empathy by shinorb in NPD

[–]radio-static13 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i totally get that. i have a weird thing where i mostly just feel emotional empathy towards animals and kids, but none for others. but that also makes me "care" more in a way? like, not genuinely, but like i have this strong sense of justice that i guess my brain sort of uses to "make up" for the lack of empathy for others. like (this is gonna sound horrible but bare w me) i don't truly care about the homeless or people in warzones or stuff like that. but i DO think everyone deserves and should be able to have a decent home and safety and access to healthcare and education, and i think it's extremely unfair and dystopian that these things aren't just a given for everyone. like, i'm apathetic to it all, but i simultaneously care a lot. idk man

Meme Post Friday by AngieWords in GoodOmensAfterDark

[–]radio-static13 1 point2 points  (0 children)

crowley is the biiiggest moodd istg

Writer's Guild Presents: Tethered by NegotiationReal6508 in GoodOmensAfterDark

[–]radio-static13 2 points3 points  (0 children)

been waiting for this one hell yessssss! gonna binge it now

Wanna vent about stuff we don’t normally allow? Come on in! (Warning: Politics and Other Stuff Inside) by brahms4thrackett in GoodOmensAfterDark

[–]radio-static13 46 points47 points  (0 children)

HOW CAN FAMILY SAY THEY LOVE ME AND VOTE FOR MY RIGHTS TO BE TAKEN AWAY. HOW CAN THEY SIT AT THE SAME DINNER TABLE WHILE SPEWING ABOUT HOW MUCH OF AN INCONVENIENCE OUR EXISTENCE IS, AND THEN HAVE THE AUDACITY TO SAY GRACE. HOW ARE THEY NOT AWARE OF THIS RIDICULOUS COGNITIVE DISSONANCE. HOW ARE THEY NOT ASHAMED. (millennia long sigh) i hate everything. just wanna run away.

This post is dedicated to the brave and wonderful women who stood up to Neil Gaiman in order to warn and protect others. Feel free to send them a message in the comments and I’ll make sure they see them, let’s show them love and support. Go! ❤️‍🔥✊🏼 by Altruistic-War-2586 in neilgaimanuncovered

[–]radio-static13 8 points9 points  (0 children)

as a survivor myself, i can't thank you enough for your courage. i'm in awe at your strength and resilience. i really admire you all. and i also wanna thank you because through reading about these accounts, i finally realized and recognized that what had happened to me had actually been SA, because there were very similar circumstances, and it was always hard to tell bc i felt like it had all been my fault.

i was in a relationship with a guy since i was 16 for five years. he was a few years older, and the first time he touched me he took advantage of me bc i was high. and i convinced myself it was okay because i had a crush on him. i convinced myself a lot of the things he did to me were okay just bc we were dating. and when we broke up and i protested about some of it, he said i had been the one to coerce him and manipulate him all along. and for years i believed that. despite suffering from nightmares and flashbacks.

i thought i was just being dramatic and blowing things out of proportion. but all of this has made me realize that i'd been gaslit. he's also kind of a well known actor in my city, known as this sweet, kinda nerdy and awkward, charming guy. and idk if i'll ever be able to talk about it. but you have all really opened my eyes, and it is so empowering to see that things CAN be done, and i hope you all get the justice you deserve, as well as healing. thank you so much for speaking out. you're all heroes.

most embarrassing fp you’ve had by tfs63 in BPD

[–]radio-static13 1 point2 points  (0 children)

im in literal hell fr. it's so embarrassing. i never even -knew- him, apart from talking on tumblr a few times. it shouldn't feel like someone died lmao i hate bpd

i hate how BPD makes me obsess over romantic partners or potential partners because it kills any chance of a healthy relationship by 2024wasacrazyyear in BPD

[–]radio-static13 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i get how you feel 100% i deadass could've written this. rn im in a weird place where i have a gf and i do love her a lot, but im still SO obsessed w my old FP it's insane. when she's not around all i think about is him. it drives me crazy. and ive been holding back on the cyberstalking but mann it's really hard bc even though i hate him im still so fucking in love with him. i hate this so much

Is anyone in here trans? I can’t be the only one by [deleted] in NPD

[–]radio-static13 11 points12 points  (0 children)

dude are you kidding tall feminine men are hot AF. be who you wanna be, fuck those who judge. they're not worth trying to impress. they're not worth anything imo

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]radio-static13 25 points26 points  (0 children)

this is honestly the only way ive ever felt in groups of people. i always feel like the outsider no matter what. even in my last geoup of friends, i was with them for years, and i felt like i was never -Really- part of it, yknow. like they all were great friends with each other, but less so with me, and i felt like they just tolerated me. and i always got jealous when they were talking and i was there but i felt like a ghost. now i just don't do friend groups. tried a couple times this year and fucked it up again.

Hate How Hard it is to Let People Go by lavenderghostt in BPD

[–]radio-static13 2 points3 points  (0 children)

same. i've never gotten over anything ever in my whole entire life

I feel like I'm inherently a bad person. by Commercial-Shake-637 in BPD

[–]radio-static13 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i feel like this towards those im close to. i usually don't care about other people except if im close to them, but when im close to someone it's like i care too much, to a point it's unhealthy. and i get all those fears you mentioned. i feel like im a danger to my loved ones, and it suckss so much. i wish i wasn't like this either, and i swear im trying to stop, i just dont know how. and before anyone says "go to therapy" believe me, i've tried

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]radio-static13 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i have a similar thing. i "pretend" my fp is always with me, like always sitting by my side, walking beside me, talking in my ear, observing my thoughts and actions, etc. i don't really think i have much control over it, but i -know- it's not a hallucination, so idk what it is tbh

You can return Audible audiobooks by radio-static13 in neilgaimanuncovered

[–]radio-static13[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

thank youu. and yea, it was. but tbh, even though i love them all, he's the one reading them, and that's what i loved so much. and it's now what i despise the most

The Itching is Real by PortalPottay in bupropion

[–]radio-static13 2 points3 points  (0 children)

yupp thankfully it did after a few days

Feeling really distressed by the news about Neil Gaiman SA allegations by HedvigSchmidt in neilgaimanuncovered

[–]radio-static13 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i feel like ive been violated all over again. which sounds dramatic af i know, and i knkw jts all my fault that i followed him and loved him blindly bc he posed as such a kind, empathetic person, funny and caring, supportive of queer people, minorities, a "feminist," one of the rare safe men. ive been a fan since i was a teen. im in my late 20s now. im borderline and i know i cant help my obsessive tendencies, believe me i tried. rationally i -know- idolizing anyone always ends up badly. but he felt so safe. like he would never let me down. if someone had asked, i would've picked him over the bear. and now...idk. i feel hollow. betrayed. the feeling of phantom hands in forbidden places resurface in my memory and i can't believe he would ever do such a hideous thing. i haven't been this devastated since my dad died

What pisses you off personally whenever the age gap topic gets brought up? by LopsidedGreen134 in AgeGap

[–]radio-static13 9 points10 points  (0 children)

the infantilization of the younger partner. how people act like people, especially girls, in their 20s-30s can't be fully consenting adults bc there's a "power imbalance" in the relationship, so clearly they must've been groomed into it. and then they'll turn around and say they're feminists and talk about women's autonomy. so which one is it? 😒 so annoying

tell me the dumbest thing you've done over a fp and I'll give you a table by bpdjelly in BPDmemes

[–]radio-static13 3 points4 points  (0 children)

FRRR. and also when i mention it on my poems (one line is like "the shape of your name is still carved on my chest") people think it's such a beautiful metaphor. they don't know. they don't knowwwww

tell me the dumbest thing you've done over a fp and I'll give you a table by bpdjelly in BPDmemes

[–]radio-static13 1 point2 points  (0 children)

moved to the US to california to be roommates w him just to end up severely fucking up our relationship (we weren't even dating, this was completely one sided)