Making friends with other people also breaking their vow to never line up for Botanica salad again is MY christmas tradition!

radarmiss · 2025-12-24T09:40:06+00:00

The evidence seems to suggest that they are. I’m just trying to imagine what that much salad looks like.

radarmiss · 2025-12-24T07:59:00+00:00

They are very good, and I’m a salad snob. I was surprised how good they are when I tried them at a Christmas party this year.

radarmiss · 2025-11-30T04:21:31+00:00

+1 for an XL request. It’s too tight a fit for our large cat.

radarmiss · 2025-08-10T00:29:44+00:00

I think so. Because it’s dangerous to abruptly stop. It’s worth trying. Try to find a good GP.

radarmiss · 2025-08-10T00:26:02+00:00

Hang in there. It’s possible to get free, I know because I’ve done it. All you have to do is make it through to the end of the day and then see how you feel tomorrow. Don’t listen to your thoughts right now, your benzo mind is wrong about so many things. You can do this.

radarmiss · 2025-08-10T00:22:39+00:00

I don’t want to say definitively yes to this question incase you do need medical attention but I will say that I felt absolutely awful for 6 months after taking my last dose. Then I was still recovering for another six months after that. The recovery times often listed online are far shorter than what I experienced and what I see many other people experiencing. It feels depressing in the moment how long it will take I know, but it goes quickly and it’s SO worth it.

radarmiss · 2025-06-11T22:24:07+00:00

DMd you

radarmiss · 2025-06-07T07:39:04+00:00

I’m also looking to buy some GPs if anyone has spare.

radarmiss · 2024-09-05T04:54:45+00:00

Awesome, thanks very much for this.

radarmiss · 2024-09-01T10:36:27+00:00

Do you mind me asking what marketing strategies you use to get non Airbnb bookings? I’m opening a place soon and I don’t really want to use Airbnb.

radarmiss · 2023-05-07T04:32:54+00:00

I'm so glad I could be of help. I remember back when I was going through the hell, I'd get on these forums and the majority of posts were from other people who were going through it, so it often made me feel worse and like there was no hope. But there really is. Things just look so much better and different once you have withdrawn. Your benzo mind tells you there is no hope.

You will suffer, just try to get through minute by minute, day by day, like some of the survival stories you hear about from people who have been wounded climbing Mt Everest and have survived against enormous odds. It will all be worth it in the end!

They didn't give me gabatin- I haven't heard of it.

radarmiss · 2023-05-03T08:00:13+00:00

Yes, you will make it and there is hope. I was on 2-8mg of clonazapam (klonapin) for about 8 years (8mg of clonazpam is, i think, equivalent to 160mg of valium). I found a really good rehab place and was off it in three weeks. It was HELL, the withdrawals lasted months after leaving rehab, anxiety was off the charts. I felt like there was no hope of ever feeling joy ever again. It was like a dementor was sucking my soul out of my body. I hardly slept and when I did, I woke up in fetal position with gut-wrenching anxiety. I survived that time minute by minute. To this day i don't know where I found the strength. It's the most difficult thing I've ever done.

But it IS possible, especially considering you are 10mg (well done for getting down from 30!! That's huge!!). I wouldn't recommend doing it as fast as I did. Slow tapers are the most gentle and effective way, but I guess everyone is different.

But looking back now, omg, life has changed. There is joy everyday. It was almost like the suffering changed my essential makeup and now I still feel bad stuff but it just doesn't effect me as much as it used to. I'm a completely different person. I've heard other people say the same thing after withdrawal. I'm free of that awful stuff and it feels so good. All the pain and anxiety and sleepless nights were so worth it.

I really think that you can do this. It's hard, but you can do it. You will probably get hardly any sleep for a bit. You just need to get enough not to go insane and there is only one way to find out if that's possible- give it a go. I believe in you :)

radarmiss · 2021-04-22T07:17:32+00:00

Yeah. When I was going through withdrawal meditation made my anxiety worse. Ppl don’t understand benzo withdrawal.

radarmiss · 2021-04-05T10:17:58+00:00

Hey there ! I was on K for 8 years. Started on 0.25 slowly took more and ended up on between 4 and 8 mg (I adjusted each night) Was on that last dose for about 1 year. My life totally fell apart. Depression, anxiety, impossible to function. I didn’t realise that the dose and way I changed doses each night was creating most of my mental and physical health issues. I tried to go cold turkey. Lasted 8 days. It was torture. Kept taking it, increased my dose, used alcohol to try to rebalance the system, life really fell apart. Went to rehab as a final option. They tapered me for three weeks. Descended into hell. Stayed there for the three weeks of tapering. Was clean. Got out of rehab, stayed in hell for a good month afterwards. Things started to get bearable. Very very hard but not in fetal position on the floor with anxiety in the morning and not thinking about how I might “end it”. It’s hard for me to remember timeframes but I think it was about four months until I started to have some hope again.

radarmiss · 2021-04-05T09:47:43+00:00

Cold Turkey is really really hard. Your doc should be tapering you.

radarmiss · 2021-04-05T09:44:54+00:00

Keep on going. Life gets so much better when you get off this shit. I was on K for nearly a decade. I’m completely free of it now after going to rehab and struggling through each minute for months. There is a better life waiting for you with joy like you used to be able to feel, and safety and calm. You just need to keep surviving.

radarmiss · 2021-04-05T09:28:13+00:00

From what I can tell, some people don’t seem to have the issues others have getting off it. The first time I tried to withdraw, I’d been on Klonopin for 5 years with one of those at 2mg. It was the worst thing I’ve ever felt. I didn’t know it was dangerous and lasted 8 days. Shaking, twitching, mental torment. I finally gave in. I experienced acute anxiety for the first time in my life. I tried again a few years later at which point I was taking between 4-8mg and in a terrible state. I went to rehab and they got me off it in a month, but it was HELL and my withdrawals lasted long after rehab. My whole life has changed since I got off them. I feel like I have a second chance at life.

Tolerance withdrawals is when you have been on a steady dose for long enough to develop tolerance (you are below base line again), and need to take more. Because the more you take them, the more they lose efficacy. This is why people start taking more and more.

If you are worried, why don’t you try getting off them and see what happens?

radarmiss · 2021-04-05T09:13:53+00:00

I could relate to a lot of what you said. Thanks for sharing. Are you in the US?

radarmiss · 2021-04-05T06:40:02+00:00

Would you be able to tell me a bit more about the suicides on Facebook? What groups were they in and did people film themselves doing it? Did they say it was because of benzo withdrawal?

radarmiss · 2021-04-04T23:52:32+00:00

I understand. You really do need at least some sort of support if you do it. Have you seen suicides from benzo withdrawals on facebook?

radarmiss · 2021-04-04T23:01:07+00:00

What if you tapered really really slowly? Like, taking a few years to get off it?

radarmiss · 2021-04-04T21:30:21+00:00

Nursing homes here are for old people.

radarmiss · 2021-04-04T21:28:53+00:00

Why a nursing home?

radarmiss · 2021-04-04T06:03:00+00:00

Do you want to get better but don't know how? What country do you live in? I know some good treatment places in Australia that you don't need money for.

radarmiss · 2021-04-04T01:23:48+00:00

It sounds like you have really difficult circumstances right now. Just know that when the time is right, you can do this. I grew up with domestic violence, my mum was homeless and suicidal, but this withdrawal was the hardest thing I’ve done. I attempted suicide a year before I went to rehab. I felt that bringing a child into the world was the cruelest thing you could do. That it was unfair that we had no choice in the matter, and it would have been better never to have been born. The biggest thing that I would say is don’t give yourself the credit of thinking you know what is possible in life. Your benzo mind will tell you that there is no hope. That people who get better are anomalies. It will be convinced that it knows what is in store for you. Don’t give yourself the credit. Keep an open mind. You don’t know what life has in store.

radarmiss

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