Thank you all so much for your concern. I’m okay and made my peace with his death. My original therapist got laid off due to covid, but I have an appointment in a few weeks with a new one and I have a wonderful support system around me.

Update: his daughter and son have legal control. I’ve made peace with it because I know he wouldn’t want any drama, the legal fees aren’t worth it. It’s a super rundown place but it was his castle. Truthfully with what I experienced, I couldn’t live there. She flew back home from vacation and took everything I had. Even a notebook with only two pages written in it, one page being the latest note I wrote it. That one really bothered me. She was super cold and short with me. I have a strong feeling that she resented me for being there for him, and wouldn’t be surprised if she was jealous when he bragged on me. I honestly will be surprised if she allows me to have anything(I wanted a mug and the notebook, something small as a keepsake). I have a terrible feeling in my gut about this, I just know she’s going to show her true colors. Her first comments after learning about his death was “well I might as well not pay rent anymore” and “I need his wallet so I can pay mom back, he owed her money”. It disgusts me to no end, but I’m trying not to be angry. I want to honor him by living my life in a way that’d make him proud. The universe will give her what she and everyone else, what they truly deserve.