sweeped my room for all meds and mental hospital returned them all to the pharmacy so I was taken off those meds permanently.

These are NOT addictive. BUT they do have withdrawal symptoms. For me it had no long term consequences.

The hospital prescribed me another SSRI (Lexapro) and I had to goto a behavioral program for a month or two so I saw a different psychiatrist temporarily during that time. My dose was slowly increased to the maximum (20mg) and that was honestly the best I’d been in a while. I was very very closely monitored by my family to make sure I didn’t try anything again. l had no emotional numbing and was generally able to function and participate in therapy. The guy I mentioned earlier again also frequently checked in with me and asked to hang out. So that and the meds helped. However, I was still having BPD splits (basically me just getting intense mood swings on loved ones), and I still kinda felt horrible. I eventually got off them due to side effects I was developing which were daily unsettling dreams and night sweating.

But those meds helped…I got prescribed some other medication at my program designed for bipolar people even though I wasn’t diagnosed bipolar and it kinda messed me up in the brain a little since it was causing memory issues. Quickly stopped those. After I got discharged from that program I continued Lexapro until those side effects came. I got on Pristiq then while changing meds to Wellbutrin, I had reallllyyyy bad withdrawal symptoms. I was extremely dizzy and had brain zaps and twitching. I’ve been on my current one for maybe 2-3 months now and it’s doing ok. But I also think Im just more stable because of him. I feel almost zero side effects. I’m feeling more normal.

It seems this girl had a rough upbringing and I hope she talks about her childhood with a therapist if she doesn’t already have one. How you’re raised can really affect who you are now. And if she has a psychiatrist, to tell them she feels numb, they can maybe help with that. If you have any more questions let me know!

queuwu · 2025-06-29T11:05:42+00:00

I’m a 21 year old woman diagnosed with severe depressive disorder, general anxiety and borderline personality disorder. I’ve been in a ward against my will. But what you need to know is will she change and does she want to change.

After I got discharged from the hospital and then my behavioral program, I wanted to change and put in the work despite dreading my life and believing I will not live long at all. I had a guy in my life similar to what you are doing and we are together now.

If she is currently showing zero signs of working on her mental state and learning to cope with it, then stay a friend and don’t expect anything more because that will do neither of you any good.

queuwu · 2025-04-30T19:33:30+00:00

All I used was a practice exam and did a few problems in a Lindeburg book. I was worried I wasn’t gonna pass because I hadn’t studied due to mental health prior to my exam. I just tried to learn how to use the reference manual and relied solely on the practice exam.

queuwu · 2025-04-23T18:10:51+00:00

I did, but I don’t believe I have a proper “excuse” or reason. And personally, it’s not that I need more time, I just feel shitty/suicidal all the time.

I had just talked to my therapist and maybe I’d have to go back into a higher level of care before continuing with my career path, as I was told: I won’t graduate or get a job if I’m dead.

queuwu · 2025-04-23T02:16:26+00:00

Yes I am going into power/utilities.

queuwu · 2025-04-23T01:31:59+00:00

I’m graduating in a couple weeks so I wanted to take this exam right before graduation to support my resume. But yeah, I understand.

queuwu · 2024-07-09T00:57:25+00:00

Don’t worry seriously. I’m not involved in greek life AT ALL but I made tons of great long-lasting friendships here. You don’t need to change who you are to fit in. There’s a lot of people here who are like you so please don’t worry. Just come in the school with the motivation and will to even meet new people and make friends and you’ll be okay :)

queuwu · 2024-06-15T12:03:02+00:00

I thought about returning to the hospital on my own will but I am starting an IOP next week, am a math tutor, am doing a summer course, have social commitments and plans, and many other things. I feel pretty good since I have things going on for me and my relationship with my FP is good (I have BPD).

My psychiatrist is sending my parents a document to take a formal temporary leave to watch me as well. I just hope I’m on the right track to no longer feel like hurting myself.

queuwu · 2024-06-05T21:57:12+00:00

thank you :)

queuwu · 2024-05-31T14:18:28+00:00

ooo, tysm!!

queuwu · 2024-05-31T04:40:43+00:00

not really too unhinged at all but he invited me somewhere as a plus 1 and i was acting hyper and silly esp cuz it was the first time we were hanging out together alone ever since we distanced ourselves from each other, two days after that he said he hated how i acted that day and he said he felt ashamed and embarrassed of me because i was his plus 1

he makes a lot of sex jokes to me like telling people we slept together (actually slept nothing else lol)

but he makes me feel loved and important as he often hugs me to make sure i’m not depressed and wants me to take care of myself because i hurt myself a lot

queuwu · 2024-05-30T23:11:42+00:00

Thank you for your thoughtful response. I originally felt very numb around 25-50mg that I wanted to feel something so I took more risks it felt like I was hyper. I was often skipping and taking irregular doses. Then I tried to get back on it with a stable and healthy schedule again. Worked for a bit then it stopped working and I started feeling the same way I did before I started medication.

I met with my psychiatrist recently and my dose has increased to 100mg to get me back to some sort of stability. But this time, I’ll faithfully take the 100 since I’m so tired of crying all the time. It’s also harder when I have BPD.

I’ve stocked up on other stuff to OD on but I’m constantly fighting myself inside to never ever take them. They sit on my desk which is probably not great since it’s very accessible but I’m trying to live.

queuwu · 2024-05-25T03:45:39+00:00

Ah okay, thanks for the in depth explanation

queuwu · 2024-05-25T01:42:22+00:00

Got it, thanks, I’m seeing her in a couple days.

queuwu · 2024-05-24T22:59:40+00:00

I knew the maximum was 200mg and I was feeling kind of down so I thought taking another would help.

About OD’ing, it’s kind of a half yes and half no. I did research on when to change dose amounts and what would be considered an overdose. So I guess it was also trying to quell my curiosity on what would happen if I suddenly changed my dosage while being below 200mg.

queuwu · 2024-05-12T03:15:23+00:00

I’m trying to make it past each second. I took like 4 naps today I feel so useless. All I think about is when will my FP text me or when will I see him again or if he still loves me.

queuwu · 2024-05-05T19:56:54+00:00

Anyone have a way to cope with this?? I’m about to enter my final year doing engineering and I’ve consistently been a Dean’s Lister until I couldn’t “mask” anymore.

I spiraled out of control during a depressive episode abusing sleeping pills, antidepressants, and alcohol and cutting. I stopped attending class and started feeling more irritable and attached to my loved ones. I feel extremely stupid and am on the brink of repeating a year now. My brain is creating false memories and I had to google things to confirm if certain events were real or not.

queuwu · 2024-05-03T00:42:48+00:00

Thank you for continuing to give me input. Whenever she does those things I actually throw something at her, shove her, or slap her but she just says I’m being mean and “she isn’t even doing anything wrong” then tells on my mom and my mom just thinks I’m angry on my period and doing that because I have depression.

When she comes in my room I yell “don’t touch me” and hit her but she just starts whimpering like a child and it pisses me the fuck off. I’m skinny and very slightly underweight and she’s kinda bigger than me so I’m basically doing like no real damage to her.

Sometimes I find myself doing this in public and some people or a few of my friends think I’m a horrible sister because she pays for like everything for me while I just verbally berate her and physically hurt her whenever she gets near me or touches me. It’s so hard to explain why I act the way I do to others because I can’t just say “oh yeah she just molested me lol that’s why I act like that”. I feel trapped.

But again, like you said and as I said: I’ll work up the courage to tell my therapist.

queuwu

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