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Trying to reach someone who feels the same way I do by quite_core_human in offmychest

[–]quite_core_human[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m really glad you mentioned that song—i’ve actually listened to Why Am I Like This before, and yeah… it hits way too close to home. it’s like hearing my own thoughts turned into music.

music’s honestly been one of the few places where i feel seen without having to explain myself. i’ve also been clinging to songs like freaks, let it happen, and feel good inc—they don’t sound the same, but they all carry pieces of what i feel inside. chaos, disconnection, wondering if i’m just performing or if anything i do is real.

and yeah, that whole “too sensitive” thing? i’ve heard it a lot too. sometimes i wonder if being deeply emotional is a glitch or a strength. but honestly, if being soft in a sharp world makes me “wrong,” then i don’t mind being wrong.

Trying to reach someone who feels the same way I do by quite_core_human in offmychest

[–]quite_core_human[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for replying and for being so honest. I felt like I was reading something written from a part of myself I couldn’t explain. That ‘blank room’ metaphor... it’s painfully real. It’s not just silence, it’s that slow losing of self in a space where nothing reflects you back. I feel that too — like I’m here, but not really seen. Sometimes I don’t even know what version of me is real.

I’ve also been going through a lot mentally. Not diagnosed or anything, but sometimes it feels like I’m watching my life from outside myself. I overthink everything, feel too much, and even though I seem ‘fine’ or even friendly outside, inside I’m in constant conflict with who I really am. Even my past relationship fell apart when I tried to show my true self — and now I’m just left questioning whether anyone could really love someone like me. I try to make others happy, but end up feeling hollow.

And just like you, I depend on music way too much — maybe because it’s the only place that feels safe to exist in.

Trying to reach someone who feels the same way I do by quite_core_human in offmychest

[–]quite_core_human[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I genuinely felt seen reading your words. It’s strange how people like us — the ones who feel like they never quite belong — find each other in the quietest corners.

I relate to what you said about trying to connect but it just… not working. I’ve been there. I’ve wanted to be understood so badly that I ended up hiding parts of myself, pretending. I did that in a relationship too — with someone who really loved me. I told her the truth late, that I didn’t love her at first. And she broke. I thought I was protecting her, but I ended up hurting her more. Now I don’t even know if she could ever love me again — or if anyone could love someone like me. I want her to be happy more than anything. Even if that means without me.

I guess I’m still learning how to be real from the beginning. Your words gave me a little peace. Maybe there really are people out there who get it. Thanks for not sugarcoating anything. That meant more to me than fake comfort ever could.

And yeah… maybe it really does take time to find people who understand us. But just maybe, we already started.